Tuesday, November 30, 2004

   BAH! POLITICS!!!
It's snowing like frickin' crazy outside. . .I don't like snow very much. . .snow = cold. . .I don't like cold. . .Although, I would swear I am cold blooded, because I never get cold. . .My family never believes me thus why I always get yelled at and scolded at whenever I don't wear a coat. . . ^^;;

Anyway. . .back to what I was really going to say. . .Which will most likely turn into a rant. ^_^ Anyway, Brandon's theory interests me. *nods* he's all like, ' we were discussing that Bush has been hiring arabs to decapitate people.' and all this other stuff. It was very entertaining to me.

I hate politics. . .I'm not into them, and never have been. I just don't see the point in politics. . . I mean, no good can possibly come from them. You start talking about politics in family, forget it. . .It will go on for HOURS! My family is like. . .really really stubborn, most of us are Irish and Italian. . .'nuff said. Everyone always thinks they are right, no one else can ever be right.

My brother said I shouldn't talk to curt anymore, something about destroying the government. . . I mean he's communist, but I don't care. He's a really good friend. . .I disagree with some of my brother's beliefs, mum's, dad's, friend's, ect. ect. . . I don't stop talking to them or ignore them. So why would I do that to curt? I mean. . .He wouldn't DESTROY the government. . .it would still probably be around. . .he just wants communism in the united states. . .Anyway, I don't really think that many people will go for that. Honestly. . .I don't think it will ever get into the United States. . .but with the way things are going now. . .Who really knows? So, I don't think my brother has anything to worry about. . .at least not for a good few years. lol.

But. . .I don't really get the big deal with politics. . .Maybe it's just because I am only fourteen, maybe it's because I am not in a particular political group thing. . . I honestly don't know. But I don't care about politics, I don't have interest in them. When it comes to it, I am just like, 'eh. . .whatever.' and I try my best to change the subject. Because I don't know much about politics in general, so it's not my area of expertise. Besides. . .my parents just end up scolding me anyway.

I can like start talking about things that are wrong and they'll like completely disagree. 'That's what we get for letting LIBERAL teachers teach our child!' WTF?!?! The things I believe in has absolutely NOTHING to do with my teachers! ( For Example: None of my teachers are Pagan, yet I am Pagan.) I believe what I believe because of my morals and beliefs. Teachers don't usually talk about stuff that they believe in or agree with. So, how do my teachers get credited for my beliefs? I don't think that's right. I mean, for ex. the other day my mum n dad were talking about something to do with medical stuff and saying that people who don't have money shouldn't get treated.

WTF?!?! So, we should just say, 'Oh yeah, screw you. You can't pay, you can go die now. Have fun. *fake cheery smile*' I mean, they can be charged with it, and work on paying for it over a few years. . . We don't just have to throw them away and let them die. My moral beliefs goes against that. If you can help someone from dying, why not? Doesn't anyone in the world have a heart anymore? I guess not. . .that would explain so much about the world today.

I just don't get why I am wrong in that matter. I don't get why I get scolded for having a heart! For having strong moral beliefs?!?! UGH. . . Why does everyone have to be so damn opinionated when it comes to politics, the only thing it does is help run the country. . .Couldn't we do that some other way than politics? Of course. . .if you do that and chose someone to run the country. . .It could turn into a dictatorship, which he/she could take advantage of the position and kill innocent people, or throw them in jail. . .when they were innocent. . .So, I mean I guess there's really no winning. . .but. . . *sigh* I just don't really know. . . it's pointless.

~*~Shadya~*~

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Monday, November 22, 2004

gah damn dreams

This is from last night, I didn't have time to type it, I was supposed to get off the computer.

9:01 p.m.

Oh, wow, my bro just called from his cell phone, downstairs, to tell me mum wanted me to take pup out. . .hello, how lazy can one be? He called the upstairs from his cell phone, how sad is that?! -_- *shakes head at laziness and sadness*

Anyway, to the main reason I decided to write in here. I told my dad I wanted to move to the east coast and my dad was all, "If you want to get married, I'll help you pack." So, he was saying that the only way I could move was if I got married and was out of his house. So, I think that triggered my dream. . . -_- What a god awful, horrific dream. *sigh*

As you could guess, I dreamt I got married last night. It was the absolute worst! Argh! Jeez, my 'husband' guy was such a fucking retard. . .that's the only way to describe him. But the actual guy is nothing like the dream one. *shakes head* I would kill him if he were. ^_^ The actual guy is nice, sweet, smart, caring, helpful, you know. One of my guy buddies in other words.

Anyway, back to actual details on the dream. . . okay, it was like the wedding reception, or whatever. . . I was sitting at a table starring at my left hand (wedding ring, ya know?) I was really sad and annoyed thinking, 'Why did I marry him? What a loser! What a retard! I hate him! Can I kill him" and a whole bunch of other not nice thoughts.

While I was thinking all of that, my 'husband' was SO dumb! he wasn't really even interested in me, at least if he was he did a hell of good job at hiding it. He kept looking at the floor, he was so pathetic, completely interested and entertained by the floor.

Then people were making fun of me and asking why I wasn't paying attention to him and acted like I didn't like him and was bored. I wonder why, lol, I mean he he was only more interested in the floor than me, damn.

Finally, like the dude sat down next to me and I put my arms around his shoulders and personally, I think I was working on choking him to death, but like suttley, so like no one would notice. . . It DOES sound like something I would do. lol.

anyway, it just wasn't a good dream.

*hugs n kisses*
<3 Shads.

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Thursday, November 18, 2004

   (Now)

Eeeeek!!!

Scaryness!! Brandon was just talking to me, we got on the subject of boy scouts, because he was in it with my brother before he made eagle. Anyway, he asked me if I remembered Daniel, the freaky kid, with the red hair. . . He said he had such a big crush on me a while ago. Eeeek! not cool! Boy scouts! Blech, I don't like them, they were such jerks to me when I was forced to go with my bro n dad to all the meetings back in the day. (when I was about 6-11 years) . . .anyway, that's weird, cause I don't even know the kid. He didn't know me at like all, and he's like 18 now. . . it's so damn weird, i swear.

I hate for people to like me, I don't think I am worthy of being liked by anyone. . . I'm, just. . . different. . . I don't know, it's hard to explain this feeling. . .I just feel like I am not good enough for anyone, and everyone could do WAY better then me. ^^;;

Shads


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   @_@ . . . (From earlier this morning)
Mmm, wow, that was some of the easiest stuff I have ever done. I had to do the 'on your own' for exercises 21 and 22 in web design, it was SO easy. . . Scary how easy it was really.

Hmmm. . . I think I am going to get bad grades in all my classes. . .that's the thing with me missing school, I end up forgetting what I need to do and then I never do it, or have trouble making it up, because I didn't learn the stuff. XP blah. oh well. . . I'll be good in another like week or something. . . the semester will be over. . . wait! No, it couldn't be over. . . but the 12 week grading period will be up. . .hmmm, I think I am just dumb. *confusion*

Hrmm. . .I don't know. . . *looks down* My nails are green and shiney. ^^ it matches my jade thumb ring and my silver ring with I think a type of jade stone in the middle. I got it from my grandma who died, but I never knew who I got it from until I asked my mum last week. ^^;; Oops. . .heh, heh.

Also. . .I swear my dad must think I am uber fat. . . ^^;; This sweat shirt I got like last year, is WAY too damn big!! It's as long as dress on me!! and way too baggy! It doesn't keep me very warm because of all of the space in it. It's like a dude's/ men's (not sure which) size like 3 XL!!!! For crying out loud!! I don't even wear a teen's XL!!! *sigh* How sad. . . I don't think my dad realizes that I am really not that fat. My dad was all like 'oh it'll shrink in the wash' when I first got it. From what I can tell, It hasn't shrunk at all. . . it makes me look fatter, too, since it's so big on me. the shoulders are like almost to my elbows, it's so funny Heh. I do like the sweatshirt though, it has a blue n black dragon on it. ^^

Hrmmm. . . what else? What other random stuff can I talk about?

Oh! I am getting a hair cut today, at three. Also I have to stay after school today, so I can make up my science lab and the quiz I missed. Which I never studied for the quiz, and I have no clue about it. ^^;; oops. heh, heh.

Anyway, back to my hair cut, I am going to get it cut shorter-so the perm will be mostly gone- and layer it a bit more, I'm also going to get long choppy looking bangs! ^^ I can't do what I want to with it at the moment.

Eventually I am going to grow it down to my thighs, get it really layered and choppy looking, and possibly dye it. But that won't be for a while, cause it'll take quite a while to grow my hair that long. . .seeing as my hair is going to be to like my mid-neck after today. ^^;;

hmmm. . .I may be able to find a picture of the hairstyle I want. *goes off to find one*

If you want to know the hairstyle, it's the style Mew Ichigo has from Tokyo Mew Mew, I love that hairstyle. ^^ I just don't want my hair pink. XP

Well, later. bye-ee!

Ciao!
Shads
*hugs n kisses*


EDIT: My brain hurts from trying to comprehend kathy, dalt's, and pyro's confusing ass conversations she put on her xanga!! @_@ . . .ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004

   Hey!!
Yo, it's been AGES since I have posted on here!! I got a LJ, and I've been practically living on Gaia recently. . .My names are;
www.livejournal.com/users/sailortime

on gaiaonline.com my user name is Fire_Witch, or Water_Witch, or WaterMyth. Take your pick, I am going to have more. . .soon, very soon.

I'm at school right now, it's my intro to ms office class, so now I have two computers classes a day!! Eeep! It's crazy I tell you! I believe I shall be coming here more often now. *nods* It's tootsie day today, basically crossdresser day. I have developed a new respect for guys. . .boxers are so uncomfy!! They bunch up on you WAY too easily. . . I am looking forward to not wearing boxers under my pants again. . .which I could have gone to the bathroom to take them off, since I am wearing regular underwear, too. . . But you know me, I'm not that smart. *nods*

Tomorrow is Spirit day, we're supposed to wear our school colors, but you know me. . .I have no school spirit, besides I have moral issues against my school, they helped rapists (baseball team)get off scott free!! Grrrrrr!! *glares at the school board*

Well, enough of my ranting and random chattering. ^_^ Chao!
Love ya's,
Shadya
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Saturday, May 15, 2004

   Howdy Hellohah!
Hello, I am overly happy. Why I am not completely sure. Maybe it's because yesterday was so fun...

7:00 P.M. Friday may 14
My dad and I went to go pick up my friend Ali to go to a thing like putt putt golf... you know with lazer tag, mini golf, bowling, arcade, ect ect... Ali wanted to go because Tyler said him and Kelly were going and that she should go, too. Naturally she didn't want to go alone, so she had me go with her. Anyway, we got there and we found Tyler, Kelly, A.J., and Sonny, right away. So, we started to hang out with them, and followed them around making fun of them because they sucked at mini golf. They wanted Ali and me to play lazer tag with them, so we did and while we were in there Sonny kept humping My and Ali's legs... Ewww It's deeply disturbing, and I was beyond p*ssed off. I mean the wrath of hell was about to go out on that jerk! Then we went and watched Tyler and them all bowl, none of them are all that good. Tyler was an all right bowler he beat everyone by at least 50 pins. by then it was like 8:30 and it closed at 9:00, so we went to the outside mini golf, and by then brianna M, Jessica, and whitney, joined us too. Tyler and Kelly kept whacking the golf balls out of the area, Tyler's went over the parking lot and kept on going... By the time that was over it was time to go, and tyler asked us (ali and me) if we wanted to go ding dong ditching with him at like 10:30 or something. We said yeah sure, so I ended up spending the night at Ali's house.

At about 10:00 ali told her dad that I wanted to go for a walk for some odd reason. he told us we had to be back by 10:30. Then when we got to the place we were supposed to meet Tyler he wasn't there... so we walked to his house and he was walking out, and his dad was still awake so he had to go back in after ten minutes, so we agreed to meet again at 11:30. Ali and I had to sneak out of her house, which was easy since the garage door was kept open all night. Then we met up with Tyler again, and for the most part we ended up just talking and jumping in the bushes whenever cars drove by. after about two hours of just walking around aimlessly in the dark, we saw some port-a-potties... and we bored enough to decide to tip them over... we tipped 5 over and Ali opened a bunch of people's mailboxes... oh! and we ended up ding dong ditching this one house... By that time I was really dang hyper, because the only way to get me hyper to be around my friends... Ali and Tyler kept telling me to flash cars that drove by... I have no idea what possessed me to really do it, but I actually did flash a couple of cars... after making sure Ali and Tyler couldn't see... plus it was pitch black outside so I don't think they could have seen anything... Yes... it was pretty interesting, I had a lot of fun! Ali and me got back to her house about 3 1/2 hours after we left her house... I don't think I will ever forget that night...

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