Wednesday, March 29, 2006

   Yearning...

Anime Mood: FMA movie Music Mood: Fiona Apple Time: 9:57pm Want: to know... Icon: the cute Kakashi one! This is a different feeling from my 'homesick' one. I haven't been dreaming of home in a quite a while actually, though I did feel it about a week ago. This feeling is different in that it makes me want.......something........to do something.......or make something....last night I thought I wanted to write something but I couldn't think of anything good to write. I think I may have lost my talent for that, if I ever really had any to begin with. I suppose my stuff was good for a kid, but that's about it. It's not the same as the 'lonely' feeling either, though I thought for a minute that it was. I don't know, I may be feeling bereft because I'm stuck waiting for Naruto to continue. Or maybe because I'm stuck waiting for my life to continue.........ah.....the metaphors of anime...I do still love Naruto more than anything though. And........my shoulder hurts like a bitch tonight! I hope I can fix this during Spring Break, maybe draw some new stuff b/c I haven't done any this whole month I don't think. It's getting like in the summer when I didn't do any for a really long time and it totally sucked. Huh......well, I guess I'm done, I don't know what it is I'm yearning for, or how to go about getting it so I guess I'll just go to bed.

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Thursday, March 9, 2006

   The gilded cage and the shit covered stick...

Anime Mood: Fullmetal Alchemist Music Mood: A Perfect Circle Time: 7:20pm Want: to work harder Icon: the cocky looking Sirius "Lately I feel like I've been polishing the gilded cage, you know? It's a beautiful cage, but it's still a cage." - Andrea "It's not like I got the short end of the stick--it's like I got both ends of a shit covered stick!" - AJ Wow........I'm glad neither of those applies to me right now, but I have to give props to the people who said them. Those are some damn fine expressions coming from some damn fine people. Yep yep, thanks to both of them in no small part I've gotten much much stronger in the past year. It's finally become noticable in the past two months though and it's making it easier and easier to work harder and harder still. I keep thinking of two other quotes when I want to work hard. "More power, and more!!" - Kazuma, sCRYed "I only believe in me and what I can do." - Mugen, Samurai Champloo Those two remind me and then I work harder and get stronger, but seriously I can't end this without declaring my undying love for Masashi Kishimoto. It's thanks to his amazing writing and art that I was able to actually become motivated again. It's thanks to his skill at creating characters that I can relate to so incredibly easily that I can move forward and I would kiss the ground that man walks on if I could.

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

   Sometimes I forget a shinobi is just a tool....

Anime Mood: Naruto Music Mood: Deathcab for Cutie Time: 5:57pm Want: My 4 day weekend to start! Icon: Kakashi! So what's a ninja to do when he's serving two masters? When there's two things he desperately wants to protect, and they suddenly stand in opposition to one another? Of course, this wouldn't be a problem if one of them wasn't trying to use him as a tool to get at the other. Heh......it's no wonder I get called a 'crazy Naruto fan'. I know I make no sense, but it's all I can do really......on a lighter note; I got a Valentine from Dan Rydell! w00t-cha! That rocked!

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Saturday, February 4, 2006

   Have you ever loved someone so much you hated them?

Anime Mood: Naruto Music Mood: REM Time: 4:51pm Want: Someone to look at my kickass new layout! Icon: Iruka Hehe, he's so adorable! Well, so I changed the theme at last. I think it can really be called a "theme" this time too. This is the first time I've ever made a layout that was completely one anime on either of my sites. I won't be doing that with the other one though. It's just....I don't know, not my M.O. Anyway, the all Naruto theme suits me for now since I'm so obsessed. I bought the import DVDs of the first 148 episodes and the movie last night and I can't wait for them to come so I can watch them again! Yatta!!! I'm so excited.

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Saturday, December 3, 2005

   Changes....

Anime Mood: Naruto Music Mood: GSD soundtrack Time: 1:51pm Want: Christmas break to be now! So.......I changed stuff. It's December. I guess 2 months is a good limit for a design. I can't really call it a 'theme' b/c my site is never all one thing. I guess that's indicitave of my personality really....but this time I suppose it does have a sort of unifying 'sakura' thing going on....or something...something really gay is going on with my mood icons. I don't know if it's photobucket or the format I have them in, but....I can't get one up right now.

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Sunday, November 27, 2005

   I am Tomoyo....

Anime Mood: Yu Yu Hakusho Music Mood: Ben Folds Time: 11:17am Want: To not have to go to the library... Today's icon: The lonely devil I can think of the most ingenious things. Last night....god, I thought of so much stuff. Hypothesis: If art is an expression of one's feelings then it stands to reason that the average person, who does not produce much art does not have many feelings which are strong enough as to require expression in a form other than speaking. Therefore, those who produce large amounts of art, of any type, can be assumed to have many strong feelings and those who are exceptionally good at this art may indeed suffer from some form of emotional distress. Question: Is artistic expression a sign of mental instability?

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

   Soon the time will come when we all must face the choice between what is right, and what is easy...

Anime Mood: Fullmetal Alchemist Music Mood: HP 4 soudtrack Time: 2:16am Want: to get stronger... I will stand, and I will fight.

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Monday, November 7, 2005

   A profound experience...

Anime Mood: FMA Music Mood: Metric Time: 11:10pm Want: more time to work on my Strike Freedom! I built the head and chest sections tonight, but that was only steps 1 and 2! There's so much more to go but that's ok, it's fun building it. That thing is going to be bad-fucking-ass when it's finished too. Maybe toys will come tomorrow. *sigh* Something weird happened to me last night. I was in that place that's not quite asleep, but not quite awake anymore either and I was reading. In the "dream" that is, I was reading. Not, I was reading and started to fall asleep. I was reading from an old book, I'd guess it was written in the Romantic period or something like that....can't remember what century that is exactly (damn foreign exchange classes didn't teach me shit!) but I just knew it was from then somehow. It was a paperback and the pages were turning that brownish yellow color that they always do when a book gets old. I couldn't understand if the words on the page were mine or someone else's because they appeared just as fast as I was reading them aloud. I strained and tried to see them but that just made it harder so I just relaxed and let them flow out of my mouth like a spell. I read without knowing what I was saying or what I would say next, but it didn't matter. It was extremely important that I read as much of it out loud as possible. I can still sort of see the page in my mind, but it's not at all clear and I can't make out any of the words. And....that's all I got.....maybe I'll dream about it again tonight....

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

   Without the truth of the eyes...

Anime Mood: Gundam Wing Music Mood: The Gorillaz Time: 10:19pm Want: to know, once and for all, if I have O blood or B blood I knew there was a reason I liked dark sunglasses...so, I always thought I had B blood. I wanted B blood, thought it was more rare or something, better in some way. Reading that article though, I was way off on my description of O types. I had the other 3 down, but now I really hope I have O. Or rather, I really think I have O, it makes the most sense. I am thinking it's a sign....I really, really want to finish The Invisibles tonight but I know I can't.....it may seem like a stretch....that 7th volume is way too long.....come down now....I probably can do it tomorrow night though.....everything looks perfect from far away....damn the next 3 days are gonna suck.....I tried my best to leave...I need to just go to bed right now.....oh yeah, the fucking xxxHolic TV series is coming out next spring! That totally rocks! I bet it will follow the manga more closely than the movie does. Not that I've seen the movie but, you know....she knows what she's doing.....I really want to make a post on Katy's site too but I can't stay up that late.....strange as it seems....I should just go to bed now in fact....but I keep coming back for more....I'll dream about myself as Robin, writing myself into a story and then finding out it's real......what can I do.....that's basically what I was doing that one time.....I can't give up just yet....too bad it couldn't turn out that way for me.....my whole day is ruined....it would've been badass being with them in the future.

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Saturday, October 8, 2005

   Gundam heroines are the shit!

Anime Mood: Gundam Seed Destiny Music Mood: Metric/The Cranberries Time: 9:39 Want: the third SEED series to be a reality! Ohh....I want that soooo soooo bad! Sooooo sooooo incredibly bad! There are so many things that were left unresolved at the end of Destiny that I want to see more about. Shinn and Luna, Kira and Lacus, Athrun and Cagalli, Mu and Murrue, not to mention Dearka and Miriallia. Then there's the question of are Gilbert and Talia really dead? Was Rey really her son? What will happen to the earth and PLANT now? Is Shinn ever going to grow up and stop being a pussy? (I have my doubts about this one...) What will happen to people like Meyrin and Yzak who are just kind of there? I'm searching and searching for release dates. I was really disappointed by the ending, but I still want to watch it again. At least my beloved Lacus was true to the end. Kira did his job well too, but I was extremely disappointed in Shinn, and even Athrun to some degree. However, Luna, Meyrin, Murrue, Talia, Cagalli, and even Stellar made me proud in this last episode and throughout the whole series really. The end result: I worship gundam girls.

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