Tuesday, September 11, 2007

   ...well, you can't exactly say, happy september 11th, can you?


I was in 7th grade 6 years ago today; confused as hell as to what was going on, and of course scared. I thought it would be the start of a war as our teachers stopped lessons and those who had TVs had them turned to any local news channel, and those with radios had them going.

One supposedly smart kid in my reading class was saying, "isn't it the pacifists who have done this?" =_= but everyone was too scared and horrified to make fun of him.

After that, we went home, and the horrible coverage kept playing OVER and OVER in our heads, and on the TV, as if to keep it fresh in our minds. Yes, it was a horrible day.

The events that followed were bad, too, though. I abhor how many politicians will use 9/11 to their own, political advantage. How certain country singers **alan jackson** make songs about it and get rich off people's suffering and emotions. I hate how people use it to defend war. I hate how people saw it as an excuse to hate ALL Islam and Muslims and Middle Easterners, how it caused them to be mistrustful of an entire group of people, just because SOME bastards who happen to be of the same religion, and did it in the name of that religion (Islam means Peace, y'know). It's all manipulative, often insensitive, cruel, and, in my opinion, immoral.

The same as how family members of a person who died this way or that sue, and get rich. I might sue to make whoever suffer a tiny bit, but I wouldn't want that money for me. I'd use some for the funeral and medical bills, and just give the rest to charity. Who wants to be rich off someone they LOVE dying?

Ok rant deleted :) mood elevated since rant.

I have a funny story to share with you! Since my friend, Mayte, is dating Matt, a nice white boy from Louisiana, she knows his grandma really well.

His grandma's story goes like this:

When I was a little girl in Louisiana, everything was segregated, even church. One day, the preacher asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. Now, since they always called those black children "Nigger" I thought that was their last name. So I said I wanted to be a Nigger Girl when I got big! Oh, he told my momma and she beat me for WEEKS!

xD that's hilarious. She isn't racist, the grandma. she's really nice!

On Monday, I was cornered by evil mormons, then had lunch at Village Inn with Antonio, then Mayte came down from Boulder, and we hung out. We rented a Thai movie...it was OK but funny instead of scary. We watched it at my dad's while he was at work, hung out, then my dad came home, and then he took us all to my mom's.

also xD I got my halloween costume. Executioner. I have a mask, an axe, a whip, fingerless gloves, and a studded collar just for it. I love it; i was shaking my axe as idiot skater kids and bad drivers.

In other news, I leave 24 hours from time of writing this. 10:10 AM

=0


At the park with Antonio


noooooo he's gonna chop me


Me forget what this one was, but I got a BIG HEAD


making fun of heather's "sexy faces"


ahahahahahaha!


haha making a stupid facethank you!
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Monday, September 10, 2007

   Do you love me, do you hate me, come on don't give up just like that, just promise me everything, and I promise to be good
haha oh noooh I'm in a creative mood xD sucks to be you!!!

haha one of the things written on my wall is: "you can't make me forgive, or forget, but you can make me sorry"

There is also another one. Ok, so there's a nail in my wall just sticking out for no good reason. I drew a person holding onto it, and wrote, "Hang in there" then I drew in a lighter color a girl who was hanged.


So today (sunday) my dad and I went to Goodwill to drop the stuff off. Then we went to Heritage Square, which is this little Victorian-style "town" with kiddie rides, bright, peeling paint, a pond, mini-golf, shops, go karts, and food. It sounds more impressive than it is. Really, it's a ghost town.

It looks like a dollhouse brought to almost-life size (for some reason, all the buildings look miniature but in a large way...)

Anyway, we went to get our "old tyme" photos taken. See, my dad wanted to take a picture with me before I leave. So we decided to go there.

We'd had another one done like...maybe between 8 and 11 years ago...I can't tell how old I am in that picture xD

In that one, my dad is a saloon gunslinger, and I'm in a victorian dress and hat xD hilarious mismatch.

this time again, my dad was wearing the SAME thing...same hat, same coat, same bandana, a vest, boots, a holster and gun, and same pose. Only difference now was he's older, "bigger" (i'd say...fat, but I feel bad when he talks about it cos he sounds so embarrassed and sad...), the jeans are dark and tucked into the boots, the vest is light, the shirt is dark.

As for me, I look REALLY different. Orignally I was gonna be a victorian girl in this really fucked up dress that would at least permit me to wear my jeans underneath, but first of all, the shoulders were too big and my chest too small, so I was trying to find another dress.

Wound up changing to saloon girl because at least it'd match my dad's saloon costume. That entailed a pretty outfit with frilly corset-like top (that was too big xP) and a pretty skirt. Also fishnets and the shoes. I really liked the shoes. I also wore a choker and a hat, and the lady gave me a boa. I picked up a pistola xD

I'll put a pic up later; it looks pretty good. Those clothes SUCKED because I had to tie them on, and UGH it was hard. Plus, i did it the stupid way.

For my "last dinner" we went to a fancy Japanese place. I kinda wish I'd chosen Takayama, but...Kobe An was good!!! I had tempura, yakisoba, teriyaki chicken, steamed rice, miso soup, salad, california rolls (ick >_<) and tako sashimi! quite tasty, but I made 2 meals out of it, LOL

it was a good deal, too. All that food cost $19 bucks on my part. Anyway, gotta run!!!thank you!
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Sunday, September 9, 2007

   HALLELUJAH!!!!!!
My room is CLEAN!!!!!!!! this is at my dad's house, so it wasn't even as hard as at my mom's.

See, we moved here when I was like 2, so it's only got about 15 or 16 years of junk, dust, and trash.

I got 5 big tall black trash bags STUFFED full out. That's of TRASH. And of stuff good enough for goodwill, there's 2 big black trashbags, and lots of little trash bags that could probably fill up about another 3 trash bags.

So think of it in total as 10 big trash bags STUFFED with stuff to get out.

Now my room is real empty xD it's like a dorm with nursery wallpaper. (it's the room I've been in since I was 2; it's right next door to my dad's =_= I've been wanting to move into the other bedroom -the bigger on withOUT baby wall paper- that DOESN'T share a wall with my dad as close. They share a wall, but through the closet.

sigh. Too late now, but all means and purposes, this is no longer MY room. If my dad knew anybody and could have a guest, it'd probably be a guest room

It's my mom's house that scares me. I get REALLY sick there, with all the dust and hair and shit. See, in there is 18 years of junk from me,everything from 3 shoe boxes of pictures, to a tall stack of newspapers from my various birthdays.

And there, it's a lot more stuff I want to keep. But come to think of it. I'm getting done, slowly but surely, there too.

I have to go back on Monday evening, so I'll continue my mission then.

Oh!!! last night, after I cleaned my room, I dyed my hair!!! ^_^ nothing special, it's just my regular, fall-back color "Dark Ash Brown" which, right now, looks kinda...soft black.

My natural color is "ash brown" so this isn't too different from what it would be if I never dyed it. I guess I just got used to being blonde -_-

ahem!!! AND TODAY IS THE BEST!!!! we get to go to any restaraunt I want!!! I could get fancy food, if I wanted to, but I think I want Kobe An Japanese food! OISHII!!!!!!!!!

no it doesn't say OISHIT but it looks like it o.O

ahem!!! BY the way, I leave on Weds. morning O.o scary!!!!!!!! that's...well you can see the counter!!!! >.>.>.>thank you!
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Saturday, September 8, 2007

   loovaa tha Mayte!
Mayte's SO FUNNY!!! xD I love that girl to death.

she be Makaze21 (it used to be my UN, but I gave it to her :D that's how much I love her) and I am Texhnolyze23


Makaze21 [11:08 PM]: >>
Makaze21 [11:09 PM]: <<
Texhnolyze23 [11:09 PM]: is this the KMart???
Makaze21 [11:09 PM]: What??
Texhnolyze23 [11:09 PM]: haha what's up???
Makaze21 [11:10 PM]: You're my best friend you know that?!
Makaze21 [11:10 PM]: *stumbles around drunkly*
Makaze21 [11:10 PM]: I love you
Texhnolyze23 [11:10 PM]: *_*
Texhnolyze23 [11:11 PM]: I love you too, really, but I think you better lay off the alchy for a tad
Makaze21 [11:11 PM]: You are so fucking rockin
Makaze21 [11:11 PM]: You know that??
Texhnolyze23 [11:11 PM]: rockin'? Mayte, are you okay?
Makaze21 [11:11 PM]: Yeah
Makaze21 [11:11 PM]: I'm chill
Texhnolyze23 [11:12 PM]: ...you've changed. who says "chill" these days?
Makaze21 [11:12 PM]: Rockin people
Makaze21 [11:12 PM]: Lol
Makaze21 [11:12 PM]: Jk
Makaze21 [11:12 PM]: I'm neither drunk or retarded!
Makaze21 [11:13 PM]: I shitted you good
Texhnolyze23 [11:13 PM]: haha good I was thinking i was gonna have to beat your drunken, MTV-loving ass 4 feet below sea level
Makaze21 [11:15 PM]: That's mean
Makaze21 [11:15 PM]: My room mate says rockin
Texhnolyze23 [11:16 PM]: haha so does Alex. Did I say it had anything to do with "rockin" nooo it had to do with saying "i'm chill" =_=
Makaze21 [11:16 PM]: Lol
Makaze21 [11:16 PM]: Oh sorry
Makaze21 [11:16 PM]: Ha
Texhnolyze23 [11:16 PM]: haha don't worry my roommate says the same way; weird things that weird people say.
Makaze21 [11:16 PM]: Rockin with my cockin
Makaze21 [11:17 PM]: Lol



Makaze21 [11:24 PM]: That's effing insane
Texhnolyze23 [11:24 PM]: tell me more about your roomie!!!
Texhnolyze23 [11:24 PM]: what is her name?
Makaze21 [11:26 PM]: Her nombre is jessica joheok or something...><
Makaze21 [11:26 PM]: She em...
Texhnolyze23 [11:26 PM]: lol
Makaze21 [11:27 PM]: Is from laguna beach....rich....very nice though....invites me to parties and shitfacing places
Makaze21 [11:27 PM]: Em
Makaze21 [11:27 PM]: Oh
Makaze21 [11:27 PM]: And
Texhnolyze23 [11:27 PM]: uh huh
Makaze21 [11:27 PM]: Her boyfriend is 23 and was her high school swim coach ^_^
Makaze21 [11:28 PM]: Lol
Makaze21 [11:28 PM]: Serious
Texhnolyze23 [11:28 PM]: O.O holy fucking bananas.
Texhnolyze23 [11:29 PM]: that's straight out of shoujo!!!
Makaze21 [11:29 PM]: I thought it was hilarious
Texhnolyze23 [11:30 PM]: haha it IS, but it's scary too
Texhnolyze23 [11:30 PM]: makes you wonder what they did in the locker room
Makaze21 [11:31 PM]: ~_~
Makaze21 [11:31 PM]: No
Texhnolyze23 [11:31 PM]: haha
Texhnolyze23 [11:31 PM]: don't wonder
Makaze21 [11:31 PM]: Not really
Makaze21 [11:31 PM]: Lol
Texhnolyze23 [11:32 PM]: makes ME wonder, then. well, wonder is the wrong word. Cynical suspicion is more like it
Makaze21 [11:32 PM]: She wrote on her to do list " buy books, study, get laid, call home"



Makaze21 [11:39 PM]: Noooooooooo
Makaze21 [11:39 PM]: A slut
Texhnolyze23 [11:40 PM]: what slut?
Makaze21 [11:41 PM]: Monique
Texhnolyze23 [11:41 PM]: indeed. and a bitch. =_=
Makaze21 [11:42 PM]: I likes that face
Texhnolyze23 [11:43 PM]: indeed you do, cricket
Texhnolyze23 [11:43 PM]: that's your new nickname. Cricket
Texhnolyze23 [11:43 PM]: not like the phone company.
Makaze21 [11:44 PM]: Oh good
Texhnolyze23 [11:45 PM]: haha. ewwww Paris Hilton wants to be a mam
Makaze21 [11:45 PM]: I would hate for people to assume that im cheap
Texhnolyze23 [11:45 PM]: haha you sure are
Texhnolyze23 [11:45 PM]: not
Makaze21 [11:45 PM]: Serious?
Texhnolyze23 [11:45 PM]: you are the most expensive hooker I ever met. except for Paris Hilton, and I never met her. Maybe you don't get business because you're so expensive? poor Mayte
Texhnolyze23 [11:46 PM]: according to Jay Leno, ja
Makaze21 [11:46 PM]: Lol
Makaze21 [11:46 PM]: That's so funny
Makaze21 [11:46 PM]: But it made me laugh so good job
Texhnolyze23 [11:46 PM]: haha that's what he said
Makaze21 [11:47 PM]: Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Makaze21 [11:47 PM]: He
Makaze21 [11:47 PM]: I can't belize he said that
Texhnolyze23 [11:49 PM]: sure you can't. sure
Texhnolyze23 [11:51 PM]: xD AAAAAH he said "you took your big head and went down there with those pros" thank you!
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Friday, September 7, 2007

   ACHOO!!!
DAMN THESE ALLERGIES!!!!! they really. really. really. suck. really.

My mom thinks she's getting a sinus infection, which is even worse than ME being sick, because she has to drive me to Oregon in 5 days. 3 of which she will be working. And it takes 2.5 days to get there. Poor thing is gonna be WIPED =[

hrm. what can I say? Sorry I've not been around much...I've been super busy. Housework, cleaning, cooking, pulling HUGE weeds that the city finally decided were too big...hrmph.

Bah. Fucking denver, man. City property can have weeds just as bad as ours were, but nooo they don't have to make THEMSELVES sick dragging it all up. Besides, they can HIRE someone to do it.

Anyway, who decided that those stupid juniper hedges are so pretty? I think they look pretty weedy myself. We used to have them around our house, but my mom had them torn out because they were ugly, nasty, and a huge firehazard.

Once, someone set them on fire.

haha ok ok i'll stall no longer, I must be on my way. Sorry, thanks, and toodles!thank you!
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Tuesday, September 4, 2007

   My life sure seems to involve a lot of movies...
I went to see...Halloween!...on Monday xD!!!!!!!

It was pretty good, actually. Quite grusome, violent, bloody, cussy, and had a few jumps. I rarely actually get SCARED at the movies, but I do get startled, and it had three scenes that startled me. Haha, I almost screamed in shock at one of them.

Like, "argh!" lmao!

anyway, and every time he jumped out at somebody, I jumped, and my hand flew up to my face, hit my glasses really hard, and bumped me.

=_= i don't think my mom listens to me. I JUST FREAKING SAID I WANTED TO GO TO THE CREDIT UNION and she thinks for a moment and says, "well if you aren't going, I guess I'll get dressed and go in a few..."

so I guess that's that. Oh well.

Haha, NEVER buy candy apples from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory candy stores...I bought 2 yesterday, guess how much it cost: $15.45 (your results may vary depending on state tax)

too freaking much; i was pissed. I should have said, "WHAT! Um, nevermind."

then I wouldn't be broke now. Peh.

Later, I'll be off to see the newspaper, the newspaper club of my school **sings it like the Wizard of Oz "off to see the wizard"**

okay dont ask. LOL

But I spent way too much time sunday night watching a special about Judy Garland...she wasn't THAT great, but she was kind of a sad soul, from the way they made it sound.

They said she could, "Imagine herself into a role so deeply that she WAS that character." Or something to that effect. Hah! Big deal; I do that all on my own, and I know lots of people who do.

LOL I am a cynical little girl. Who ain't so little >_>

ookie bye bye!thank you!
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Monday, September 3, 2007

   why do people read/watch tabloids???
I don't fucking CARE ABOUT HULK HOGAN'S SON GETTING YELLED AT BY COPS. I DON'T CARE ABOUT DANCING WITH THE FUCKING STARS!!!

xD

And Jerry Lewis is just HIDEOUS. SERIOUSLY UGLY...not to mention annoying ><

Anyway, today, my dad and I went to Golden, where there's this creek. Earlier in the summer, when the mountain snow is melting, the water is too deep and fast and cold to do much in, but by now, the end of summer, it's just right.

We got the rubber inner tube and plastic inflatable raft, and had a blast. We just walk a bit upstream, then wade in, and ride on down. It was really fun, but I wish the water had been a little rougher, so I coulda flipped xD

then we went to Denny's and I had...what did I have? some seafood crap. Shoulda had the burger xP I'm such a fatty

When we got home, we watched Hot Fuzz. Holy crap, I LOVE THAT FREAKING MOVIE xD!!

Simon Pegg and Nick Frost are effing HILARIOUS together, in Shaun of the Dead, and Hot Fuzz, 2 of my favorite movies.


Of course, my dad wasn't too impressed. He liked that stupid ass movie, "Distrubia" **rolls eyes**

that movie was STUPID. No offense if you liked it. But COME ON. It didn't know if it wanted to be a comedy, psychological thriller, gore fest, romance, or stupid teen movie. Most funny parts weren't funny, most thrilling parts were boring, gorey parts weren't because it was PG-13. The only parts it got right were the idiot romance parts, and the stupid teen parts.

LMAO! Which reminds me what I've been neglecting to tell you...

My sister is the BEST!!! In her debate class, she made this girl cry because she said High School Musical was bad. xD Tamara can ARGUE, she and I both can argue well, and she gave the reasons why she hates it, with wonderfully emotional tones in her voice.

The girl, who decided to debate about HSM, burst into tears, but the rest of the class cheered. I love my sister xD!!!

Ahem. Anyway, I'm itchy itcy itchy, and all scratched up from riding down the rocky creek, climbing trees, and the stupid mean tube.

haha ok i'm tired, i'm gonna go now!

thanks for the lovely comments xD hugs for reaper, and especially for Magnus cos she gives LOTS of hugs ^_^

thank you!
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Sunday, September 2, 2007

   Sorry this is so long xD
thanks for tha support yesterday! ^^ if you couldn't guess, I was REALLY irked by my dad, cos he just CONSTANTLY bitches about me going to college in Portland.

hmph.

Anyway, today we went to the Taste of Colorado, my dad and me ^^ it's this big, big, BIG huge festival that has booths from dozens of restaraunts selling samples of food, meals, junk, desserts, toys, henna and tattoo places, art, jewelery, tye dye and other hippie crap, carnival games, carnival rides, beer, news booths, music, drinks, information, ALL sorts of stuff!!!

It kind of sucks that you have to buy tickets -8 for $5- and they go pretty quick cos everything costs so much, and it's SUPER CROWDED like you wouldn't believe. There were all sorts of nasty looking sluts, preggos, gangsters, bums, preps, ICP dorks, otaku, punks, geeks, fatties, skinnies, kids, adults, gays, straights, jerks, nice people, carnies, and people of every color of the rainbow and then some xD

At first, my dad and I just wandered around, lost, stunned by everything there. It's HUGE. Then we had dinner -I had fried alligator for the first time...wasn't fond of it- my dad had a gyro, I had yakitori, which is spicy chicken on a stick. Then he had ice cream, I had a "berrie kabob" which is 3 strawberries and 2 chunks of banana on a stick drizzled with chocolate and whipped cream.

We listened to music, then my dad went off to the bookstore on the 16th street mall, and my sister and I wandered about ^^

Tamara and I went to the rides, first... LOL we rode this ride, it's circular, has cars in a row stuck to the big disk. Then, it spins backwards, picks up, and goes up and down and tilts all over the place while spinning.

The carny was hilarious! He was thin, somewhat tanned, smoking a cigarette and running the ride with one hand, part of the time using the smoking hand to change the music -mainly crappy emo metal that my sis and I both knew all the words too.

We were singing along while we decided whether we wanted to ride it or not, sang along while we waited in line, sang along while we waited in our car...then the ride began

xD she sat on the inside, I sat on the edge, and she's not that big, but she isn't tiny. I'm just fat, which is why I was on the outside. WELL the ride began, and spinning was fun. We were laughing, I was cussing, we were singing along...

THEN it tilted and she fell into me. My rightside ribs were smashed into the metal bar. My left side was so close to her that we might as well have been twins conjoined at the hip!!! She was SO HEAVY, smashing me, I was laughing and yelling "AH FUCK GET THE FUCK OFF!!!!!!! AHH SHIT!!!!!!!"

She was trying her best not to squish me, but couldn't pull herself off. I was desperate to get her off, and started elbowing her in the ribs incessantly. xD I have mean elbows, too, and she was yelling, "STOP FUCKING ELBOWING ME IN THE GODDAMN RIBS YOU STUPID IDIOT!!!!!!!!!" and we were both laughing.

Then it flipped and she went off and we just started laughing and singing along again.

After that, we wandered around boredly, made fun of the stupid looking people we saw, and then she wanted a berrie kabob. I had 8 tickets left, bought an ice cream cup. I gave one of the 2 remaining tickets left to her, and she bought a berrie kabob (9 tickets) I couldn't resist, and bought another one after i didn't want any more ice cream (ate about 8 bites, LOL)

with the ice cream, I was mostly feeding it to Tamara xD I walked up to her after I bought it, and spooned food into her mouth. She said, "I hope people don't think we're lesbos"

I responded with, "It's not like we're making out with it." then I fed her more.

After our berrie kabobs, we went and climbed trees...I was wearing camo boys pants (slightly too big), a black tank top, and high heel boots...NOT good shoes for tree climbing.

I climbed the first tree, sat up about 12 feet (small tree) near the top. Tamara, I love her, is not a natural monkey. She looked around, and was like, "Uh...no, this branch won't hold us both." Then, she was cautious about jumping down. she took pictures of me. she laughed and said, "You look like a monkey!"

When I wanted to get down, I kicked off my shoes (almost hit people with them xD ahahhaha) and climbed down a few branches. Then I grabbed the branch above my head, and kicked off the branch I sat on. I swung and let go, fell about 4 feet...come to think of it, it would have been bad BAD if something sharp were under my feet =[

but there wasn't, and people kept staring at me. I don't care; I LOVE to climb trees. I LOVE to climb. When I was a baby, before I could even really walk, my mom found me on top of the refridgerator...haha I think she said I climbed the spice rack?

Today I also texted Antonio, Mayte, Carrie (my cousin), and Christian. LOL I dunno how much that guy likes me, but meh. I like him very much; he's a really cool person. Not only is he a HUGE nine inch nails fan, he's a good person, not a dumbass, and talented musician. LOL

But, on the other hand, I love Antonio. He likes Marilyn Manson better than NIN (what?!) and lives punk, but he's a good person, too. He comes off as a jerk sometimes, but he doesn't go out of his way to hurt people's feelings, and if something goes wrong, he tries to fix it. And he's a bass player, too :*

(if you don't know, I'm a sucker for bass players...guitars and drums, too, but I dunno what it is about the bass =] haha)

WOW sorry for writing so muchthank you!
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Saturday, September 1, 2007

   hey, fuck you!
This is my choice, and fuck you for making me feel guilty. This is what I want, for me, and fuck you for not accepting that. Fuck you for not supporting me. I guess you don't get it: this is going to be good for me! And you don't understand that nothing you can say is going to stop me. You're just driving me away even more.

Don't fucking tell me what I already know. I'm not fucking stupid, I don't make a huge decision without thinking everything through. I realize everything is going to change, that I'll miss my pets and friends. But I weighed everything, and the benefits outweigh the losses. I wouldn't do this if it wasn't what I wanted or needed.

By doing this, I will grow! I'll force myself outside this comfort zone I don't even really have here. I'll be forced to talk to people, to study, to work, learn, travel, see new things. Through expanding my surroundings, experiences, ideas, horizons -my very world, physical and mental!- I will become stronger, smarter, kinder, braver, more apt to deal with whatever comes my way unforeseen.

This is a big university. Community college is good, but I'd think you would understand why I want to go to a big university. You went to a big, out of state university. You must have felt as trapped as I am feeling. I have nothing against community college, but I think I belong at a university. I belong where I'm going. That's WHY I'm going. I want the experience YOU had, but better. I want the freedom, the chance to spread my wings. Going to a university is within my realm of possibilities and I can't see why you are so against me doing what I want.

Of course I'm a bit scared, and sad, but constant guilt trips, petty baiting, complaining, and other bitching won't make me change my mind. Why you even think you have a say in this, I don't know. This was 100% up to me. No one else told me to do this, no one else told me to go, no one else told me to leave. And no one else told me not to, no one else told me to stay, no one else told me everything that can go wrong with selfish motives, no one else has told me that I will fail, or hate it.

In any case, you haven't done much for me. You've always complained about any expense I cost you. Fucking suicide? Nah, she doesn't need to see a doctor. Who paid for Costa Rica, Japan, PSEO, college application fees, clothes, doctors visits, braces, dentist, school needs, spending money, shoes, gadgets, books -you wouldn't buy me a fucking BOOK-, vacations, almost EVERYTHING? Well. It wasn't YOU. And you won't be helping me with college, so why should you have a say in it?

You believe I'll fail, in so much. No faith in me, ah? Well, fuck you! I do what I want! I'm NOT a puppet, slave, tool, and I'm NOT under your command. I'm NOT yours to command. I'm a free person. Let me do what I want. You think you can control me? Fuck you. You think I can't do this? Fuck you. You think I won't do this? Fuck you. And if you think I'm wrong, so what, fuck you.

It sure fucking feels like you don't want me to be happy. Fuck you. It doesn't seem like you want me to have dreams. Fuck off. I don't think you want me to achieve what dreams I do have, the way you always shoot me down. Go to hell and fuck the devil. This is me, it's what I want, I NEVER complain to you, I always cave to your bitching, so for once, let me say, "FUCK YOU," and make myself happy.

Don't I deserve happiness? Fuck you. Fuck you, fuck you, fuck off, fucker, you fucked cunt, you fucking prick dickwad bastard. Just. Fuck. Off. Leave me the fuck alone, and let me move on with my fucking life. Fuck you, fuck you, and fuck you.
thank you!
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Friday, August 31, 2007

   so bored
and this Colbert guy ain't half as funny as Jon Stewart =\

Hrm. what to say...Jeez...I'm so lame xD

Ok I know, here, this is funny as hell!!!!



literally. Satan Pooh. Satan, ah, nooo not cool, not funny, etc. But the vid is funny

especially...why the HELL does his head spin around???? Disney really is full o freaks

And I'm happy cos I just got a few good phone numbers :D maybe one day we shall chat xD

thanks for the comments yesterday!!! Friday i plan to visit my old high school.

to see my friends of course~!~~ and check on newspaper club, which i cofounded. ^^ i really like Daisuke, tho, one of the kids we passed the paper on to. he's REALLY responsible and cool, it's hard to believe he's 15. ana and Yan, too (all 15) tho ana skipped a grade so she's a junior, and yan and daisuke are sophomores.

Good people ^__^thank you!
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