Monday, February 20, 2006

THIRTY EIGHTH ENTRY
I know that I haven't posted for a while but I just haven't felt like it. I am not going to say too much except for the fact that I am sleeping even less, it is getting harder, the pain is getting stronger and I am losing my grip more and more everyday. I realized a few things about myself recently and they were kindof unsettling, but as always I will be the one that never gives up. People look at me as someone who is strong and can take all of this and this is what I will strive to be. Afterall what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger and I can't die. Here is a song I wrote. Tell me what you think.

Type: Lyrics
Name: Life, Love, Lie

Verse 1
I no longer want to sleep,
Because she haunts me in my dreams,
Burning in my memory,
The thoughts of a love that cannot be,
Her eyes they stare deep into me,
Yet she doesn’t see what I’m feeling,
Even when they are gripping my soul,
Because I wear a mask of stone,
That I shall never let crack,
For fear that she will see,
The love I hide inside of me.

Chorus
I tear my soul apart,
I lie to my heart,
I put on an act,
And for strength I ask,
To hold back the tears,
That are coming to my eyes,
To push back the pain,
Before my life it takes,
For this is not the pain,
Of a love that is lost,
No this is the pain,
Of a love that was never,
Given the chance to be,
Because of the lie,
That we are forced to live.

Verse 2
They say there is nothing worse,
Then losing the one you love,
But I believe that there is one thing,
That can hurt more,
And that is seeing the one you love,
And in your heart knowing,
That it cannot be,
And yet still trying,
Just to make her happy,
No matter what it takes,
Even when the price,
Is having to let a part of you die.

Chorus
I tear my soul apart,
I lie to my heart,
I put on an act,
And for strength I ask,
To hold back the tears,
That are coming to my eyes,
To push back the pain,
Before my life it takes,
For this is not the pain,
Of a love that is lost,
No this is the pain,
Of a love that was never,
Given the chance to be,
Because of the lie,
That we are forced to live.

Outro
Oh a love,
That will never,
Have the chance,
To be,
Because of the lie,
That we must live.
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