Sunday, August 1, 2004

   Lalihooo
Well I've had several reasons: main one, I've
seriously thought of committing suicide. Why? Well, no one gives a damn about
me. It's like I dont' exist, only when I'm cheery-happy. What's wrong? Do I have
to be always smiling and say stupid things to make people realize I'm still
breathing, to make them see I'm human too and I need kind of attention when I'm
depressed? No one, and I repeat it, no one has worried about me while
I've been away. I've been 2 weeks away and I didn't get a fucking e-mail asking
me if I was ok, asking when I was or saying any other stupid thing. No one. Not
even from that person I thought cared about me. Isn't it sad? No one gave a damn
about me when all that last shit happened, no one cared to talk to me, what
about my feelings? Oh, do I have feelings? My "friends" seem to think they're
the only ones with them. But oh no sorry, Aya has her feeligns too, and right
now they're broken. Right now they're bleeding. But like someone cares. And I'm
not talking about real life friends. That too, but now I'm talking about
something else, some other people I thought I could trust but that have proved
that trust useless. I was always there for them, and they weren't there for me.
They didn't even care asking. The only one whos' seemed to care - and I' mreally
sorry because I shouted at her - is
Meilin. I really love
you sweetie. You knwo what our "stupid" chats mean to me ^^ And hey if you want
to play with Lana, you know, make her "play" with Riku, Cloud and Squall ^^ Oh
and maybe I do that Vincent wall or graphic, what do we prefer?

Well, I've been searching for new Gackt pics
and I found some sexee ones. I made some wallpapers but I'm not posting them
here 'cause evil Meilin
says "Gackt is ok" ¬¬ He's HOT, you're ok *lol*

I just saw Everwood, and it's funny
because Ephram's "life" seems to be like mine... well, kinda. My mother didn't
die and I didn't move but... it's just.. the way people treat him... something
like that. It's weird to explain but I identify myself with him. Kinda.

And talking about Everwood, we finally get OC here. They've been
like 3 weeks saying "OC coming soon" and finally they're playing it. But
guess what? Now another channel is gonna air Dark Angel same day same
time!! For a change! They always do that *rolls eyes*

Well, I think I should leave now. After this
depressing entry I doubt anyone will come back. Saa, who knows? Maybe I get more
enemies just by saying what I really feel... It's my speciality.
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