Saturday, October 11, 2008

   fuck i slept for 12 hours
I hate it when I do that, especially when it's late that I wake up. I'm trying to get on a schedule, dammit!

so, I am kind of disappointed, because the job interview I went to on Tuesday has not called me back yet, so I fear for the worst >_< I really needed that job, but i guess they don't want me. damnations.

But in other news, some changes occurred!

So, you know that cat I was going to get? Tuesday, another lady who works with Gala called and told me that THAT cat is extremely needy. She wants to be with you 24/7, and if she isn't she gets pissed and destroys your stuff.

Then she told me about another little kitty in need of a home, Peach. I said I'd looked at her and she seemed nice. I called Gala back, and Gala said that Peach needed a home by friday because the foster mom's boyfriend was throwing a fit and threatening to toss her out.

So, it wound up being that Thursday after class, Gala and I went to Petco, got some food and a nametag, (I changed her name to Anzu). Gala paid for 2/3 the food. how nice of her!

Then, we got the kitty!!!!!!! Anzu. She was REALLY scared at first, and we brought her to my house, and she was just trying to hide. After a little while, though, she started to purr for me. A lot. She's really friendly and sweet and cute. ^_^ a lover. she really likes me. I'm teaching her to climb up the ladder to get to my bed. I already taught her how to get down

her name is Anzu because it means Apricot in Japanese. I didn't go with "momo" because that's too common. Plus, there's this really annoying girl here who calls herself Momo. =/

But anyway, Anzu is TINY because she had 5 kittens when she was about 7 months old. Her 5 month old son is the same size as her!!! and she only weighs maybe 6 lbs (MAYBE). She's not that much bigger than one of my tennis shoes.

This is Anzu:

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wants the gerbil


she was scared so she hid under the heater. she is much more confident now


being a lover


trying to get the gerbil lol


eating her food

i've got some other cute ones but that's enough for now =>

she's so funny, for a while, she would just sit in the litterbox and roll around, not go potty. and then she figured it out...but she still wanted to roll in it xP yuck

lol but she's a sweetiethank you!
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Sunday, October 5, 2008

   there's a lesson that I want you to learn, it's if you're gonna play with fire then you're gonna get burned
i'm listening to Lily Allen. For a little British bitch, I kinda like her music. It's funny, and I like her voice. So boooo on you if you don't like that i do. =P

So, this week school began. Environmental Sustainability looks easy, Intro to College Math looks mild, Statistics and Probability, and Environmental Systems look harrrrrrd. fuck.

Oh well. I'm all settled in my apartment. Pictures are below =3

But the best news of all is...one of the women in my classes that I know pretty well runs a kitten rescue, and she has a year-old cat that needs a single-kitty home...

and I want one, so I asked Gala if she had any...and she said that one, so I'm gonna get her in 2 or 3 weeks. I freaking can't wait. Her name is currently Lady...bleh. I'm going to change it to: Kima, Muñeca, or Sophie. What do you think? I'm kinda leaning to Kima cos it's easy, but I really like the other two, also.

this is the kitty <3

gorgeous eyes, right?

I have a job interview on Tuesday at a science lab at Oregon Health and Science University...yay me. wish me luck!

I found this video on youtube. You might have already seen it, but it's WONDERFUL. Ridiculously cute x3
linkage, go watch it.

sorry, i couldn't embed it. oh well. it's about 8 minutes long, but TOTALLY worth it...~~~~~~~~~~ i fell in love

anyway this is my house xD



sorry i'm too lazy to put up individual pictures xD you'll have to run your mouse over the picture if you wanna know what you're looking at =3

btw thanks for the advice last week, NaeNae

=D



thank you!
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Friday, October 3, 2008

  
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

i laughed my ass offthank you!
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Sunday, September 28, 2008

   go on, go on and thrill me, go on, go on, go!
So, an update. I'm moved in. Got a few boxes and a few messes, but my furniture, though crappy, is all put together, and my mom and Antonio are back in Denver

It kinda sucks. Neither of them acted like they were gonna miss me. Both were being a little mean, but I know they care, so =P my mom cried, i was bawling, antonio was like, "can we get the fuck outta here already?" xD

But anyway. Today, temptation came a-knocking. I went to the pet store to get crickets for my frog, and THEY HAD RED-EYED TREE FROGS ~~~~~ nyuuu I WANT ONE SO FUCKING BAD

I lovelovelovelovelove LOVE frogs, you have no idea, dude. It's my dream to have a vivarium full of tropical frogs. So, I would have bought the tree frog, but...it was a damn $70 =( i couldn't afford it...so no froggie for me

Today, i was gonna hang out with just TJ, but we ran into beth, erica, jason, and even saw becky...it was fun, but beth annoys me sometimes, she's a lot to handle.

But tomorrow i might go with her to the oregon humane society. she wants to look at a kitty, i want a job there.

But, let me rehash a story from our journey to Portland:

we were stopped in Montana, the middle of nowhere, at a gas station. I cleaned the windows, and antonio and i then went inside (while my mom was in the bathroom) to buy junk food.

The clerk is chatting up her stupid bimbo friend. We don't have quite enough for the food, so I put it down, and say, "i'm gonna go get more money from my car" and the bitch nods.

Ok. So i get the money, go back in, and the friend has left. She gives me a look, and says, "Were you going to buy a candy bar, or not?" I replied, "Yeah, but i had to get my money."

"Are you suuuure?"

"yes, i am positive."

At that point, i should have confronted her about her accusing me of stealing...but i didn't. In fact, I dearly wish i had not bought anything, and thrown it in that FUCKING DAMN CUNT's face.

So my mom pops up, i go to pay, and the CUNT starts accusing ANTONIO of stealing something. that's when I should've left, but...I didn't.

And to make matters worse, my fucking mom sides with the CUNT-BITCH @#$%! >_< what the fuck!?! the two bitches grill antonio about if he stole a CANDY BAR...until he says, "if you're calling me a thief, just say it."

they let it go, but damn i was pissed. My mom sided with a goddamn bitch stranger who was probably racist (she didn't say anything to the little white kids running around the store) over her own kid, and someone she's known for almost 4 years.

Way to have faith. And that aside, they accuse him of stealing a CANDY BAR??? what is he, four?!?!?! I absolutely disagree with stealing, but if i was gonna steal something, i'd steal something better than a CANDY BAR. ya know??

oh well. it's over.

Also, Antonio's friend Alan got his girlfriend pregnant...o_o she should be about 11 weeks now. Antonio and Matt are the only ones left in that group who aren't daddies yet. Hopefully it's matt next...or, if antonio gets someone else pregnant, that's better her than me. but i doubt it

although, what do you think of this? I found out antonio was chatting with some fucking cunt on msn...he gets depressed and all quite often, but he never wants to talk to me about it. But he talks to that cunt about it. fucking dick. and, even worse, she called him "baby."

fuck, i was seeing red. i was ready to kill him. not literally, but i was ready to dump him. he never apologized, but i made him promise to not let her call him that anymore. i can't stop him from talking to her, and i wouldn't, anyway, but it seems fucked up to me.

we've made up, so i'm okay, but what do you think?

anyway, i've rambled enough for one day, toodles! thank you!
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Saturday, September 20, 2008

   moving in
for a 600 sq. foot apartment, how can i have moved in weds. and STILL be moving in???

I don't feel too much like typing

just know, i am BUSY x(thank you!
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Sunday, September 14, 2008

   on the road
ok so we're on the road to Portland have been visiting national parks

are in montana

will be in portland to move me in on...weds. i don't know when i'll be on again, but it's been nearly like 2 weeks since a superior update

i weep

anyways, i got my period the first day we left >:( bastard. it hursts. i have the worst cramps

oh well

toodles!thank you!
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Friday, September 5, 2008

   NINE INCH NAILS WAS AMAZING
Ohhh my GOD I love this band. I love Trent Reznor. He's not God, but he is AMAZING. He puts on, in my opinion, the best show in the world.

So, I know this is 3 days late, but it's my first chance...or whatever.

Tuesday, NIN played at Red Rocks, which is one of the BEST venues in the world. It's a natural amphitheater in the foothills, the stage is at the bottom and the seats stare down on it. You can see all of the Denver-Metro area lit up at the stage.

Even though we were row 45, the last of assigned seating and not general admission, we were right about smack-dab in the middle and had a good view of the stage (albeit far away). Too bad a lot of the morons around us were smoking pot a lot.

Anyway, Deerhunter opened about dusk, and Antonio kinda liked them because he said it sounds like they were singing about killing people. They were pretty good, but i felt bad for them when people cheered as they said, "this is the last song we'll be playing for you tonight." =/ jerks.

Anyway, after that, the seats were all filled up, and, at 9, NINE INCH NAILS CAME ON!!!!!! =D they started with, i believe, Head Down from their new album...At first, they played a couple medium-speed songs...

BUT NOBODY WAS FUCKING MOVING!!!!!!!! D= they stood there like fucking ZOMBIES, staring. At the third song, Trent Reznor said, "Okay, it's time to wake the FUCK up!!" and started March of Pigs, which is a FAST and angry song, one of my favorites, and people still BARELY moved. Meanwhile, I was jumping around and screaming like an idiot (or as Antonio said, "an autistic kid" =_=)

Nobody around me moved much for the entire show, but I didn't care. I went nuts and had SO much fun. I love that band. The lights show was absolutely incredible. Trent Reznor is a genius.

I, unfortunately, was too enthralled to record what songs came on, but my favorites were March of Pigs, the great destroy, God Given, Survivalism, 1,000,000, Ghosts, Discipline, and Reptile. I'd say Hurt...but...

Dx during Hurt, I started crying. Inexplicably. I love that song, even if I prefer Johnny Cash's version, but I cried the first time I heard it, too. My only guess is that I can associate with the feeling of wanting to prove that you're real, that you're still alive. Also, I can identify with the feeling that you are worthless and bad in the eyes of others, and, to some extent, yourself, but you are still yourself and you want to remain true to who you are.

So, I cried. Well, and I was also very sad because I knew the concert was wrapping up and I wanted to stay forever xD

poor Trent Reznor. He's old enough to be my father, but I don't care; I love him so much! Not romantically, that's just silly, but I DO think he's superrr sexy -he has the most sexy voice I've ever heard. It's all quiet and kind of awkward, but deep.

Me, too. I'm really quiet and feel uncomfortable talking to people. It's awkward cos I never know what to say to anyone these days.

anyway. I didn't bring my Degicam for fear of losing or breaking it...good thing, too, cos I almost lost and broke the disposable camera i brought xD

here's some other people's footage, though!


Me, I'm Not


The Greater Good


Hurt =[


from Ghosts

...I'll post my stuff next time!!! lolthank you!
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Monday, September 1, 2008

   NINE INCH NAILS was 1/2 a mile from my HOUSE and I MISSED IT
I've been beating myself up for this allllllll since i found out, so like an hour >_<

haha.

ok, NINE INCH NAILS is playing Red Rocks tomorrow, tuesday. yes, i am going and i'm super duper excited even if my seats aren't the greatest =/

lol oh well. anyway.

NIN came to town today...and went to the Vietnamese Pho noodle place that's a freakin' half mile from my house!!!!! D= I can walk there in like 10 or 15 minutes easy~! and I MISSED THEM. all because i was not paying attention.

and, not only that, they got stuck there...fuckshit...I could have rescued NINE INCH NAILS (via the bus, LMAO)

not that i would really know what to say to them. I'm super shy when it comes to people i think are more interesting than me or whatever. I might have been able to do it, but talking to them would have been so embarrassing for me xD

a girl named Ashely and her Aunt Linda came to the rescue in my stead...LMAO can you imagine me, all red-faced but happy, leading NIN on the bus to their hotel, obviously a fan but too shy to say anything...LOL it'd be hilarious.

but yeah i've been beating myself up about my missed opportunity. of all the damn times to not hang out downtown....FUCK. =( i'm getting sad again

i'll go emo up my wrists.

and, btw, sorry to be so slow about posting and visiting and all :)thank you!
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Sunday, August 17, 2008

   I just noticed, I put a lot of faith in hope.
I know this is a long post, bear with me, and try to read as much as possible, because it says some important, from my heart and of my future type stuff...thank you! Also, the pics are from the mountains, and the caption is above them. hope they make the stress of a LONG post easier!

me cooking while camping:


so, to bring y'all up to date, a few new things with my life ARE:

This Thursday or Friday (not sure which), my sister and I are going to Glenwood Springs in the mountains, and then Grand Junction, just West of the mountains, to get peaches and visit family. I'm excited, even if her dad is a prick and making HER pay for a night in the hotel. His own daughter. tsk. tsk.

I pitched this tent all on my loin-some xD :



I just got orientated and am a fully qualified animal volunteer at the MaxFund No-Kill animal shelter. When they say "no-kill," they mean it. They have a <1% euthanasia rate, putting down only the animals for whom NOTHING can be done. Some animals have cost them >$10,000 and some have been residents of the shelter for >10 years. It's been in non-business for 20 years. While I will only be able to volunteer for a short time, I hope this acts as an excellent reference, as I hope to obtain a job in animal care in Portland.

at the alluvial fan with my eyes closed:


On September 2nd, hopefully, fingers crossed no one gets sick/killed/other and that the weather is NOT inclement, Antonio and I will be attending the NINE INCH NAILS concert at Red Rocks, which is quite possibly the most AMAZING concert venue on EARTH. It's huge, it's a natural amphitheater, and it's right at the foothills.

Elevation 12,005 feet/2.3 miles! :


I have INDEED obtained an apartment!!! So, I have a place to live once I go back to Portland. It will be at the Ongford, a 600+ square foot studio apartment, complete with big bathroom, 1 coat closet, 2 ample closets, a stow-away kitchen, and a big window. That is ALSO cat-friendly. And the manager is super nice. I'm excited, so hopefully nothing goes wrong.

the top of a mountain. it will blow your mind:



Hopefully, like I said, I will be getting a job at an animal shelter. Or a kennel or vet's office. Somewhere where I am able to take care of animals. Even if it's just cleaning up cages, it needs to be done, and I LOVE animals.

I like this one:



Come Sept. 29, I will be back in college. Originally, I was going to take CHEMISTRY, ENVIRONMENTAL SYSTEMS, and university studies ENVIRONMENTAL SUSTAINABILITY. Well, my ESR (env.) lab got switched around (without my notification, I might add, fuck you too, PSU) so that it was in direct schedule conflict with my Chemistry class on Fridays. "No big deal, I guess," i thought, and reluctantly changed my morning Chem class to the dreaded evening line up. Well, I was unable to register for THAT due to the prerequisite that was previously unmentioned...I need a D- or higher (way to set the standard high...I could crawl over that bar) in Intro to College Math. With much fuss, I dropped my Chemisty class and its lab all together, and signed up for STATISTICS (which I need for my major), and for Intro to College Math. Now I am taking 18 bloody credits. fuck. But I'm on my way to my BS in science degree xD

This one too:


In October, I look forward to getting my new cat. I want to be settled in my apartment and definitely have a surplus of money to spend on my new kitty. I'll HAVE to have a job. I'm hoping to get my cat just after Oct. 23, my 19th birthday (don't care about turning 19 much) as a b-day present to myself, and picking it out may be my "party." but, if I don't have the resources yet, I will not get my cat. I want to be a RESPONSIBLE pet owner.

the mountain in the clouds:


...Well, that does it for the future. Friday and Saturday, it's been in the 60's and very rainy. I LOVE IT. On Friday, I spent about 3 hours at my old high school. Classes start Monday, so I stopped to see the teachers before it was all hectic with students and such. I saw Ms. Ruiz, the crazy lesbian xD she cracks me up. I helped her out for a while. And then, I was EXTREMELY happy to see Matsumoto-Sensei. He was my all-time favorite teacher. EVER. I loved him like a strange Japanese uncle. He had so much influence on me during my hard high school years, and really instilled in me a love for Japanese language and culture. And I was his star pupil haha I was awesome at Japanese, whatever happened to me?!

Snow fields:


I also saw Ms. Gates, the woman who is fully responsible for dragging me off to Costa Rica and making me FALL IN LOVE with the rainforest. Because of that trip, I can honestly say that I know what I want to dedicate my life to. Even if it's only a small portion, though I want it to be global and humongous, at the end of my life, I want to be responsible for saving as many trees, shrubs, flowers, fungus, moss, any plant, any fungus, and any animal that I could, as well as helping people to live and prosper and be happy and healthy. I don't want to live in excess. I would be very happy living simply in the rainforest. As long as my basic needs are met. And I want to make a difference for that portion of the world that I love most. I love all of the world, really. Even the parts that scare me, like the ocean. But if everybody dedicates themselves to what they love, every part of the world will be taken care of.

such a pretty bird:


I mean, if people are willing to be butt and vagina and pee-pee and foot doctors (yes, I equate feet with anuses), then shouldn't there be some people who love barren patches of tundra? (ok i do, but i can't help but love every aspect of nature).Anyway, I'm rambling about this.

i climbed up there:


I'll move on to the final subject I wanted to mention tonight. This post is HIGHLY orgranized, for my standards. wowzers.

the alluvial fan falls:


Anyway. So, NaeNae was talking about how her friend saw somebody's "hate list"

to get a feel for how big it is, the rock i climbed 2 pictures ago is up about in the middle on the left, and the falls are there:


well, I wanted to make one too. It'll be short, I promise!

our fire sucked cos we forgot matches:


I hate people who intentionally and brutally hurt other people.
I hate people who intentionally and brutally hurt animals for pleasure(this includes fur).
I hate rapists and child molesters (or adult molesters).
I don't hate the person, but I hate the habit of picky eating!!!!
I hate it when people spoil their kids too much.
I hate it when rich people don't think about the needs of the less fortunate and are frivolous.
I hate lies.
I hate High School Musical.
I hate conforming and being the same as someone.
I hate being noticed.
I hate being ignored by my loved ones(hard to please, ain't i?).
I hate being too hot.
I hate having something shoved down my throat, idea-wise.
I hate being told what to do and being manipulated.
I hate being too cold, but not as much as being too hot.
I hate reality tv and game shows, with the exception of anything Japanese cos it's so hilarious.
I hate intolerance of other people based on trivial matters such as race, religion (ok not TRIVIAL but not a reason to hate someone), gender, ethnicity, orientation, education, etc.
I hate discrimination.
I hate it when evil-doers get away with it because of power or influence.
I hate the term "tolerance" because it implies that you should only begrudge someone a peaceful existence, not try to understand or befriend them.
I hate new age hippies that only sit around and do drugs and talk about doing something without ever taking action.
I hate modern feminists who want women to be superior to men, and to have the benefits of the double standard like men do.
I hate that people think "cunt"/pussy is anti-feminists and insulting, but "dick/cock" is okay and not insulting and mean.
I hate the double standard -men should be held to the same HIGH moral standards as women.
I hate centipedes. icky.
I hate running late.
I hate feeling inadequate and uncertain in myself.
I hate to be stinky.
I hate cramps.
I hate being hurt by the people I love, and I hate hurting them in return.

me and my mom at nymph lake:


...there are other things I hate, as well, but that's about all i care to think of for now. I am tired as hell and want to re-read the superior update (I LOVE THAT MANGA) before I go to bed.

I'm such a geology nerd:


By the way, NaeNae, sorry for writing you a fucking novel on your comments. Think of it as two weeks' worth since I missed one.

greatest picture ever...found it in Fraser, after camping:

thank you!
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Friday, August 8, 2008

   fucking shit
don't you get fucking shit-sick of bitchy people?

so, my mom's stupid friend and her stupid daughter came to visit. The girl is 11, and as SPOILED as any child i've EVER met.

She's alright about half of the time; some of the stuff is just normal, 11 year old stuff. No biggie. She's alright for that. But WHAT A PICKY EATER. If I ever have kids, being picky will NOT be tolerated. It's one thing to try something and not like it. If you try it and eat a bit of it, fine. I won't make it again.

BUT this girl would NOT try ANYTHING. she admitted "the only things i eat are chicken fingers, pizza, mac'n'cheese, spaghetti, and hamburgers. She complained about her mother's cooking CONSTANTLY. In fact, she was VERY rude and disrespectful to her mother. And her mother let her get away with it!!!

Her mother tried to defend her picky habits. Tried to say she's not that bad. My God, I have NEVER MET SUCH A PICKY KID!!!! Even my sister was NEVER that picky!!!

And then, we go camping at Rocky Mountain National Park. In my opinion, one of the most beautiful parks in America, if not the world. It's GORGEOUS. And all Satchel cared about was going to the damn giftshop and getting a souvenir t-shirt. =_= she said if we didn't go, the whole trip would have been "a waste"

I asked my mom if I was like that when I was 11 and she said "oohhh no."

And my mom can be a bitch; instead of saying "excuse me" to ask me to move, she screamed at me to get the hell out of her way. Pissed me off. But it was kinda nice when her friend started irritating the crap out of her, because then she wouldn't yell at me. She yells a lot -_-

When we were driving, I saw a guy with no shirt on, and it's my joke to always go "Put on a shirt!" when I see someone shirtless. Harmless. But Linda gets a stick up her cunt (probably could use it) about it. Starts yelling at me "Julie, that's not NICE."

So? I'm not nice. It's not nice of him to be out there shirtless like that. And it's not good for him -he could get serious sunburn. My mom didn't like her getting all pissy about that, and told her "Well, he SHOULD wear a shirt!!!" fucking damn right.

I don't know what happened to Linda, menopause, maybe, but as I recall, she used to be fun, and nice. Now she's just a bitch. She woke us up at 7 after NONE of us had slept and were just getting some quality sleep. She acted like the hiking trails were going somewhere. She just threw all the equipment into the car instead of organizing it so that the necessary things would be accessible.

oohhh and she pissed me off with the hamburgers I made. I cooked them -she could have helped with SOMETHING instead of just sitting around watching my mom (who has SERIOUSLY fucked up feet that sometimes hurt so bad she can't walk on them) and I work. I don't mind working.

But she could have helped with the fire or something. Made it more viable to cook on. As it turned out, the hamburgers weren't fully cooked, and she didn't eat but half of hers. She didn't let Satchel eat it all, and scared poor Satchel about getting E-Coli.

I kept rolling my eyes and saying "No one is going to get sick" and no one did. Well, I did the next day.

All in all, I had fun in the mountains, I love, love, love, love the outdoors. But Linda turned into a bitch, and Satchel is a whiner. There were other piss-off points, but whatever.

OH!!!! and good news =) I got an apartment **knock on wood**thank you!
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