Tuesday, November 9, 2004

YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today i got a E-mail adress kida kool
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Friday, November 5, 2004

Broken silence
Broken silence by the tears in my eyes
Washing down my face
But they can’t wash my heart
Of this everlasting pain

Proud of whom I am
Happy for myself, as a girl
But the world won’t accept me, as I am
They discriminate, won’t see me as I stand

My love, my friends will leave me one day
I must hide my tears though (I can’t show I cry)
Because I won’t show that it’s true (that I’m broken)
I am the strength that shouldn’t die
The smile that keeps them warm
But won’t some one love me?
Why can’t the clown laugh for himself?
Why can’t the joker hear a joke?

I feel so cold
Yet I know I’m beautiful
Wouldn’t change a thing
Why can’t they see it?
Are they blind or am I?

Am I rejected by society?
Or don’t I accept their view
Maybe it’s the same thing.


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Goodnight girl
You know me so clearly
And see how I try
You feel me, and heal me
And you won’t let me cry
You keep me so near you
And yet see me from so far
But I won’t a tell soul
I won’t tell at all
About my goodnight girl
Because
Doesn’t matter how sad he made you
Doesn’t matter how hard i cried
Just remember the same old reason
Things are easier
By each other’s side
My Goodnight girl

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Help
I’m worthless
I’m ugly
I don’t be wanna be me
I just wanna it to stop
I can’t escape this, I’m trapped
Every now and then I wonder are these words true
Or is it just how I’m feeling.
I’m so certain I was great once
What happened to me
So easily we can decline

Why do you think they are better than me?
I have so much to much offer
Why don’t you see me?
Is it me who is blind to the truth?
Is that the truth?
Or is it just how I’m feeling
Everyday I grow old
Soon my time will be here
Will I be ready? Because I’m so far behind
I have so much to do

What good is a table with a broken leg
Even though the frame is good
I guess it has become worthless
What good am I with a broken heart
Even though the surface is good
I guess I have become worthless


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Waiting for love
Here I stand again
As she passes me by
She hasn’t noticed me again
I never even caught her eye

And though I smile, my heart is in tears
I wish our worlds could collide
Cos she’d smash all my fears
Cos all I fear is her
Not wanting to be by my side

Will she ever know what I m about?
Will she ever care?
I need to know,Cos it’s starting to rain
And I m still standing there


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Lesson time
Well I’m in lesson and my head’s still consumed with you.
I have 45 minutes, damn how will I make it through?
Man it’s crazy how I’m mad for you,
But when I close my eyes it’s time again for our rendezvous.

Yes I want to be free of these thoughts,
But I cant. Didn’t want any others,
It’s you I’ve always sought.

We hear so many love songs, but now they have meaning.
When a man cries, I understand the feeling.
I realise that the hurt and sorrow is very piercing.
It breaks even the strongest heart ‘til it’s cold and shivering,
Then leaves it’s mark so it hurts just living.
Should have known about this feeling from the beginning,
But men will always crave women to give their lives meaning.

Well the lesson is nearly finished now but don’t know what he’s saying.
Missed the pearls of wisdom the lecturer’s been giving.
Damn it’s a weird life I’m living.

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Marriage
I’m living as some else to you keep you in my heart
They would take my soul and keep us apart if they knew the truth
When will I be allowed to breathe your name?
When will I ever see your face?
I’m in a world that that won’t let me be
I must face the world with a smile I cannot feel
Somehow I know you are screaming out to me
Each night your love fills my eyes
Since that night the arranged marriage changed our lives

I know we weren’t meant to love
But still how can a man meet an angel and keep his heart
I never had the words to say how much I felt
I know it is worthless to say since we are no longer
I’m dying every second to hold you near
How am I to live a new life I never wanted?
You love keeps me alive, only to tear me down every moment
I miss you and our time
It’s like a memory I can’t remember
Cos I m been forced to forget

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Second best
Let me tell you how it feels to be second best
It’s like there is nothing you can do, to be the one
No matter how much heart you have, or how good you are
It will never matter, or make a difference

It’s like every time you try, people will laugh
You end up laughing at yourself
Cos if you don’t laugh, you’ll cry

You just wanna get away from it all
Get away from everyone
You wanna prove them wrong
Then you think what’s the point, cos you know you can’t.

Whatever is the reason for you losing
It will never make sense to you
Who is high and who is low is a sense of perception
A question of the mind
And you will never understand their minds
So don’t try

In fact we don’t even understand our own minds
Who is beautiful who is not?
Everyone has beauty but not everyone sees it
So beauty, do we decide that or is it pre-installed in our heads?
Is it something we can’t and maybe shouldn’t change.

I feel Beauty a matter of taste,
I believe that it must exist like that
We all must win some and lose some
Otherwise we would all fall for the same person
All fall for one girl (I guess she’s a winner!
I guess she will pick a guy, and the rest of us guys will all lose!)

That’s why loves a funny thing, to some we are always second place
And then to others we will never be, that’s cos to them we’ll always be the best

So never be sad you’re second cos we all are
And remember at the same time we are all first. So smile

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Some words that are special
I want to say some words that are special to me and to you
Cos I have never pledged like this before

I was just a guy
Looking for a girl
Trying to be happy
In such an unkind world
Now, I feeling crying when I understand
That instead I found an angel
Who would hold my hand
Tears of joy god blessed me with
That help to honour all the love you give

I want you to know
You are in my heart
When ever I’m alone
Or feel lost
I know your presence
Will walk me home

Although we can’t be together
You are my secret love
You’re in my heart forever
The one I’m dreaming of
Please don’t be sad
About the way things are
I know it’s easy
When we are so far
But try and think
Of the memories we had

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The magic is ya
Each time the wind blows
I just long to be close
To you’re embrace
Because there’s a warmth in my heart
Knowing you care.
Such a tender a love just sweeten the air
And in my every breath
Holds a sweet memory that was once there

So when I lay here alone
And dream of the world
I’m flying on a carpet just me this girl
We’re flying so high
Through that paradise sky

But if you weren’t here what would I do?
Because I now realise that it’s so true
That when I look deep in your eyes
I’ve found that this magic is all you.


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