Thursday, October 12, 2006

You would rather bleed...

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Hello, people. How are ya? I'm doing rather well, I guess. Today was a pretty interesting day. I'm a bit tired as of late...stressing a bit over school and life and a lot of other crap. As usual, yeah? Well, I'll deal with it - I always do, haha. Today was the Club Fair at school, which we held in the surge. (Excuse any typos I make, my hands are fucking freezing.) In any case, I was at not one, but TWO different booths off and on. I stood at one for the Theater Guild and another for the Jazz Band - because, of course, I'm the lead guitarist so I had to be there. (insert sarcasm here) So, I was running back and forth for two to three hours. Band room, M.A. room, theater, surge, locker, surge, M.A. room, band room, back. I'm fucking tired T_T. I had to deal with that, on top of the stupid people on the Spell Bowl team here. Apparently, all of the other seniors on the team (including a certain someone) decided to just NOT SHOW UP. AGAIN. Why the hell would you do that? We're supposed to lead the underclassmen, and they just don't appear at all...but whatever. At the prior practice, I'd given everyone an assignment. We'd break the list into parts so that we could create a hybrid 'specialty list' before competition. (Which, it seems, we are not prepared for.) So, everyone did what I told them to do, and I'm gonna type out that list tonight, since I've gathered all of that data. What fun, yeah? T_T Anyways, my major issue is how the fucking idiot seniors blew everything off. We have a few days until competition, and they just randomly decide to not show up to practices? I swear, I'm gonna have to carry this team this time...and people wonder why I magically have these burdens that mysteriously appear from nowhere. Guess what? They don't appear from nowhere. They are created by people who just don't give a damn about others. Normally, I wouldn't be so pissed about it, but considering I've got so much (and everyone already knew this), I just don't see how they could do that to me. I've spread myself far too thin today - I'm really exhausted! But everything's worth it. My grades are actually looking like five A's and a something...I never know what to expect in Economics. But, you see, this is the first time I've EVER said "five A's" and have been dead fucking serious. I'm so proud of myself ^^; So, I'm coming a step closer to being dreams to fruition, and I couldn't be happier. That's what fuels me these days. I haven't broken yet only because I'm so close to true happiness that I just can't give up yet. I can endure this for a while longer, I'm sure of it. So I'll deal with the stress and the fatigue for a little while longer. One of the people responsible for sustaining me is my beautiful fiancee. I really think it's amazing that she can bear her burdens and still try to steal mine away from me lol. She's got so much to deal with, and she's still always trying to make me happy. I really love her for that, and for everything she does for me - she's my everything. And yes, Tavi, we are getting married. I doubt it will be very soon, but we'll see. Talk to her about it, because I'm sure she's got more of it figured out than I do, haha. Wow, this is getting long, isn't it? I guess that I'll wrap this up, lmao. Didn't mean to waste too much of your life. (If I hit Backspace one more damned time...>_<) Did I mention that I'm really, really cold? My fingers are about to fall off XD. I'm gonna go warm up - take care, everyone.