Tuesday, February 8, 2005

   Part 11: Forgetting
The day had gone smoothly except for gym where soto hadnt dressed out and had to go off from the rest of the kids. Stuck playing basketball with a tennisball. When she noticed the other kids starting to leave, she tossed the tennis ball over her shoulder and took off towards the gates, but was stopped by one of the gym teachers. "Isnt it time to go?" she asked, stopping in front of the teacher. "Not for you." she said and soto felt stupid for asking, "Now go get that tennis ball" she said in a cruel type of way. Soto ran over to the tennis ball, grapped it, and ran back to her, handing it over to her. "geez, strict.." she mumbled, as she walked away from the teacher. about 5 or 10 minutes later they finally went in with the rest of the kids. Soto quickly had to change out of her gym shirt and grab her bookbag in the locker room. "Hiii Erin!" her friend had said in a perky really happy voice as she passed. For a second soto thought she had something to tell her, like about how she had stopped talking to her brother but she went on by. Later at lunch soto just ate, then stared out the window spacing out the rest of the time. Last night she had been up to 2 am watching Angel sanctuary and was suprised not to be falling asleep. Well, except for English class but she'd allready finished the book they were reading. "Mind your own buisness" she had said grouchily when some stupid guy turned around saying "oooh your not reading along" as if he were some 4-year old. Had no sense, the baka. The other night she had the weirdest dream.. She was down by the creek and some guy appeared. for no reason, soto pushed him into the water and laughed. Then he pulled her in with him and laughed. "oh, who are you?" she asked as though she just remembered she didnt know him. "im.. shugo." "what..?" suddenly he wasnt the guy anymore. He was a dark figured man and he pushed her away. "your not.. go away!" she yelled at him. He appeared to have sharp fangs and he bit her leg, blood trickled down into the water and she dragged herself out of the creek, and looked back. and he was gone. now no one was there. and thats when she woke up though. Now she was in math class, bringing herself back to reality. Not paying attention at all to the lesson. (but neither am i of course.. im writing this story) "maybe shugo will be on tonight.. i dont know what good that would do but.. oh well.." she thought to herself. "uh-oh" the teacher had assigned something she had no idea how to do. Later.. an F. On her last test. Guess her problems about shugo and rizuka were really bothering her.. she hadnt stooped back down to F's in this class for a while. It was disapointing. She needed to temporarily forget about shugo. Every one of her friends, she had to temporarily forget. atleast all of the ones that reminded her about shugo. "ow!" she'd been jabbing herself with her lead pencil in the waist to wake herself up.
The next morning, her mom woke her up and said "why arent you wearing your head gear?" soto forgot all about the surgery in a few years. "i.. forgot about it over school and college and everything.. sorry.." she admitted. "your gonna end up having that surgery, soto." her mom warned, then left. soto felt bad for cuasing her parents to waste money on her like that. But.. she just couldnt wear that stupid thing. how come no one else had to wear headgear that she knew? she knew that surgery would hurt but even though, she still couldnt force herself to wear that and especially not with her family going places alot, that she'd be too ashamed to wear that device to. But anyway, she went slowely downstairs to the kitchen. "mom.. can i stay out of school today?" and thats where it all started. her mom was disapointed that she was staying out for a little stomach ache but it was more than she could talk about. she just needed one day to get her mind straight. and her mom made her give up tomorows and thursdays karate class. she hoped she could go to saterdays though. Later after she had convinced her mom to let her stay home, with her mom greatly disapointed at soto, she fell asleep on her bed quickly and didnt wake till 11am. then fell back asleep for an hour, and then decided she didnt want to sleep anymore or she'd be bored. She was almost forgetting about.. you-know-who. it was so stupid calling him that but she wanted to forget about him or she wouldnt pass the social studies test, and wouldnt be able to pay attention in school. but she made up her mind, that she'd train just like in her karate classes tomorow and thursday, it'd be just like karate class. almost. all it was missing were the mats and people. Oh well though she'd get over him , tonight she'd settle down with a good horror movie or something and she'd get over him. or atleast.. for now. for now, she needed to. her family, her karate instructors and friends, her teachers, her studies, it was all counting on her.
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