Sunday, August 6, 2006

   Oh how life is hard, yet so awesome.

I finally did test, the end of July. Currently brown. As long as I continue to work hard, and keep at it I should have my first dan(black belt)by next Julyish. My next belt is red, then after five months I test for my black tip, then another 5 months untill the black belt test. I still have alot to learn. ^_^ I hope and pray that I stay at it, even after I recieve it. Your trianing doesn't 'really' start untill you become a black belt, thats how I was taught. Its hard for me sometimes though. I know I could be better, but my focus kind of lack sometimes, alot lately. My week is always so busy. Work, then start to TKD. Some days I don't feel like going, but I do it anyway because I know I'll regret it if I don't. I still love it, but at the end of the day I'm always hot, sweaty and tired, lol. Work sucks. Anywho, this will be my little brother's last year of high school. Its so strange thinking of this. Him and I have always been real close, I do stuff with him all the time. Lately we've been watching our old movies, like Toy Story, Otis & Milo, Lion King. Lol! So when I think of him, I always think of that little white haired kid(his hair was extremely light blonde when we were little). He'll be 18 this September, five days before my twentieth birthday, heh. Yeah its just weird. I love reminiscing. My brother graduting and recieving a black belt would be the ultimate of sweetness. On another note, I want to go to college. I should've started last year, but I needed a car and what not, I've achieved that. Now I'm saving for college. It will be the community college. I don't know if I'll ever be able to go to a big one. I recently found this out. Apparently, since I was in small classes in high school, I was always behind those students in the larger classes. In other words, I have a learning discibility, or so its called. Which means it takes me longer to process things I guess. I always needed more time on tests and such. Thats all, I know what I'm doing, but it just takes me longer. I usually have to read over something a few times to actually get what its saying, depending on what it is. So I was put into smaller classes, so the teacher would pay more attention to the students, individually. It was nice, I really liked it this way. I did really well in these classes, I always got As. Anyway, a friend of mine who graduated this year recently brought this to my attention; that since we were in these classes, that weren't as far ahead in the curriculum as most, simply becuase we would stay on one thing longer than the larger classes so we fully understood it. And we were told we didn't have to take the ACT/SATs, we're screwed. So I hope to get into the community college this fall, and go from there. I have no idea what I want to do anyway. I wanted to be a manga artist for years, since eighth grade I think, before then I always told people I simply wanted to be an artist, but I never knew what exactly. Now I'm just not sure. I love to draw still, but I'm bad with deadlines when it comes to drawing, and I like to be physical so I don't know if I could sit there all day everyday. I actually mentioned to my Taekwondo instructor that I thought about teaching TKD, thought about it..so he trys to get me to help the lower belts more and more often. Or teach class, with him or one of the assistant instuctors supervising. I don't like teaching class, its so diffrent. Lol! But thats something you get used to over time. I've only done this I think three times, and that was when there were only a few students that showed up that night, who were all low belts. Back to what I was saying. I'll probebly have to start off with only two classes(English and math is what I was thinking), simply because I don't have the money for a full load after buying my car. My only road block is the deadline... The money is due by August 18th, and I have yet to even take the assesment tests. If I can't make in time for fall, I might have to wait untill spring to go. It sucks, but thats life. Theres no way I'm waiting another year. Oh well, we shall see. Pray for me. ^_^;

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