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Once Was Never

She understands
Yet, she still demands.
Blinded by a scar
Deep, and filled in with tar.

She sleeps with the angels,
And awakes in the dark.
Her imagination runs wild,
Until the light is dialed.

Good intentions turn to a fearful heart.
Now she sees the wart with in,
And is tempted to ignore it,
Throw it in the bin.

Her limitations are covered,
Covered with her other side.
Children of the past,
Have never not lied.

Once was never,
And forever a lie.
She seeks for the deep,
From the whole inside.

Silence under ground, daring to make a single sound
Blinded by fears, fright bringing tears
Buried deep inside, fallen and cast aside
Like a river run dry, tears refuse to cry
Unsatisfied, emotion screams out to die
Screaming takes a leave, unable to believe
Turning from the silence, now seeking for reliance


By Sakura49...lol


Wednesday, January 19, 2005


   Gizmo
YaY!!!! The vet said that he may have a mild case of snuffles, but said that if we see any of the symptoms getting worse, that he sould be fine. I might be grounded form the T.V, and that would really suck, b/c the new inuyasa is coming on in two days, i also orderd the first inuyasha movie on the net, (well my uncle did), and it should be here today, YaY!!!! im up to my neck in debt, owing my uncle, and my dad for the vet! well g2g, i hope some one will take pity on me, and hold me for ransom one of these days, but until then i will just have to suffer...


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Monday, January 17, 2005


   Poor Bunny Gizmo
My pooooooor bunny might be really realy sick! ahhhhh....i little baby bunny is has iky white stuff around his nose and eyes, so i looked it up and he has all the signs and symtoms of snuffles (a respatory disease), so i called the breeder, and he said that thats what i sounded like, so now im mom is going to call the vet by our house, really close, and ask for a check up or somthing, so we can find out. in the mean time, my weekend with my grandma was cool, slept in all morning, and read/watched tv all night, i also played with gizmo of corse, lol. we moved his cage upstaris just incase that had something to do with it. im on page 328 on harry potter, and i at the part where harry and the others form DATDAC, so that going good. well g2g, byes....
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Friday, January 14, 2005


   Jan 14/05 (“You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed”)
I’ve finished my inuyasha wallpaper and I still have to add it, to myotaku. My science teacher told us what the science exam is gonna be about, or rather exactly what it was going to be on it! There are going to be 25 multiple questions for each unit (4), and 1 long answer question for each unit. The exam is on the 26th, and we get a “cheat sheet” as our teacher calls it, from back to front, we can put whatever we want on it and bring it into the exam to use. I AM NOT KIDDING! lol… My parents just left for the whole weekend, in my head I was all like “Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes!.....FINALY! But they made my mom’s mom (the grandma I like most) come over here to look after me (basically they don’t trust me not to have a party, or invite boys over or something like that!). CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? Yes it sucks, but I can get away with more with my grandma though. I can’t wait for midnight, when the new inuyasha is comes on. INUYASHA ROCKS! Let’s see, Tuesday nothing much happened, Wednesday my Nanny (my dad’s mom) called here, and asked for my mom, but she wasn’t there, so then she let me in on a secret. I’ll tell you, I wish I had hung the phone up then and there. She went on to say that one of her friends that was two years older then her was having a lingerie party b/c she was getting married. Then she went on to telling me about this cute little see through black thingy (I mentally blocked my ears after the word see through black), and how all her little friends were just going to laugh and laugh at it! It was very traumatizing, and I wish I had, like I said, hung the phone up! The potato salad is almost gone (mom brought some to work, b/c they were all fighting for more! lol…..who in there right mind would fight over potato salad?....Yesterday on Thursday my parents turned into fire breathing dragons, all hell broke loose, everything went insane, and I’m afraid what my father is going to do when my mom isn’t home (she works evenings), I’m betting he’ll rub my brain dry from studying, and rattle all fun from my already non-existent fun life! Today at lunch I had to stay back to talk to the teacher b/c my parents said, and Cj (Courtney my friend) went on with out me, and totally forgot about me, and went off with other ppls, I found her with carly, evona, and other ppls that I don’t know, and all she said was “oh, sorry I forgot, where were you anyway?” real nice friend hay? I would call her a bitch but I know that she isn’t usually like that, or that I know of! Then when I went to my last class, I went to the seat I have been sitting in for over a month, and this bitch that used to sit there comes up to me and says that she wants her seat back and then she gets 2 other girls bugging my about it, and is say “No, I’ve been sitting here for over a month so bug off”, (I should have said fuck off, but he teacher was there), after I finished what I was doing on the comp I got off and completely ignored them and went to the back of room on the last comp left! So yes I’m not in the best mood, except that now that my parents are gone for the weekend I will have a little break from them, and that at least I can be happy about! Lol… well g2g, byes….
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Thursday, January 13, 2005


   Jan 13/05 (Evil Father)
I will finally have the net back on friday, YaY!!!!!! I'm at school at the moment, and will be sure to type long and hard on friday, well c ya later....byes...

P.S. If anyone wans to stage a ransome for me on monday, be my guest, the exams have appeared out of no wear, and i need a new hide out! lol....

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Wednesday, January 12, 2005


   Jan 12/05
Hello…I am officially cut off from the net (thanks to my wonderful father) so I have resorted to writing at school. I cant write much or basically anything at all, b/c my teacher keeps cheeking in with me, to make sure I’m working, and not doing what I am doing right now, that is writing on the net! lol…well g2g, byes, I’ll tell u loads more tomorrow, k!
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