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myOtaku.com: Ruri Illuser


Sunday, January 11, 2004

Shoe Pyramid
I'm such a fool.....

In so many ways......

I try to keep in character....

Calm and colceted.......

Then I freez on the spot and brake down.....

Tears form and the warm water covers my cheeks......

I'm such a fool.....

"Why.. no you aren't..."

Yes I am...

"Why do you think that?"

Too many to count....

"Tell me.."

"I don't think you are..."

"Whats wrong..."

Nothings wrong.....

/push away keep distant/

"Then why are you a fool?"

Too many resons to count.....

"Well tell me afew"

You'll find out......

/sooner or later/

"Dose it have to do with me?"

No not at all.....

"Then what is it?"

I'll tell you later.....

He says "no your not"......

He is too sweet....

I will taint him.... with the dark illness that pagues the heart and the mind......


I say I love him and he says he loves me too...and yet there are qualities that I can't stand and I can't understand why I say that to him.......

Then I say stuff that I only say half-hearted to him somtimes.....

Help me!

Why am I like this???

I can't stand it.....

I'm out of character.

"You like him yes?"

More than a friend?"

yes....

"Why did you break up?"

He was nigecting me and not talking to me often.....

"Did you confront him?"

No, he says he loves me too just dosen't show it....

"Guys can be like that..."

"They don't like to show it..."

"Men are weird creatures..."

"You could flirt with others to make him jelious..."


She made me laugh something I hadn't done scince the toilet Murmaid....

Its really not about him....

I just have qualities I don't like.....

I like staying in my fictaious character that everyone knows and love....

I don't know......

Maybe I'm a void......

Maybe I'm my bouncey self.....

but hey if its fictaious, this persona I carry around....let it be.....I rather like it.....

Let my worries be sucked into that spot that is cover with a deadly pague deep inside my soul.....


because I like my cheery dissposion....

I like the me I show the world....

I thank my self for me.
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