Wednesday, February 6, 2008

   thoughts
lets see...yesterday i was going 2 post my picture but i couldn't get it to do right. dumb thing. anyways, ive just been thinking. first thing: why do people ask for help, but push u out over and over again? i mean, i give my all into helping people. i'm a comforter. i like 2 see people happy. being sad is no fun. but if they don't let u help, u really can't do anything about it. but my problem is i hate sitting back and letting people wallow in there sorrow. i dunno. its like im fighting a never ending battle because im so stupid and naive that i try to save everyone and everyone can't be saved. next thing: am i really that loveable? lol not like oh stormy im so deeply in love with u but like somehow i entrance people and they like me. sometimes i don't even do anything! i just try to be a friend to everyone i meet because i believe that everyone should have a friend. but sometimes, its a little overbearing. *sigh* in other news i can't go back to school because everyone's coming down with something. but i wanna!!! i think im going 2 sneak off to school *looks evil*
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Monday, February 4, 2008

   RAH RAH!!
whopie!!! i have 2 gb signings!!! its hard for me to make friends so thats why im so happy!!!! RAH RAH!!!

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   ...
is it really so bad to try and help the world?

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Sunday, February 3, 2008

im evil
im an evil person. i played someone to get information. yes it was probably not the way to go but i proved my point about a person. i feel bad in a way but in another way i don't. i have to clear things up though. someone got hurt because of a misunderstanding. but i have faith that it will be ok

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   my life is over
i thought maybe i could make things better.
but all i did was make them worse.
my life has ended
im seriously thinking about suicide.
suicide is not selfish
how can it be selfish when people hurt u over and over again.
there's just no way out.
i loved him
but the love is not returned anymore.
im dropping out
i don't want anyone to try to talk to me and make me feel better. it won't work.
friends my ass, how the fuck could we be just friends after almost a year. and he doesn't even wanna try.
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

   so it's time to get stuff out of my chest
i am so fucking tired of people assuming shit. people, take the word assume. now lets break it apart. what basic words do u see in there? u have the words, ass, u, and me. when u assume something, u make an ass out of u and me, and that's true! if u aren't sure about something i wrote on a post, don't, i repeat DO NOT, act like u know what the fuck is going on. because chances are, ya don't. and then what happens? ya piss me off. royally. see, today, i was in a good mood basically. i mean hey, i got a horrible brother that steals, lies, and everything else in the book and has something wrong with him and i wish to god that he was better (it makes me so sad), and i have extreme stomach pains and can't stand for too long or else i start to wobble, but other than that, i was doing pretty well. i was in the back room with my family talking about something when i decided to go on myotaku and see what my friends had been up to (p.s. i do not use the word friend lightly. i only have 5 on my list *frown*) i saw only two people had updated 2day. so i went to each of their sites. well, the first one made me happy. crazy girl. the next one made me wonder. i was going to comment, but i didn't feel so hot so i was going 2 do it later. now i had posted the other day and i was in an extremely foul mood. i was ranting about something like o people don't read my post and shit like that. later, i decided i didn't really care because i post for my enjoyment. i was about to log off when low and behold somebody sent me a pm (private message for those of u who don't know) well i was like yay! cuz hardly anyone sends me pm's. so i get there and the title of it made me wonder. hmm this isn't probably going 2 put u in a better mood. well i read it. man i was pissed. so i decided to write them back. not once. but twice! i was really irate. i mean, what it seemed like to me is i had been a bitch towards them, i had forgotten about them, i had "played them to the left", and a few other things. when i wrote back, i probably said a few things i didn't mean because i was angry but oh well. this is where little stormy has to put her foot down. for starters, i try not to ask much from people. i love people even though sometimes i go on a rampage and act like i don't. but i seriously do. so i try to give people my all. but sometimes i just don't feel like talking. but i don't wanna hurt anybody's feelings so if u talk to me and i don't seem up to par, that could be a reason. or a few others could be: i have been pmsing the past week so ive been bitchy, ask the family. i am sooooo lonely in my stupid little room that it puts me in a funk and i act bitchy. i don't feel that good because im always friggin sick. i could be tired. but the main reason of late is that i have a brother that has come home. our relationship, well we don't even have a relationship. i mean he got me sent away for 5 years of my childhood and i will never forgive him for that. there's other things too but i don't wanna go into that. so if you have talked or tried to talk to me in the past wk and i have been eh, i apologize. ive already cleared this with a few people. next thing. i don't forget about people and i don't play people. period. sometimes i have other things i have to do that preside over some things. playing people is not something i do. if anything, people always play me. for example: numerous times i have been the other woman. i give people my all so DON'T claim i played u. last but definitely not least. people for the last and final time do not assume anything!!!! what might seem like im talking about u, i could be talking about someone else, and in this case, i was. don't jump the gun on me. if i was talking about u, how about u ask and really find out??? i mean, i haven't talked to u in a few so there could be other people that i was talking about. so im done for now. if ya need me, aim me or pm me on myotaku.
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Monday, January 28, 2008

i quit
i give up. my life has gone down the drain officially and i don't really give a damn anymore. i just don't have the strength to care or put up a fight. first of all, i don't even know why i post anymore. nobody fucking reads it. but guess what! stormy doesn't give a damn. second of all, my brother is home and that means my life is shit. forfeit. done. third of all, i hate people who say one thing and don't really mean it. i put heart into everything i say and so should everyone else. im thinking very strongly about a few detrimental things. first would be deleting my otaku account. well im finished for now. im just writing this for my own pleasure of hearing myself talk.
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Monday, January 14, 2008

   *sigh* poem, i guess...
its kinda of a poem i guess, free verse...

just need 2 get my thoughts off my chest...

Love is a word
That I don't associate with humans anymore.
They have no love, just hate
Selfishness, just worrying about themselves

Care is a word
That I laugh at
Who would care for Stormy??
When she cares for you so much

A relationship blossoms...
Will it end in sorrow?
Will the recieving end of my love
Use me all up?

All i want is
To be loved,
To be cared for,
To feel,
To be understood,
To be realized,
To be held,

My heart breaks time and time again
It is barely held together by duck tape
Will I ever find the one
To mend it together completely?

I don't wanna hurt you
You don't wanna hurt me...
And yet we both fail in this mission,
Doing more damage than good

I know you have responsibilites,
And I have mine,
But can't you understand,
I just want a little of your time?

I don't ask for much,
'Cuz I don't like to protrude
Don't like 2 give my feelings 2 others....
Yet I try to give them 2 you...

Nevermind,

I don't wanna be insecure,
I don't wanna be clingy,
I don't wanna be a groupie,
I don't wanna be a one-night-stand,
I don't wanna be your whore,
I don't wanna be your booty call
I don't wanna be hurt....

I just want you to be my friend...
And maybe one day...
My lover


By Stormy Vipperman
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Sunday, January 13, 2008

   hurt
i...am...so hurt right now. i don't know what 2 do...*runs and crys*
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

   go
GO LOOK AT MY ART FOOLS!!! SHOO! GO NOW!
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