Tuesday, January 4, 2005

I suffer I bleed I die...Im Human
*Sigh*

Everything is so pointless ...College... Work.... .... At first I thought I had a small problem when it come to my time and my general situation.... Now it transpires that i am on a battlefield... I should know what one looks like... I study them enough...

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Well I guess I better fill you in on my problems, The most immediate problem is that due to overwork, Poor attendance and lack of coursework (which i handed in >_<) I could be prematurely forced to leave college not even setting the plans i laid down into action and throwing a spanner into the works... What on earth possessed me to do my A Level'sat Wakefield college is far far beyond me, why oh why didnt I do them at my local 6th form that way i wouldnt be having to travel 2.5 Miles to College but would only have to walk 900 Metre's but No, I had to have a touch of Adventure, I had to be curious on what Wakey would be like... if only i could turn back times evil motherfucking hands...

Things arent much better at work, while I could commit murder and they wouldnt dare fire me they Infuriate me by passing meover for promotion for 3 people worse at the job than I, There just Prejudice Uncaring Motherfuckers, Its half their fault im in this mess >_>, Im going to tell them if i stay in college... Going to tell them EXACTLY what i think of them... That there a group of Spiteful Bastards how have been twisting a knife in my back from day one.... You Bleed for your job, You do more hours than Practically everybody, You simply become the best at your job and do you get the rightful promotion you deserve... No...

Bastards.

Now Onto my Issues at home, My fucking low life little brother Martin still hasnt got a Job, and if i get forced out of college then i have to start paying £120 a week board and as usual my mum doesnt give me any encouragement... I can see my dad shouting at me beyond the grave... He'd really be ashamed of me now <_>...

So Lets cap how my personal hobbies and free time is spent... Well thanks to the tag team of Work and college that aim to finally wreck me I only have access to the Internet at times when nobody else is on (Late night/Mornings) unless im lucky enough to get a day off...

I havent even got enough time to practice/learn guitar, Something Ive been looking forward to all month....

Id Quit work if i could... But the simple fact I need at least £200 to keep alive and not go crazy... And i REALLY Need my English A Levels ... Ill die without them *sniff*

Im Also quite worried bout my future relationship prospects I seem to be getting worse with my inter-gender connversation skills and at this rate im going to die Single <_>

And *Suprise Suprise* My Problems dont even end there, As planned in my amazing chart which Dictates my finance like a fucking premediated Hitler >_>, Well any way back to the point, Since as far back as September I decided thatI would completly update my Wardrobe by March but the thing im not sure whether I should go out (as planned) and Buy alot of Dark Satanic stuff or just buy low quey things (simple designs) I mean those fuckers at work give me enough stick about my hair, Im not sure if it would end if i showed up with Black Nail Polish. >_<

*Sigh I hate my life* Where Derek when I need him, He always cheers me up *Pines*
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