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• 1989-06-10
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• Female
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• 2004-03-20
Occupation
• Highschool girl Otaku.
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• Okay, so.. Sakura may not be my REAL name, but hey, I have all my teachers calling me it, so why not?

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Anime Fan Since
• 1999. 6 years!
Favorite Anime
• anything by clamp is godly, rurouniken, full moon, Flcl, gravi, and others. But mainly CLAMP stuff ..
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• To pass the 10th grade, OH DEAR PLEASE GOD X.x;; And also to become a great mangaka as well as a great person!
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• being an otaku. 100%.
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• Deb says I should put "Being a good friend" hehe, shameless plug! Anyways, my talents, I believe are using my oddball sense of humor, drawing/art/otakuism, and surviving difficult times ^_^




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Friday, April 16, 2004

   Goodbye.
Hi.

I'm gonna go away, okay?
For a while. I can't take it.
I'm so lost. And I don't know.
I need to get away from it all.
So, have a nice weekend, I hope
you smile and laugh and are happy
and content and that you have a clear understanding of what's going on.
I don't. and that's why I have to go away.
I'll come back.
Sometime.

I'm so lost.
I don't know me.
Or you.
or the world.
or anything.
I dont have an answer
because
I don't know.
I'm naive, so it makes things worse
coz I naturally
"dont get it".
Dense. Slow. Whatever
you want to call it.

You probably still dont understand
what I'm talking about.
just imagine this:

What if the part of you
that guides you
and comforts you
and gives you an answer
and strength and reason
suddenly just disappeared?
got up and left.
"See ya, Sakura."
I've become so confused
that something happened..
but i dont know what happened
because I'm confused
and I don't know
I don't know anything.
I'm lost.
I'm scared.
I'm hurt.
Tired.
crying...

confused.
about what? Everything.
Why is the sky blue?
I dont know
Why am I upset?
i dont know
Why am I typing this?
I...
Don't know..

So, I have to go away.
away from online
because its confusing me.
I always got reality mixed up.
staring into a glowing box for 12 hours...
thats not going to help.
So I'm getting away from the computer.
I doubt anyone will read this.
Well...
i don't know.
I'll come back.
Maybe.
When?
I dont know.
Do I even have the courage
to go? Ah. Is courage even the right word for that sentence?...
I don't know.

I'm lost. Really lost. I cant seee a thing. I dont know where I am, I dont know who I am, when I am, what I am, why I am... eh. who what when where why?

I don't know.

I don't know, but I think I'm leaving now, to find that 'missing piece' of me. If youve noticed in my entries lately, I've been mentioning that... yeah. but all the answers slipped through my fingers and I'm left with nothing. So, i guess I'm gonna wait for it to come to me, because I don't know where its at. Just because: I don't know. I'm sorry.


Byebye.
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