Saturday, January 29, 2005

Part 4: Uknown Story
She had gone back inside early it was really cold outside. Starting to get annoyed now, her sister kept going up to her door and jerking on the door handle then walking back off. She had last night too, only she banged on the door and then banged on the wall.. unfortunatly her room was just through the wall from Soto's.. Why she hadnt yelled at her sister? because she pretended to be asleep. She didnt feel like letting her sister in again to get the qeustion of borrowing something of soto's. whether it was to check her email or borrow her cd player or any of the other electronic things that she a;ways asked to borrow. Every night she did this. Soto had ignored her until she finally left. Now it was a few hours past the time she woke up. She was wide awake and now.. she could finally think about how she would talk to shugo.. Whatever she said to him it had to be as deep as she felt it inside her.. she knew how it would start out "shugo.. i need to talk.. After thinking it over a while.. well you make alot of sense, the things you said last night. But i wasnt mad at you.. i just jumped on you like that before hearing the whole story because .. i thought it was sort of wrong to flirt with both of us and then ending up only liking one of us and hurting the other.. what you said i can understand but what i think is theres just a few problems with how you handled it.. im sorry you dont have that many girls to like you in the real world and i dont understand why but i do understand how you feel about not having the courage with girls.. but still.. im really sorry i just jumped on you like that last night.. that was something i could have handled differently.. im sorry" that was something she'd been wanting to say since last night after she'd cried a while.. and she would now.. she loved him whether as a friend or boyfriend so much and she had no idea now why she could have yelled at him.. she tried getting on a different sign on to see if he had gotten on but she hadnt gotten on her regular sign on. She didnt feel up to talking to Lira or Rizuka right now, even though she felt guilty because of that feeling. The only person she wanted to talk to was Shugo. The only person that could make her feel better, if she just got this feeling out. "whoa.." she sighed. " its not even pm yet and im allready wanting to talk to him.. after i said to myself that i wouldnt get on till sunday" her stomach started hurting.. maybe it was because she had that woozy feeling all day or maybe because she had the computer on her chest and stomach for an hour. She signed back on her other screen name. she was getting sick of seeing the same thing, Lira online, probably waiting for her and Rizuka still asleep. She was going to wait a few hours it was getting on her nerves that Rizuka wasnt awake yet.. even though she didnt feel like hearing the shugo thing. and Lira would be on all day long just waiting for soto to get back on. She didnt feel like being talked to so she stayed off.
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