Tuesday, September 13, 2005

   Quo vadimus?

Anime Mood: Ultra Maniac Music Mood: "Amamda's Rockin' Cool 80's cd" Time: 10:45pm Want: a goddamn washer and dryer in my apartment! MySpace is being gay...I can't reply to my Sports Night friend's messages! Grrrr.....how annoying. Anyway, I remembered what I really wanted to talk about last time, the moon. I love when it's waxing. I just feel stronger and happier every day as it grows. Even when it's just been full and is waning I don't feel too bad. When it's on the verge of disappearing is when I really start to get down though. But, just like a phoenix it comes right back, every single month. God I love that. I look up at it, especially now when it's between half and full, and I just get this energy from somewhere making my pulse accelerate and my teeth clench. I finished the boxset again. It makes me so happy to see the end of that show. I mean, it's sad that I don't get to watch any more of it, but I love the way it ends. It's not often that things work out so well as they do in Sports Night. Most shows end with people splitting up, not continuing on just as you remembered and loved them. I think that's what makes it so fantastic. It's nice to know, or at least believe, that the staff of CSC is out there somewhere doing what they do for all of us. It's a constant that can never be changed thanks to the phenomenal wisdom of Aaron Sorkin. This good luck thing is really working out for me right now. I've just realized that everything is really fucking great in my life and I should enjoy it. Andrea gave me the best piece of advice I've gotten in a long time today. Also, a really nice compliment. She said, first of all, that I'm a good listener, and then that I had to have fun with life and not worry about things. She totally put my mind at ease about a lot of stuff I've been stressing about. She also said even if something doesn't last, it should still be fun. Andrea may be completely weird, but she sure is good at seeing the big picture. However she did enlighten me, once again, to the disgusting nature of my childhood. She said that the reason I don't have any memories of my parents together is that I must have been really unhappy. Her sister has no childhood memories at all for the same reason. Freaky....no day, no night, no moment.....anyone who can't make money off Sports Night should get out of the money making business.

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