Saturday, February 5, 2005

   Part 7: Unknown story
As the week past by, she studied and studied for her tests, she payed attention in science class the most, where they were talking about the human body she found more intrest in. Soto wanted to know almost all of the diseases there were on humans, and all the treatments. Just in case anything went wrong with her friends. Earlier her friend Sarah had come over, they went down to the creek avoiding thorny bushes all the way through not doing too good to avoid the spikey-leafed trees. Soto fell into one and scratched up her arm. They had headed back up and the sun was setting, she walked Sarah home with her sister and sisters friend as company that her mom insisted she braught. Even though she didnt like the idea, she tried not to argue that much. Back at gym class in school she had gotten pissed of this girl that had been picking on her friend, Angie for her weight. The day before that she had stepped in front of angie and said "maybe she wants to be left alone." after the baka had called her friend a lesbian. "And they call themselves christians.." she had mumbled to angie. That somehow had made her other friend that the girl had made fun of feel better as well as angie because the thought that someone else cared too seemed to comfort her. She smiled at soto, and soto continued with her fussing about the girl. "shes so annoying, if shes a christian she should know that its wrong to judge someone." soto said and couldnt help but notice how angies friend was watching her closely as she said these words. she smiled to her in a friendly way. And she thought she should ask her name but she didnt. Afterward she had gone to science class and their teacher introduced a science magazine that, for a heading, was about how hormones react to a person they love deeply and what caused blushing and warm feelings. "great.." she said sarcasticly and felt herself blushing as her mind wandered to shugo. Shugo.. wonder what your up to.. she thought to herself and reminded herself about wednsday. When she had told Lira to tell Shugo that she no longer cared if shugo wanted her or not, in fact she had said for shugo to take rizuka instead because soto knew her for several years and knew she was a good person and she deserved shugo more than soto did. But shugo had only said that there were more girls that liked him than rizuka and soto. "Oh.. and hes not good with the girls he says..?" she thought, but she didnt really care right now. All she could think about was how warm she felt inside when he was near and how she was giving all that up-.. but when she said "all" she thought about it again.."well its not ALL of my life.. i mean its not the end of the world if he doesnt become my boyfriend. theres other guys. theres other things to life. life will go on" she smiled at her own thoughts of how things would be ok. But she couldnt help wondering if she wouldnt act the way she did before she admitted liking him, if he chose rizuka and they flirted in the chatrooms that soto would be in too. but of course she didnt need to be there to see what they were doing, rizuka always talked to soto about how they would make-out and make love together. Not in the way that you all are probably thinking, not that far, just kissing and stuff. Sitting there playing her jet-skii game she sort of felt dumb. that or some sort of empty feeling. would have been logged on right now if it werent for the problem with her computers. all 3 of them wouldnt let her log on. She wondered if shugo and rizuka were on, and if Lira had been kept waiting for her all day, but she tried to keep her mind away from all three of them. What if shugo had something important to talk to soto about? soto wasnt logged on. "oh well" she thought. she couldnt care less right now. There she sat on the pull-out couch in the computer room with her video game replay going through the laps over and over, the laptop propped in her lap as she wrote in her journal. The 6-winged angels clearly noticable behind the word-pad document used as wallpaper for her laptop. She looked around the room and sighed trying to find something to do. There was nothing to do, all she usually did on the weekends were talk to her friends, especially at night. And she was at the house alone, her sister and dad had gone out for tennis practice since her sister had a tournament tomorow afternoon and her mom was at work. So.. there was nothing to do but sit there. She could have read if she had wanted but she didnt feel like reading while her mind wandered this much it was so hard to pay attention to the book. And there was no use calling anyone.. that would only make her anxious to do something but it was too dark to go out when no one was home. Even though she usually didnt obey this rule, tonight it felt different and she didnt wanna take the risk of something happening. She took the laptop with her as she walked into the hallway into her moms room. Wandering the house as she usually did when she had nothing on her mind and nothing to do. One time it was past midnight and she felt so empty she spent an hour or so wandering through the house like she was looking for something that she could never find. She kept doing this on and off about every few months. It got agrivating. She found a comfy spot on her moms bed and continued typing on word-pad. The phone rang and it was her dad they were going to pick her up in about 5 minutes and go somewhere to eat, but soto wasnt hungry because shed just eaten some potato and steamed carrots. She'd go anyway, it made her dad both happy and suprised to hear her say she'd go but truth was she was so bored she didnt care where they went. But what confused her was that she really wanted to get online but then again.. she didnt want anything to do with logging on. She kept thinking about when she logged on and how it would be like last weekend, not talking to shugo, hearing love scenes from rizuka and talking to lira about how her feelings were all mixed up and she didnt want to get on then. She heard the faint sound of a car door slam shut and got up to go downstairs and meet her sister and dad. Bringing the laptop with her even if her dad didnt approve.
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