Wednesday, March 9, 2005

   Confusing day

	Today at lunch two of my best friends got into a fight, now these two girls are identical twins. Nobody is quite sure how the fight started, other than Kara slaping Mark. Adrain, the other girl was sitting where i usually sit, i.e. between Mark's legs. Then all-of-a-sudden Kara jumped up, from in front of me, turned around, ran up the steps and tried to strangle her sister, well, Mark's first reaction is to grab Kara's hand, which he did, then she slapped him with her free hand. Mark had a red mark in the shape of a hand for about five minutes, and every few seconds he would look down at me. Then something inside me snapped, and I got up and tried to grab Kara, NOT SMART, but Mark and I were the only two truly calm people in the group, evertelse was kinda on edge and sorta freaking out. And as I watched Mark's reactions to everything, I thought "how the hell can anyone be so calm in this kinda situstion? There's only one other person that I know who can stay that calm...... and that's my dad." And to make matters even worse, Kara said that she might stop coming to school altogether.... I'm really worried about what's going on and have no clue how to stop it, or make it better, or anything....... I feel so, so.......... helpless....... WHY DOES THIS KINDA SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN TO OR AROUND ME?!

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Monday, March 7, 2005

   People poke me

	Random people have been poking me in the stomach today. I don't know why, but they have, and they've all been guys. I find it very entertaining when they complain about their fingers hurting. So naturally Mark has to get in on all the fun of this new "Poke-the-Bri" game. He figured that since I'm a girl, that I have absolutly no muscle what-so-ever. WRONG!! I have more muscle than a lot of the guys I know, i.e. I have a six-pack, yes it's true, I spend a lot of my time lifting weights. Mark had to lift up my shirt to see if I was wearing a metal plate over my stomach or something. Well, lunch was more interesting than normal today, apparently Mark flashed our entire group and no one noticed. Well, the story goes like this, as a note to remember, Mark ALWAYS goes commando, and today was no different. Well, the zipper on his pants fell and the only one who noticed this fails to tell anyone else who might be interested in this odd phenomenon. I asked Mark for an instant replay, but just as I did my mom (>_< NOT AGAIN!!!) is standing right behind me, thankfully she didn't see anything either. So my mother being the curious person that she is had to ask about the replay, so thinking really fast I said the replay of Mark falling of the railing that he had been standing on. DAMN IT, he was gonna give me a replay too. v-v. YEY!!!!!!!! Mark and I are talking to each other again. YEY!!!!! BTW, does anyone happen to know the exact date of when FFVII: Advent Children is set for release in the US?

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Thursday, March 3, 2005

Stupid freshman!

	I HATE FRESHMAN!!!!! After school today the GNA (Graphic Novel Accociation) had a meeting *wow, that's really rare* and I decided that I would hang with a few friends before the meeting. Well a freshman decided that he would be funny, so he came over to me and kept grabbing my ass, well Lance didn't think that was very funny, so he told the kid to go away, and he didn't, so he kissed me......... right..... in front of Mark. ........... v-v. ......well, on the brite side, Mark was looking in the other direction, eheheheheheheh *sigh* yes I'm still a little depressed about what's going on between me and Mark. On a lighter note, the GNA is having a bookfair and will be selling Manga and movies. We don't know when we will be holding the book sale,..... but yea...... One of my friends sent me this really touching e-mail, I printed it out after s little editing and am going to give it to Mark tomorrow. It read: Read Slowly... Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't, or Saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might brake your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs. Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to. Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all. Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid...afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had. *What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? *What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? *What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore) *What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?* People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow (God Forbid) you would be in my heart. Would I be in yours? You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you, most of all I CARE about friends! Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend. Someday you might feel like you have NO Friends at all, just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will. I care about YOU!

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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

   MORE GACKT!!!!!

	I'm ordered Gackt's Crecent album last night and a deck of FF VIII playing cards! Now all I have to do is wait for them to come in. HORRAY!!!!!

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

   HORRAY, MORE GACKT

	Gackt-sama I got a copy of Gackt's The Sixth Day Album yesterday. Mark is in Colorado, so I don't know if what my friend told me was the truth or not. And the day he comes back, I'm gonna be getting gassed by my dentist. v-v. Dammit!!!!!

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

   ...........................................

	................................ he.........said.....no. Mark said no. and what makes it even worse, I'm, not supposed to know his answer, and one of my best friends told me between third and fourth hour today. ......... God this hurts. Apparently he wasn't going to answer me and hope that I'd forget that I ever asked. And to make things worse, he's avoiding me now. Dammit, and I was just starting to think that I finally found someone, then this happens. I have know clue how to deal with this other crying, and I have this "thing" I can't let anyone, and I mean anyone see me cry. All I've been doing for the past three or so hours is listen to "Addicted" over and over. when I'm done with all my homework, I'm going to play Erighez and set the comp as Cloud and I'm gonna pick Sephiroth, I'm gonna make it so the comp can't make a move, then beat the fucking shit of it! HOW AM I SUPPOSED OT DEAL WITH THIS??????!?!?!?!?! *curls into ball and starts to cry*

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

   PROBLEM!!!!!

	Ok, there's this guy at school who maybe kinda really likes me, but I don't like him like that. I told him that I was already taken, and nothing that me or Mark says is making him stop hitting on me! Do you guys have any idea on how to get him to quit?!!?!?!?!? PLEASE HE'S DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!

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Monday, February 14, 2005

   ...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

	Once again, I'm valentine-less. and all I got from Mark was a hug! AND HE STILL HASN'T ANSWERED ME!!!!!!!!! Next year, I am SO boycotting Valentine's Day!

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

   IT'S HERE!!!!!!!!!

	My Gackt CD that I ordered a few weeks ago finally came in! Unfortunatly my comp won't read the disc after track 12, and like 7 of my friends wan't copies of it. V_V oh well, I'll have to apoligize for my crappy comp. I have "Vanilla" stuck in my head, and I got really bored the other day and translated it.......IT'S THE DIRTIEST SONG I'VE EVER HEARD!!!! Mark still hasn't given me an answer, I'll ask him about it tomorrow. Gackt - MARS - tracklist 1. Ares 2. Asrun Dream 3. Emu~ for my dear~ 4. U+K 5. Vanilla (MARS Ver.) 6. freesia op. 1 7. freesia op. 2 8. Illness Illusion 9. Mirror (MARS Ver.) 10. dears 11. OASIS (MARS Ver.) 12. Kono daremo inai heya de 13. Miz'erable/tiny voice, production remix 14. Story 15. Leeca 16. blue (Piano solo) 17. uncertain memory 18. ~seki-ray~

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Friday, February 11, 2005

   I DID IT!!!!!!!!

	I finally got up the nerve to ask Mark if he would go out with me!!!!! He's was kinda stunned at first and said that he would seriously concider it :D. I'M HAPPY!!!!! Even his ex, Nikki, want's him to say yes. I can't believe that she's totaly cool about me dating Mark, and all, I thought she would be really mad or something. But she's actually encouraging me! YEY!!!!! GO ME!!!!

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