Monday, December 10, 2007

   Truth is always altered and full of lies

Anime Mood: Nana Music Mood: The Beatles Time: 10:49pm Want: who fucking knows... Quote: The last year of Ryohji Kaji (yes, it's spelled like that on the book) Icon: Flame Arrow Hikaru Well, I've thrown myself out into it again. This could potentially be really bad.......I tried to word the message in such a way that it wasn't too obvious, but......it's probably so cryptic that he'll see right through it anyway. He has to, I mean, he's old.....he knows stuff........but, like Haruhi taught me: nothing fun will happen if you sit around waiting. After all, I got Shannon to say he loves me by taking a chance so I'm up one I guess. Even if he's an idiot who never writes me back....I know how he really feels, and I know that I was reading him right all along so I should be confident that I know how to read people at least a little bit.

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Thursday, November 15, 2007

   Don't solve the problem, when danger is better.

Anime Mood: D.Grayman Music Mood: Less Than Jake Time: 8:11pm JST Want: to see my Nii-san again... Quote: Change Your Mind, All American Rejects Icon: Asuka - who none of my students seem to know, fucking retarded Ayanami fans all of them.... I think I'm in love with my teapot.....but recently it's been dripping.....also, Cookies & Cream KitKat, oh excuse me, Cookies & Milk is the Japanese way of saying it apparently. I don't think I'll ever learn to spell that word......ah, ok anyway.....I'm a bad person. Tonight for instance instead of finishing, or even working on the drawings for my little depressed girls, I'm posting online and watching anime. I'm too lazy to even write with a pen in my journal so I'm just talking about shit here for no reason. I have to start making a Christmas gift list tomorrow I guess. I actually have a lot of work to do recently and grading all those tests today definitely took up some time. I think it was around 3 hours....maybe......or something like that. Anyway, "mainichi tanoshii!" I made some fun things happen today at least. I still don't know his name or what subject he teaches, but the fluffy hair guy definitely provided me with some entertainment. He was all calm and polite when I asked to eat with his class yesterday, but today when the time came he was totally freaking out. I knew he was trying to talk to me, but couldn't get up the courage to interrupt my "work". It was so funny watching him squirm and then finally give up and ask the science teacher what he should do! Then he tried to act all cool when I came to his class and just looked ridiculous. Ah.....it's fun making Japanese people nervous.......

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Saturday, September 8, 2007

   A cellphone is designed to be a tool for communication, but is actually used as an instrument to test the intimacy between two people.

Anime Mood: Dennou Coil Music Mood: Less Than Jake: Time: 10:56pm Want: not to get busted by Ms. Gabi.... Icon: Hitsugaya Toshirou Quote: NANA Ahh.....hopefully the caption "building a model, but I can talk" will keep her away from me. My hair looks like ass right now too so I really don't want to video chat anyone. I got tired of working on that EVA 03 though b/c my fingers were getting stiff from all the small parts. I guess typing isn't really any better for them...well, anyway, here is a list of all the stuff I have bought that I shouldn't have: Model Kits: EVA 03 (13th Angel) Abyss Gundam Terminus Type R909 (from Eureka 7) Gundam Deathscythe Hell Custom Toys: Envy (Fullmetal Alchemist) Syaoran (CLAMP in 3D land) Kakashi Itachi Lacus Lunamaria Capt. Gladys Chairman Dullindal 2 different EVA 01 mini figures Asuka Shinji Marimo the Robot maid Hitsugaya 6 different Gundam Seed pins (from a capsule station) Phone straps/charms: Totoro Asuka Rei Cmndr Ikari Code Geass Ulquiorra Sakura Books: Naruto anime guide 2 & 3 Bleach anime guide Bleach character guide Naruto character guide 1 & 2 Prince of Tennis 10.5 Death Note 13: How to Read wow...no wonder I have no fucking money! You do not live at an anime convention Katy! Oh yeah, I also bought the Gedo Senki DVD even though I have no DVD player to watch it on, and I keep having to fight myself not to buy the Bleach movie DVD too. Ugh....I suck. Anyway, I'd say that quote could apply to any form of internet communication too....if you don't feel like talking to someone you can always lie about what you're doing, but they know...

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Saturday, August 25, 2007

   I'm sure I've already changed into something that can only keep rotting away inside.

Anime Mood: Baccano! (the exclamation point is actually part of the title...) Music Mood: Perfume Time: 5:54pm Place: Shizuoka bitches!! Want: to buy clothes! Icon: a green haired Ai Yazawa chick Quote: Roy Mustang, Cure Drops doujinshi So, there are some frustrating things about Japan. One being that I'm almost completely fucking illiterate and I want to do things but can't figure out how to read the papers advertising them or the forms I need to fill out to sign up for them. Another being that even if I ask someone "nanto yomimasu ka?" I won't know what the hell they're talking about when they read it for me since my vocabulary is pretty much shit as well. I've been getting by ok, but it's just that, getting by. I want to sign up for karate so I don't become a fat blob, but I won't be able to talk to the people on the phone. I would go to the place & explain to them that I'm a stupid foreigner, but I can't read a map to find it! I hate having to ask other people to do things for me all the time, so it's either figure out a way to do it myself, or just don't do it. Also, I'm kinda feeling like an ass for skipping out on the Fuji climb. I know Jasmine wanted someone she knew to go along with her. How is it that a bimbo like her who doesn't know a lick of Japanese has already made Japanese friends anyway? Oh, wait, it's because she's a bimbo. Nevermind.

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Saturday, February 10, 2007

   One fool ruins the work of 100 wise men.

Anime Mood: Naruto Shippuden (yes I'm aware it won't air for another 5 days...) Music Mood: YUI Time: 10:32am Place: O & B's Want: to go to Best Buy Icon: angry Kakashi Quote: some random guy from Gundam Seed X ASTRAY (I named my iPod ASTRAY White Frame!) So...it has recently come to my attention that some people are not as sane...or perhaps stable is the proper term here...as I had once thought....I'll be deleting some of the older posts on this site and the other one for security purposes, and cleaning up my MySpace as well over the next few weeks. I don't want to leave any kind of trail. This site may be gone relatively soon as well. I'd like to erase as many traces of myself as possible, especially ones that tie me to fanatics...

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Monday, January 1, 2007

   Fear not the chains, break them with claw and fang. Then you shall be strong.

Anime Mood: Bleach Music Mood: Counting Crows Time: 3:57 pm Want: more days off Icon: Soifon Quote: Gundam Seed X Astray And here I was worried that I could never be like Tomoyo. Never thinking, never remembering that I was born, I was made to fight! All this time I thought I should be like her, should love for the one I love when I knew I couldn't. I'm not Tomoyo, I'm Tatsuki and nothing can change that, nothing ever could. I will fight forever to protect that smile.

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

   The moral sense of a duck on crack...

Anime Mood: Trinity Blood...maybe... Music Mood: Akeboshi Time: 9:08pm Want: to not have an intestinal disease... Icon: the tortured devil Quote: some fanfic writer said it...I don't know her name, but I figure it's about what I've got too... The harder something is on the outside, the more likely it is to be raw underneath. Came up with that one all on my own. Yep. I can think of some pretty profound shit sometimes. I can be a ninja or I can be an Eva pilot. I know this. I can protect people because I care about them, or I can do what I do because it's the only thing people will recognize me for. It's all in how you look at it. Or maybe one is just a clever way of disguising the other...

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Sunday, October 8, 2006

   We've gotta try everything we can. We'll have plenty of time to regret our decisions when we're dead.

Anime Mood: Eureka 7 Music Mood: Smashing Pumpkins Time: 9:42 pm Want: Everything! Icon: Soifon Quote: unknown source....I forgot to write it down!!! Sounds vaguely like the Evangelion manga --So much to do, so little time.... Seriously....I've been trying to make a post for a while now but Kit keeps on doing things and doing things and doing things....that girl just won't stop. Good thing I suppose or we'd all starve...anyway, I think and I think and I think....and....I got nothin'. I usually have something and then it gets forgotten. It's depressing-- --Studio Bones hurts me.... Eureka Seven is making me feel exactly the same way Wolf's Rain always did. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I can't wait to watch it, but then...I don't want to watch it at all. I keep thinking I'm understanding it, but then...something else happens and I realize I have no fucking clue what's happening. It's sooo good, but I keep getting the feeling it's going to have a sad ending and then I'll never want to watch it again-- --All religions are based on the need to explain death... I just figured that out tonight. I wonder if anyone else knows-- --Whatever....I can't stick to a form.... I'm quite certain that I wouldn't feel I was worth anything if I was just like everybody else all the time-- --Just remembered I want to redesign my site... and hers too....they both look like crap. Actually, I'm sure they look good to someone who enjoys the 'dark' look, but we're not into that at the moment. We weren't when we did it in fact, but were too busy/lazy to change it again right away. I want to go play the gamecube now though so it's gonna have to keep on waiting!

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

   Changes...

Anime Mood: Eureka 7 Music Mood: Cake Time: 4:30pm Want: people to stop calling me.... Icon: Iruka-kun! So....I don't know how happy I am with this layout....I think it's mostly the background that's bugging me.....I might change it, we'll see. It's been a long time since I changed anything on either site so I decided today it was about time to do it. I've been thinking plenty of profound things, but I'm just too damn lazy to actually write about them. Such is the life. I guess I should try to make a relatively long post though so I can show the whole picture behind this writing. It's Shinn and Rey with the wings of the Destiny and Legend Gundams on their backs. Uhh....I seriously want people to stop calling me.....I didn't get enough sleep last night so I really don't want to talk to anyone. I tried to take a nap, but that wasn't happening b/c, guess what? people were calling me.....it's a vicious cycle...circle...whatever....also, I may have a broken shoulder....

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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

   I won't mind....

Anime Mood: Naruto Music Mood: Death Cab Time: 1:06am Want: Spring Break to last forever! Icon: Kakashi We'll rest easy....I said the most profound thing the other day...suffer the swift defeat....and this song just brought it back to me.....I'll endure countless repeats....It totally couldn't believe I said it at the time either....the gift of memory's an awful curse....but it's so true....with age it just gets much worse....what did you live through it all for if you're just going to forget...burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground....it's easier to say it than to remember things yourself....but you don't know what now to do....

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