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• Greg

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• I've always thought anime is pretty cool.
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• Gundam Wing
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• To become a singer or an actor.
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• Singing, writing poetry and lyrics, hanging out with my friends, talking on msn, playing Rugby for my school
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• Singing, writing, linguistic skills, comforting people.




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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

FOURTY FOURTH ENTRY
Why do I torture myself like this? Why do I continue to think of a past that will never come to be again? Why do I look back on things that now only bring me pain? Why must my mind torture me in this way? I almost can't believe I was ever that happy, because true happiness is something I now rarely feel. I would not say I am depressed, I can go out and have a good time with friends, so I am not depressed. I am simply tortured. And as of late the pain has been coming back stronger again. For a while it was barely there and then suddenly it awoke again. I feel it like darkness in my soul. So many possibilities of what I could do to change this are flowing through my head, the main one is to stop caring about anyone. I am afraid that I am going to lose someone else that I care about and yet again it is because of the fact that I care about them and that is not what they want. I dont want to have that happen to me twice. Once was painful enough. I am tired of losing this fight.
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