Wednesday, May 4, 2005

   It got worse....

I've gotten more depressed today. Nothing bad happened in school today, and my mom and I have been getting along better,so I should be happy, but for some reason, I'm not..... Anyway, I made a poem and a story yesterday. They're probably not that good, but I'll post them anyway since I have nothing else to say..... Alone Locked in a room in the darkest corner Isolated from the world Never to step foot outside again This is now the way I choose to be because you have pushed me this far Alone and afraid of the world Afraid that I will be hurt if I leave the protection of this room My heart is shut tight, never to be opened again For I fear that if it is ever opened, it will swallow me whole And I will become nothing more than an empty shell Only filled with hatred and disgust Chapter 1 A gentle voice echoed throughout the room. “Tumu ni hasamiyuru. Hitunu uteikanoya yo…” The woman sang as she lulled her daughter to sleep. Suddenly, the door flew open and a voice boomed across the room. “SAE!!!!!” The woman turned when she heard her name just as a hand backslapped her across the face, knocking her to the floor and making her cry out in pain. “You dirty slut! How dare you go behind my back and sleep with Takashi!!!” Sae got up, wiped the blood from her lip with her sleeve, then looked at her mate. “What are you talking about? I‘ve never slept with any man other than you!” “You know damn well what I’m talking about! Mamoru told me that you’d feign ignorance!” “Mamoru told you this? He was lying! He always lies to you! Why must you be so idiotic and believe him?” Sae realized what she said a minute too late. Her mate was furious by her words. “You little--” He grabbed her by her hair and raised his hand. “You have forgotten your place, so I shall remind you!” Sae’s eyes widened. “N-No… Satoshi… I didn‘t mean--“ Satoshi was the name of her mate, and she knew that there was a price to pay for talking back to him. “Wives should never talk back to their husbands!” He slapped her again, but this time blackening her eye. He grabbed her head and bashed it into the floor repeatedly, until blood started dripping down from her forehead, lip, and nose. Sae tried to get up, but the man had grabbed her arm and broke it. Then he threw her against the wall. She screamed in agony. Satoshi walked over to the crib where his child, who was now crying from being woken up by all the screaming and yelling, roughly picked her up and headed toward the door. He turned to his beaten up wife. “I’m taking Shouka with me. You don’t deserve to parent her any longer.” With that, he left. Sae laid motionless on the floor covered in cuts, bruises, and blood as tears began to form in her eyes. Her daughter was the only one she had left, and now she was being taken away from her. Since her body healed itself fast, most of the cuts on her body would be gone within minutes, but her arm would still remain broken. Her arm would take a few weeks to heal because broken bones healed slowly. Shouka… I have to get her back… Sae slowly stood up and a sudden rush of pain came to her. She winced and tried to ignore the pain, then finally limped out of the house. The limp was from a week ago. Sae tried to run away with Shouka one evening while Satoshi was out hunting, when a villager spotted her. He ran to tell Satoshi, and before Sae could make it safely out of the village, he caught her. He broke her leg in front of all the villagers and dragged her home by her hair. When they got home, he had beaten her ad threw her on the bed. Then he… Sae shook that horrible memory from her head. She despised it. She continued limping around the village, searching for Satoshi and their daughter, when she heard a voice in a nearby house. “Sae lied to me!!” Sae knew that voice from anywhere. She followed the familiar voice to a small house in the middle of the village. Just as she was about to knock on the door, she heard the voice again. She was curious about who her mate was talking to. “She lied to me! That bitch told me that she had not been sleeping with anyone!!” “Calm down, Brother… Why are you getting so angry about this woman anyway? Women in this village are usually used for sex and then discarded…” Came a calm voice. Sae also knew this voice. It was her mate’s older brother. She met him once before during a yearly festival a few days ago. He was always calm and he never raised his voice. “ ‘This woman’?! ‘This woman’ is my mate!” Yelled the angry Satoshi. He hated when people called “his” woman “that” or “this” woman. “Then get back at her… ” “How?! I’ve beaten her countless times and she still disobeys me!” “You know… I think I sensed a child within her when I met her...” “A child, eh?” Satoshi’s voice was now calm but venomous. He smiled a poisonous smile. “I’ll keep that whore alive until the child is born. Once it’s born, I’ll take the child. Then… I’ll kill Sae….” Sae’s face ashened. …Kill…me? Thunder boomed and lightning lit up the sky as it rained. Sae ran as fast as she could, splashing through the puddles. Tears streamed down her face. Kill me… He… He wants to kill me… She thought. She didn’t know where she was going, but all she knew was that she had to get away from him. She ran deep into the forest and kept running until she stumbled over a rock. She fell to the ground hard. Why…? She lay still in the cold, muddy soil. “Why…?!” She sobbed. She was all alone in this world… Her parents and siblings dead, her daughter taken away from her, and her mate overcome with rage, anger, greed, and deceit. She curled up into fetal position as much as she could and continued crying until she submitted to exhaustion and fell asleep.

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