Saturday, August 11, 2007

   If I were Frank with you, who would I be alone?
haha

The Simpsons sure knows kids! "The Floor Is Made Of Lava" yup my sis and I used to play that game ALL the time; drove everyone crazy.

But I still don't like the new ones.

Oh and what was I gonna say? Who knows, i'm TIRED.

and not feeling so good =\ what's new?

haha who's your favorite InuYasha character? Mine would have to be Rin and Sesshomaru. Rin's cute, and Sesshomaru is the least annoying character. He's calm...I like calmness

OH! and I found out my dorm!!! My roommate is named Brooke; she seems pretty cool. Looking at her pictures...she looks REALLY familiar, but I can't place from where and it's gonna drive me up the wall.

So it's only about a month until I drive off...I'm scared, in all honesty. Moving away from home and Antonio and my sister and all my friends. It's hard. (haha!)

But I feel like this is what I need to do, too. I just PRAY Antonio doesn't get stuck in jail. That's gonna be fucking HARD if he gets put in the slammer for while I'm gone.

Those fucking friends of his didn't bother to drag him away, I wish they had. I asked them to help; they only helped him fight.

Damn.

Oh well. I feel sick!!! and it's annoying as my cousin, who's pretty damn annoying.

any rate, i'm off for the weekend ^_^thank you!
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Friday, August 10, 2007

   Damn cops
So today I went to see Antonio in Jail...

well I tried.

The motherfucker at the CITY jailhouse told me "Antonio Pena" is in the COUNTY jail. So I had to go there, all the way to the ends of Denver. Took about an hour

Turned out, once I got there, that it was a DIFFERENT Antonio Pena. The lady cop, though snotty and mean, at least TOLD me that MY Antonio was in

...THE GODDAMN CITY JAIL. So I had to take fucking another hour and a half to get BACK to downtown, by which time Antonio had called me cos he was free.

For now. He's being charged with Trespassing, Assault, and Distrubing the Peace. MAYBE disturbing the peace...not that flipping anyone off is illegal. It was THE BOUNCER's fault for getting offended over a finger, and it was the CROWD's fault for getting all bitchy.

seriously, they were all in his face when it had nothing to do with them. That UGLY fat bitch who I almost fought with, she called him "a crusty" which is an insult to fake ass punks, but a compliment to true punks. It means you're the most hardcore mother fucker ever.

And Antonio must be. His shirt was all ripped (i'd brought him a change) and he had a few scrapes, and bruises, but he was looking pretty damn good. One of those "you should've seen the other guy" things, cos one of the bouncers fucked his hand up by PUNCHING THE DAMN WINDOW.

So who KNOWS whose blood was on me last night, that wasn't Antonio's.

But either way, he's got a court date next week. Wish him luck, cos he needs it. (i'll be there, thank you very much mother fucking denver pigs)

OH!!!!!!!! xD and some guy was trying to flirt with me on the bus to the county jail; he's like, "You're very beautiful...Where's your boyfriend?"

At which point I nervously (I hate to be complimented by strangers, and I was worried) answered, "He's in jail. I'm going to see him now."

haha!!! that kid -he seemed sweet enough; he didn't say shit with lust in his voice- got SCARED. ...And not to be racist or whatever...but **laughs** white guys and Asian guys never hit on me xD I just now noticed that.

Not that I care. All I need is Antonio. Who promises not to fight anymore, unless it's with me haha kinky!thank you!
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Thursday, August 9, 2007

   the BULLSHIT saga continues.
Alright, I don't wanna get too into it tonight, because I already lived it, and it was shit.

And it's cos they're full of BULLSHIT.
they got all pissed off at the middle finger. Being flipped off. That's not against the fucking law, bitch, it's protected in the AMMENDMENTS. It's called FREE SPEECH even if it isn't speaking.

Then there's these wanna be punks. those Putos!!!! they get pissed at US. Starting shit with US when we didn't do CRAP to them. Fucking fake ass punks, too, cos they mocked the way somone dresses. And cos they were DEFENDING a fucked up authority.

News flash: REAL punks don't give a fuck how you dress or even what you listen to. It's a fucking lifestyle, it's a set of BELIEFS

Then this FAT ASS WHORE was behind him, HIS BACK WAS TURNED, throwing fake punches and kicks and just being a bitch. When she went to kick at him again, I reacted so much I didn't know it was me.

I quite literally screamed, "BACK THE FUCK OFF, BITCH." she got pissed and said, "excuse me, bitch?"

I yelled, "Keep your Goddamn cunt away from him, you pussy bitch."

she cussed at me, and threatened me, "What are you gonna do, you cunt?!! I'LL KICK YOUR ASS, I'LL BEAT YOUR FACE IN."

I called her a "Fat unfucking whore," and she got offended and said, "Fat? Better than you, you ugly ass skinny BITCH."

At that, I started laughing, because A.) I am indeed ugly, and B.) I AM NOT SKINNY!!!!!!!!!! xD

Plus, I didn't want to start shit with someone who was quite literally 4 times my size and would attack someone unprovoked from behind. Speaking of behinds, hers was like a house.
(which was why Alan was hoping I'd let it go)

I'm not a fucking pussy chicken shit motherfucker, though. I don't run away. I stayed by Antonio's side until the glass broke and the shit hit the fan. The brawl only lasted a few minutes, but a window got busted.

Then the other guys left, but I stayed with Antonio as they cornered him.

He told me to bail, though. He's like, just get the fuck out of here. So I bailed. I wish I'd have stayed though. I wish with ALL my heart -only less than that this hadn't transpired- that I'd stayed instead of leaving. They couldn't have done shit to me: i'm a minor, I didn't hit anyone or provoke them (they provoked me, thank you), and i tried to stop it.

anyway I bailed. The one doorman fucking tried to say it was me, too, but I said, "What? I didn't do shit and you know it." I stomped off, and met up with Jason, who ditched Antonio, and Matt left with Leila. I finally met up with Alan, who went with me to see what happened to Antonio. He's fucking arrested for assault. Which is bullshit, because WHAT about all those people who joined in fighting and the bouncers who broke the window???

The cops wouldn't fucking HEAR our side of the story, so tomorrow I'm gonna go to his court hearing and defend him. Alan's coming too. And we're gonna help pay his bond if we have to.

But right now, all I can think about is Antonio, sitting in his cell, ripped shirt and cut up, lonely, pissed off.

Seriously. Nobody seemed to give a fuck that WE were bleeding too. Nobody seemed to give a flying FUCK that it was FIVE people! FIVE!!!!!!! A girl and 4 boys!!! against no shit TWENTY people.

I wasn't hurt but DAMN i wish i was. And I got a lot of Antonio's and Alan's blood on me, cos I tried to help them and stop the gushing.

Luckily the bartender at the bar across the street was REALLY nice. She gave us a couple cups of water, and even offered us soda, though we declined. And she let us use the bathroom to clean up.

All the fancy fucking rich people inside were looking down on us like we were shit. Bloody, fucked up, pissed off punks, we weren't starting shit but oh how they stared at us.

Fuck it. I'm calm right now, thanks to the help again from my friend Christian...don't worry NaeNae, no cheezy emo skater lines this time. He just listened to my story, and agreed with me, and he said he'll boycott that theater with me. Then he got my mind onto other shit. It was quite a relief.


That's him. ^__^ he's got GORGEOUS hazel green eyes. I'm really jealous. and he's like 4 months younger than me, but he looks so much older @.@


Of course, my sister helped too. She's ALWAYS worth a laugh, she made me crack up and feel so much better ^__^ Luckily I can confide in her

But thank GOD she didn't go. She's never been in a fight that serious and I KNOW her. If I'd have started really brawling, she's have been right there with me, fighting too. But I don't want her to get hurt (I don't want anyone to get hurt for that matter), and if she did, I'd have felt SOOOOO bad. And she probably would have started more shit with that fat bitch cos she don't let no one talk that way to me (same for me to her)

I have SERIOUS like you wouldn't BELLIEVE LOVE for Christian and Tamara right now. And for Alan, for that matter. He was really cool; he stayed with me and put up with my nervous chatter. Plus, he's the ONLY one who stuck around for Antonio. Let's not even talk about how much love I have for him right now, even if I think he should have let it go and am kind of mad that he couldn't.

But I'm mostly pissed at the cops and the theater. I'm BOYCOTTING it. Seriously. I don't trust cops, they always screw me over. My dad can say he MIGHT kill my mom and it's not a threat. Antonio can flip someone off and piss them off so much they attack, it's assault.

Yeah. Way to go, cops of colorado. You wonder why people hate you.

But I'm calm, like I said.

Sorry if I don't get to your site...thank you!
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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

   sorry this is late
Ok. I'm gonna talk about manga for once.

So I bought the final 3 volumes of Power!! (aka GIRL GOT GAME) today...that's manga, by the way. I don't watch much anime, but i read a lot of manga (just a few series though.)

If you don't know it, I'm going to describe the series.

It's what I feel like doing, sorry!!!

So, it starts out that Aizawa Kyo is a high school transfer, who likes basketball. Her dad is OBSESSED, and forges her paperwork so she has to dress as a man and play for the Seisyu High boy's basketball team

Aizawa is NOT pleased, but when she gets to the school, she sees a tall guy playing ball, and he's really good. She decides maybe it won't be so bad. As she meets the team, even tho they're taller, she can keep up. OH and she also has to stay in the dorm

As the series goes on, it shows her developing a crush on Eniwa Chiharu, her roommate, rival, friend, and the guy she first saw. When an old schoolmate shows up, she jealously reveals Aizawa's chest, and Eniwa finds out, but he decides to keep her secret.

They get on okay, and then Aizawa meets Yura, a prodigy, who can immediately tell her true gender. after a few battles with him, they all become friends.

Eventually, it shows the team finding out but not really caring, and Eniwa and Aizawa falling in love along the way.

I guess it SOUNDS more shoujo-y than it is...it's fucking HILARIOUS!!!! The author always draws the FUNNIEST faces xD ROFL

one of my favorite..."arcs"...of the series is when Eniwa is repressing his attraction to Aizawa. He tells her that she isn't really a girl (after he divides the room in half), so because she likes him, decides to prove how girly she is, though she either winds up seeming REALLY butch, or just plain weird.

Finally, she borrows porn magazines from their friend Hamaya to see how a woman should be. Wearing s tummy-exposing tank top, no bra, and hot pants, she greets him. Successfully, she gets Eniwa's attention: he jumps on top of her, pinning her, and scolding her for her silliness.

Thinking he's going to "force himself" on her, she freaks out, kicks him in the crotch, then climbs on top of him, and ties him up with rope.

Just then, Hamaya walks in with a new, S&M special porn, and freaks out. He doesn't see Aizawa's breasts, and thinks they ARE a couple (people suspect)

xD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROFL but the FACES IN THAT PART!!!!!!!!!! she draws the BEST FACES LMAO

my favorite quotes that i can recall offhand would be:

Aizawa: "Oh God, am I still a girl...or half of a gay couple?"
Eniwa: "How can I be in love with a girl who shoves bamboo sticks up her nose???"
(after that he crashes into a vending machines)

xD!!!!!!!!!!!! this story, while it may have a FEW stupid romantic moments, is mostly comedy. most romantic scenes are busted up by someone. It's not an important series, but it makes me laugh a lot.thank you!
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

   Meat eating orchids forgive no one just yet
I just realized my 3rd year at MyO just passed. WOW! i suck

Oh, but a funny thing happened today. I was just wishing how much I had MONEY to buy Auf Deinen Schwingen, one of the best L'Ame Immortelle albums around **hearts**

I complained about it openly. Then, maybe...an hour or an hour and a half?...later, the mail arrived. I got the dregs of my graduation gifts!!! my mom's auntie sent me $50!!! I was overjoyed and shocked, and of course thankful. But I was a good little girl and I'll put it in my savings or checking. I've splurged enough this summer.

Oh, you know how last night I was kinda argh? well, I got feeling worse and more stressed, and I was about to start cutting myself again. Instead, I got pissed and grabbed a sharpie.

Then I wrote on my walls. I wrote ALL over them. I drew a cloud on the part where my wall and ceiling meet and called it "Heaven," so that Heaven is "just within my reach." See, when I wrote on the wall and ceiling, I had to stand on my bed to reach some of it, but I'm not THAT tall, and my bed isn't THAT high, so I had to kind of tippy-toe.

I also drew the Lady in the Radiator from EraserHead, and her song. And I drew "Happiness runs in a circular motion," which was a stick man named Happiness running in circles, LOL.

I also wrote all over the walls. I've done it before, though not so much. Even if my mom gets, pissed, fuck it. My walls need to be repainted before she sells the house, anyway.

I spent much of today either sick, watching L'AI videos on YouTube, playing around on MySpace (hey, I had one before anyone even know what "Myspace" was and I got one to keep in contact with an old friend, who I know dislike. LOL)

Also, i started cleaning my room. I've found all sorts of nothingness, lol


the Lady in the Radiator, from my favorite movie, EraserHead

**hearts**

Oh, it's obscure, it's surreal, it's symbolic, and a straightforward, traditional depiction of realism.


there's my school ID card, lifesize, so you can't see it any better than I can, kinda. and I had to blur certain details

OKAY and this is at the end so you can SKIP IT if you'd LIKE
I put it as a Link

I really like it. A lot. And it's mostly true.

COLORADO LINKAGE GO HERE NOW!

ok then toodles!thank you!
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Monday, August 6, 2007

   Damn it smells like...well never mind what it smells like in here
A few responses:

No, InnocentHeart ^^ you didn't offend me. You pointed something out, and i thought you were right.

At Borders Since I had coupons, I got $5 off 2 manga I bought at once, and then 20% off another. I was trying to think of the best way to do things...the cheapest.

And come to think of it, i should have used the 20% coupon on the 2 books, and the $5 on the 1. That way, I could have saved about $9 instead of the measly $6

in other news, I got my PSUone Card, basically my college student ID. **shame** the picture...luckily it's small. My mom saw it and said, "you look like some hippie chick."

NOOO!!!!!!!!!! that's an insult to me

Ah!!! and I saw the Simpsons Movie!!!

It was okay; i laughed. not as much as my dad, who laughed like someone slipped some coke into his powerade or nachos. Damn. Oh well, I act like that in horror films **giggles** kusu (teehee)~!! You shoulda seen me at 28 Weeks Later. I just laughed the whole time.

Wednesday, I'm hopefully off to the Krum Bums concert with Antonio and company. He seemed down today; maybe he was just tired, or something? He hardly talked to me at all. Mostly, I wound up talking to Alan, and hitting him when he was MOLESTING Antonio's head.

=[ I'm always worried when Antonio gets like that; I get the feeling it's my fault, either due to insecurity or truth. But also worried about him. There are some things that...I dunno.

Both of us are kinda fucked up when it comes to this or that.

meh. I'm feeling better, in the head, right now, though. Naturally, there's ever life. I don't really need people to survive. I LOVE my sister and Antonio and friends and Mom, but I don't NEED them. I don't WANT too many people to be close to. Who knows about HAPPINESS, but I'm pretty angry a lot of the time, so obviously I don't need happiness.

But...I AM happy when it's raining/stormy/overcast. As it is right now. I would be happier if I wasn't worried about Antonio or feeling naseous. LOL is that strange that it's the sunny days that get me grumpy? My sister gets grouchy on cloudy days.

Anyway, I'll be leaving now. If my post's choppy, it's cos I wrote a LOT more, but mostly about nothing, so I cut it out. Unfortunately, some of what I cut out was quite cheerful, but ah. All for the sake of shortness.

^^




Sasaya HATES that commercial. Anti-weed commercials need to seem COOLER than rebeling and drugs.

Though maybe a druggie would think it outrageous? I dunnothank you!
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Saturday, August 4, 2007

   How can I still be sleepy???
Ok, I don't agree with abortion in most cases, but what's with these anti-abortion dumbasses (the kind that call abortion "murder") going around BLOWING abortion clinics up and killing/attempting to kill people?

Isn't THAT murder, too? hypocrites.

So, I've been watching more old Disney movies...I watched Beauty and the Beast, Aladin, and the Lion King.

I like Beauty and the Beast, but it's never been my favorite. I hadn't watched it in years, so after watching it again...I was LMAO at the Beast!! I have no clue which Disney GIRL I am, but in manners, I'm a lot like the Beast!

Ah, but the part where Gaston locks up Belle and Papa, and goes to kill Beast with the mirror, I'd have made another layer, where Beast thinks Belle betrayed him. That she acted nice to run away, then went to her "handsome" boyfriend, gave him the mirror, and sent him off to kill the "horrible" beast.

I like Aladin, too. Abu!!! xD Who DOESN'T love a monkey in a fez hat????

It used to be mine and Mayte's dream to own a fez hat franchise. It ended when I bought her a fez of her own, and she had bad luck wearing it. LOL

In the Lion King...I like that one a lot, too. But technically, Scar would be more handsome. Somebody did a study showing that lions with darker manes attract more females.

Still. It's a movie of talking, human-esque animals for children. My mom was saying, "look how they fight like humans." uhm...mommy...they do EVERYTHING like humans, why not fight like them?

In other news, I'm getting sick or something. My throat is itchy, but under the skin, and it goes through my nose. Also, I'm coughing and lightheaded. My stomach has been fucked up for ages. OH WELL!!! xD

Oh, but I'm kinda...i dunno, sad...because my good friend Dave is in the military. At least Zak gave me his address. I'm gonna write him a letter; Dave is a really good person.

thank you!
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Friday, August 3, 2007

   Innocent Heart said it! I AM in a whiny mood! (edited for length and your protection)
Haha!

Just a note: about Power!!! (aka Girl Got Game)...Yes, it's shoujo but not THAT annoying. It's got the bubbly eyes and stuff, but it's not like Fruits Basket or **shudders** Marmalade Boy

BRATZ the movie is pretty stupid looking. Propogating the high school girl war. and weird "uppity-ness"

as Mayte said, "SLUTZ."

The last few days, I've had the WEIRD urge to go to my old church. Not for the services; those people are jackasses and don't uphold the christian ideals they preach. I've never been to a church I liked.

But anyway. I just wanna go back to see my friends and see what's become of the church. I can't STAND the pastor they have. But i miss my friends.

Plus, I'm at my dad's house on sundays. hrm...

we'll see

OH GOOD GOD SAVE US!!!!!!!!! **screams** EVERY FUCKING COMMERCIAL HAS SHITTY MUSIC!!!!! I'm so damn DAMN tired of hearing that "Girlfriend" song by Avril Lavigne. And now Circuit City has "FALLOUT BOY."

No offense if you like them... >< I just can't STAND that kind of music.

Can't say how many would like mine, though. Angry goth-rock dudes singing in German. what's not to love?



YAY!!! My second favorite band on earth!!!!! I love Sonja (sexy redhead) and I love Thomas the sexy emo geek boy!!!!!!thank you!
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Thursday, August 2, 2007

   Depressed Teen Dies of Laughter
bwahahahaha!!! I love this South Park. There are some things about South Park I don't like, but damn. This episode (a new one) cracks me up~!!!!

First, it starts off with Cartman getting made "hall moniter" and he turns into Dawg that bounty hunter guy. The part where his girlfriend walks around...she's just boobs and legs xD

And then, Ike (Kyle's kindergarten brother) has an affair with his psycho teacher. Funny. Very funny!!!

Ike cracks me up. He talks so cutely.

AW!!!!!!!!! My cat Miss Kitty is being so cute; she's passed out behind me with her little arm draped around my phone...

awwwwwwwww

I'm fighting with my mom again; she pisses me off. Yeah, I know I'm wrong, too, but shit.

I really want to complain about this cos it's so fucking frustrating, but I won't. It won't help.

...

Oh!!! have you ever heard of a manga called "girl got game?" it's a generic shoujo with crossdressing girl...and it's not that wonderful; but i like it. I think it's funny, and relaxing.

but...I HATE the English title...it sounds so stupid. Guess what, though. The JAPANESE title is "Power!!!" i like that one better. it doesn't sound as lame. and why did they have to change it; the title is already in English.

I think tomorrow I'm getting out and gonna go look for another volume. If my mom doesn't complain.


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
LMAO!!!!!!!! ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!



:D



Do you ever get the feeling like you were born at the wrong time? i do.

I should've been born in, yes, the 80's (80's baby love, even if it WAS within the last 3 months **sad**) but sooner. I love the 90's and I would love to have been a kid then. Maybe even a teenager, so born in the 70's.

I was just born in the wrong year. bah. and to the wrong parents. my mom likes kids but she sucks with them. my dad too.thank you!
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

   Ooops this is laaaaaaaaaate
oh well, I haven't got much to say anyway.

So the zoo was fun, but it sucked. Why?

Because I went to sleep after 4AM and got up a little after 7 AM resulting in approximately 3.5 hours of sleep. Normally, I could function on that, but I'd gotten the same amount the night before, and it was catching up to me.

So we enjoyed the zoo hurriedly. The baby snow leopard was darling.

then we went to triple A, to get maps. Tamara and I were napping in the lounge chairs while we waited for my mom. Stupidly, I took my glasses off, and we left without them.

However, as we drove away, I noticed that everyting was blurry and said I left them, so we ran back to get them. drove. Whatever.

then, I got home and SLEPT. I just passed out. It felt like i'd been out for HOURS and HOURS and HOURS...in reality it was only about an hour and a half.

But Antonio called to tell me to let him in...to the house. I was incoherent, and I thought it was the morning or at least late at night of the next day. i was SO confused.

then he came in, we didn't do crap, we ate, watched TV, played video games, I fell asleep, woke up, went back to sleep.

Now it's 2:16 pm and i've not done crap.

Mayte's leaving to Mexico on Sunday though xD I wanna go!!! I wanna pig out on Mexican food...DELICIOUS!!!!!! she says she always pigs out while she's there. the food here just can't compare

oh dear that rhymed...

and I'll stop now cos my hands are shaking/twitching and it's scarythank you!
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