Friday, July 16, 2004

   Fucking summer
Maybe I’m a real bitch, who knows? I’ve been away working at the beach in a hotel where we were nothing but slaves, we were treated like completely slaves: not a second to take a deep breath or whatever. I've been unable to walk for several days just because of that, and even now I can't do it properly. We were treated like shit. When we told the manager we were gonna leave, the same day, a fucking stupid girl who won't do anything in her life but work there, she threatened Isilme and told her she was gonna kill her and wait for us outside. Then, if that wasn't enough, we got a text for one of our closest friends saying her father had just died. And of course, the bitch waited for us and you can imagine. We even had to go to the police.

And of course, people don’t care about it; they think I can’t be depressed because I’ve always been the cheerful kind. But I have feelings too and now I’m broken. But they don’t care, they only listen to me when I’m happy and smiling, as if I had no problems at all. And it hurts that no one pays attention to you when you need it. Even when you try to get their attention. And when you try to do so, you’re a bitch because you want to be the centre of attention. Great, isn’t it?

Tell me, because maybe I’m doing something wrong. What should I do to make them realize I need help right now? I’m taking for granted they won’t give a damn about me. I’m not like that, but they’re giving me hints enough to be like this.

Well. I’ve rediscovered PSP 8. The new wallpapers I’m working on have neither brushes nor things like that. They’re all effects and such. I don’t like PSP brushes *shrugs*. And so, I have a new obsession: Cloud Strife ^o^ I’m stuck in Halloween Town in Kingdom Hearts, because the Play Station is back in the beach house, so I can’t play. I had a really hard time trying to defeat Cloud in the Hercules Cup. I didn’t want to. Even if he’s pretty easy to defeat. Same as Squall and Yuffie. I think Yuffie was the hardest... she would never stop jumping ^^ so lovely! I can’t wait to see Advent Children!! I still can’t figure out what the hell is Aeris doing there, and why Yuffie is not Yes, I love Yuffie and I’m so hurt and offended that she’s not in the movie!! Not fair!!

Oh I have one last new – like someone reads this blog XD I’m married to Chris ^o^ Yup, I got virtually married to the only one who paid attention to my problems and wanted to protect me ^^ He’s so nice...
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