Friday, September 28, 2007

God Damn The Fucking World To Hell
I am hating this. I love Jared to death, my life suddenly clicked in place and you know what happens - Steven calls me a slut, suddenly apologizes, and now Korey's hurt and it's my fault.

I had a total Murphy's Law day yesterday - I kept getting kicked and stepped on and run into, not to mention stupid fucking Michael Tillery grabbed my wrists and wouldn't let go. He left red marks on my wrists and Jared is this close to beating the living shit out of him to begin with.

Then, I finally get home and I get locked out of the house. It's so hot outside, especially since we had this horrible storm last night and it started as heat lightning, and I was so misquito bitten that my legs STILL itch. I finally got in the house.

This fucking sucks. I'm the happiest I've ever been - even when Steven and I first started going out. Yesterday I wrote a song and Jared wrote the music to it on his guitar. We're hoping that I can come over withinthe next week and we can put the two pieces together. And yet, despite all this wonderfulness, my life is turning upside down. My mom is now working a full time job, AND a part time job. My dad is working full time for a group of idiots. My mom is pregnant, my aunt is having her baby and we have to go to Florida for the ENTIRE week I'm off in fall, so I get no break. My friends all want to kill Steven, and I'm freaking out because I still care about him. Not only that, but school work is hell. I've got a Spanish project due next week, which I haven't had a chance to even START, my stupid rough draft of my Macbeth essay is due today and it's not done, my Spanish homework isn't done, my Algebra 2 homework isn't done, and I have a big test in Government today! I'm so freaking out. God damnit.

Some give me a dose of slow the hell down, please?
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