Friday, October 1, 2004

Read if you like. My day of pain.
SakuraLove2u v2 (6:59:23 PM): I had a hard day at school
SakuraLove2u v2 (6:59:30 PM): got sick during my 2nd class..
SakuraLove2u v2 (6:59:36 PM): went on to my 3rd
SakuraLove2u v2 (6:59:48 PM): told the teacher I was sick.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:03 PM): and he said "Come on buddy, just take th test first, you can do it buddy"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:12 PM): I was feeling so so so so so so so sick
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:18 PM): but I sat down and took the test
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:25 PM): and I barely did any of it.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:27 PM): I knew the answers.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:35 PM): they just wouldnt come out of the pen. x_x;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:44 PM): and I didnt turn in my homework either.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:49 PM): but.. eh.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:54 PM): I got a 31 on the test
Maikeru Yume (7:00:54 PM): x.x;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:00:57 PM): and I just started crying.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:01:01 PM): real bad.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:01:03 PM): As usual
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:01:05 PM): no one noticed.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:01:10 PM): and I didnt make a sound.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:01:23 PM): It proves so badly that no one pays any attention to me in that class.
Maikeru Yume signed on at 7:01:35 PM.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:02:26 PM): Anyways.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:02:27 PM): Yeah
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:02:34 PM): Tears were falling like rain.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:02:37 PM): all over my desk.
Maikeru Yume (7:02:37 PM): That isn't good. Try and retake it..
Maikeru Yume (7:02:40 PM): x.x;;;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:02:59 PM): Im going to try to retake it.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:01 PM): -nods-
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:07 PM): The teacher checked on me 3 times.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:20 PM): "It wasnt the test was it? You'll be okay. Your grade will be fine"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:23 PM): but I didnt answer.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:39 PM): and then he said "You're okay, right? Its not the test, is it?"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:03:50 PM): and I shrugged and said "not really"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:08 PM): and then later he asked if there was anything he could help with
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:17 PM): and I shook my head no and talked a little.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:23 PM): It was hard to talk though.
Maikeru Yume (7:04:32 PM): You could have just told him..
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:36 PM): I must have sounded and looked really pathetic.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:38 PM): Told him what?
Maikeru Yume (7:04:49 PM): That you were sick and would like to do it later?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:04:55 PM): I couldnt speak.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:05:09 PM): I was silently choking on my tears.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:05:28 PM): Cant talk very well you know, after crying for like... half an hour straight.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:05:44 PM): you know? So that's how it was.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:05:48 PM): I went to lunch
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:06:00 PM): and kind of.. hid out. Well. Didnt go to the cafiteria.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:06:08 PM): but Chidori chan found me.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:06:15 PM): and she gave me a long hug.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:06:47 PM): and I went to the cafiteria, starving to death, I didnt take my medicine this morning, so I was starvin'.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:01 PM): and then when i got to the end of the lunch line, the lady said
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:11 PM): "..o.o.. you owe a dollar fifty."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:17 PM): "Can I keep my lunch?"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:18 PM): "No."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:28 PM): "....But I'm hungry.."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:31 PM): "Sorry."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:39 PM): I almost said "no, you cant have it, its mine ._."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:42 PM): but I didnt.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:44 PM): and gave it back
Maikeru Yume (7:07:45 PM): x.x;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:51 PM): and Tama said "wait. Wait. Sakura. I got money"
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:54 PM): and I said "No."
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:07:57 PM): and walked off.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:12 PM): and Tama and Seraph tried to hold me back
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:18 PM): they grabbed onto my backpacks
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:22 PM): and didnt let go
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:34 PM): but someone bumped into them and I got free.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:45 PM): and just walked to the nurse's office.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:49 PM): Tama caught up.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:08:52 PM): Nurse wasnt there.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:09:16 PM): That kid, from my technology class last year... the loudmouth one that always yelled at me.. remember me talking about him?
Maikeru Yume signed on at 7:09:25 PM.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:09:33 PM): o.o;
Maikeru Yume (7:09:37 PM): o.o;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:09:45 PM): SakuraLove2u v2 (7:09:16 PM): That kid, from my technology class last year... the loudmouth one that always yelled at me.. remember me talking about him?
Maikeru Yume (7:10:14 PM): o.o
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:10:19 PM): o.o?
Maikeru Yume (7:10:30 PM): You copied and pasted that?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:10:34 PM): -nod-
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:10:42 PM): from our convo. o_o;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:09 PM): Did you read it before my AIM messed up?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:11 PM): Anways.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:14 PM): He just looked at me.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:18 PM): Stared, really.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:22 PM): and I sat down in a chair
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:26 PM): stared at the nurse's desk
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:37 PM): and slammed my head down on the table as hard as I could.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:44 PM): It hurt.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:45 PM): o-o;
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:11:53 PM): Tama freaked out and grabbed my shoulders
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:24 PM): but I managed to get three or so more slams against the table.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:29 PM): and then a dean walked in
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:36 PM): said the nurse wasnt available
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:40 PM): so I went to the front office
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:45 PM): and called my Nana
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:47 PM): she wasnt home.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:12:57 PM): So I sat in the front office for over an hour and a half.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:05 PM): And she finally came and got me.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:12 PM): After that, I was fine.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:14 PM): o.o;
Maikeru Yume (7:13:16 PM): o.o;
Maikeru Yume (7:13:25 PM): Why'd you hit your head on the table?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:38 PM): I dont know.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:49 PM): it was convenient? -shrug-
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:54 PM): it was there.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:13:57 PM): so heck, why not.
Maikeru Yume (7:14:03 PM): .. What kind of logic is that?
Maikeru Yume (7:14:10 PM): You could say that about anything.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:14:14 PM): I know.
Maikeru Yume (7:14:22 PM): That's a dangerous way of thinking, you know.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:14:27 PM): I know.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:14:37 PM): I wanted to feel pain.
Maikeru Yume (7:14:39 PM): " Hey, I wonder what the arsenic tastes like..? "
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:14:43 PM): physical pain.
Maikeru Yume (7:15:09 PM): If it helped or something, I guess it's okay..
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:15:21 PM): I dont know if it helped.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:15:23 PM): for a second.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:15:42 PM): I wanted it to be so overwhelmingly painful
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:15:57 PM): so that the emotional and mental pain wouldnt stand a chance against it.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:16:04 PM): Didnt exactly work.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:16:13 PM): But meh. -shrug-
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:16:50 PM): When you're like..
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:16:56 PM): like how I was today
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:17:05 PM): you think way differently.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:17:12 PM): even though I knew what I was doing.
Maikeru Yume (7:17:30 PM): Why were you so upset and sick today?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:17:39 PM): Everything.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:17:49 PM): Sometimes,
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:17:51 PM): I just get sad.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:18:00 PM): and its hard to say what made me sad
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:18:06 PM): because its not just one thing.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:18:10 PM): It's life.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:18:20 PM): and the tears just come out. I cant help it.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:18:56 PM): I wanted to scream
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:00 PM): when I was crying in class.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:08 PM): I wanted to fall out of the desk.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:21 PM): bring all the papers on the desk down with me.
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:30 PM): down to my knees
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:32 PM): and scream
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:54 PM): but you know... that would have been a bit weird, yanno?
SakuraLove2u v2 (7:19:59 PM): so. Yeah.

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