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Saturday, February 9, 2008


   everything seems so damn grating....
i hate people right now....the world is full of idiots who don't know they're head fom their ass!i'm sick of edealing with idiotic teenagers all fucking day, so when i go to wrkmi get to deal with idiotic adults! and the ones that aren't idiotic are either psyco or or controling megalomaniacs. i can't wait till spring break where i can take some time off and just get back in touch with myself...maybe take a road trip on my own. meet some new people and shit.

*sigh* ever get the feeling your life totally sucks? im amediocre student with a mediocre job in a dead end town in a nation with a dying economy and social structure. no one respects me. not students, not tachers, not regular people, not even my 11 year old fucking sister! all my talents are useless right now due to my age and financial situation. no one wants me to sing in a band because i can't play bar shows legally in idaho. i can't be writer becaause all my time is going to school. martial arts is just a hobby right now. i can't win any money at tournaments in this particular style. i don't even know if i can hold my own in a fight. i never get a chance! the only times people fuck with me is in the middle of class. and they're fucking stupid about it too! i can't guage my real world fighting ability in sparring either, because im sparring black belts and full grown adults. plus, the most effective shots arent allowed!stupid legal issues...i guess i should be glad, because otherwise i'd get my face pummeled and my legs sweeped. i just wish someone would pick an actual fight with me. not just say "wanna fight?" and back down when i say yes. its against my principls to throw first, but i sure as hell bait people. no one ever takes it. ...

maybe im just being emo today. i don't know. i'll probley feel better if i get to shoot shit to pieces tomorrow. it may happen to, depending on the weather.

anywho, thats all i got. i'm gonna hop in the shower, then go lay in bed and stare at the cieling contemplating how much it sucks being broke. i suppose i always get restless this time of year. it lasts till summer and and by finals week, im on the verge of a fucking break down. i don't know if i'll make it. this knda shit doesn't usually start happeneing till march or april...

well, gnight

(10 minutes later) GOD DAMN IT! my computer is totally fucked!! i can't even post comments!!! is this just me?

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