Tuesday, October 12, 2004

o.o; wheee...
omg. >>; Today, Deb (ino-chan) found an old drawing of mine X_X; from 10/30/03.. Jeez, you guys would laugh at me so bad.. >>;; I'll have to redraw the pic the way it is now and show you guys.. it was NASTY bad. -sweatdrop- I mean.. hideous.. o.o; and that's not exagerating one bit, sadly.

Today I looked at Seifer Sama's art. Not too long ago, actually.. and her art is just so freakin' amazing. I wanted to explode. I hope I continue to get better as an artist everyday... o.o; until the day I die. and that, I hope, is a long long long time. -nods-

I remember last year, right before christmas break, I went to a friend's house. Her nickname was Osaka. Anyways, Osaka was a grade younger than I was, and here she was.. this amazing artist. o.o; she got tons and tons of art supplies for her birthday. It was amazing.. but I was also really..really..jealous. Around december, maybe january, was when I started to actually get serious about what I was drawing. I sketched out circles and lines and actually had plans for what I would draw.. and I actually relied on my mind, not just what I had seen in an anime. I started practiting hours and hours a day, and I really do think I started to rapidly get better. o.o; I'm still improving.. I'm pretty sure. I don't know why I wanted to become a mangaka at first.. I guess it just seemed kind of convenient. I loved to write.. and I loved to draw, and I thought it would be cool to combine the two.
later on, I got more serious about it.. and other reasons came from wanting to be one. First of all, manga had inspired me so much last year, when things were going bad in the wintertime, so I felt like I had to somehow repay the world of anime for helping me.. I wanted to do the same thing that those mangaka did for me, gave me hope, good stories, and great art. I wanted to do that for other people. Probably the last, but not least thing was, that I wanted to prove myself. I was never really good at anything much.. and I never kept a hobby for too long before abandoning it. I was often ignored and I wanted to be noticed...badly. In 6th grade, I remember how heads turned at this girl, Angie's drawings.. I wanted that, so I began to draw, but like I said, I didnt get serious until about the beginning of this year. Nowadays, I'm pretty serious about it and I'm really proud of what I've done so far. My grandma keeps calling me a perfectionist, but I just feel as though my art will never be good enough until its up there at the top. I want people to know how I am. I want them to know I'm not talentless. I want them to know that I pwn their socks in creating amazing pictures and junk. >_>; And yeah.. that's my random, EXTREMELY random rant about my art/mangaka obsession..

ANYWAYS.
today is, costume day at school, yaaaay.. ^^; I'll be dressing up as a ninja with Tama (DeruDragonsong).
we have pretty noticble outfits.. o.o; I'll be all jingley in bells and my arms and legs wrapped up like the people in naruto have it.. also, the ghetto-style-konoha-naruto-headbands! ^^; Yaaay! I hope tomorrow/today goes well when I show up at school like the otaku I am.

well.

o_o; That post turned out way longer than I meant it to be, but, :D OH WELL! -heart-

Nightnight.

-huggles-
-Sakura-

Oh, yes, and MITCH is 18 today :D yaaay.. everyone go to his site and tell him happy bday.
:D



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