Tuesday, July 31, 2007

   Teen Dies of Deliciousness!
Tamara and I went to get her computer taken to the SHOP. because her video card is all warped from heat.

She has TERRIBLE luck with computers; I always wondered why until today, when it was revealed that she's bought ALL her computers at freakin' SAM'S CLUB. No wonder! Sam's is run by Walmart, which is famous for its bottom-of-the-barrel junk.

This computer, the PC, was built from scratch and designed for me from DELL. My laptop came from Best Buy.

Bad things have happened, I guess, but neither has her bad track record.

Anyway, then we went (alone) to Petco. Spent $120 on a freaking SET UP for the rat. Spent $5 on the rat herself.

Pancakes, however, is a delightful young rat, age 1 month. She's quite friendly, running to greet you by smelling your hand, then climbing onto you. She doesn't bite, and is very adorable.

She's got pure white fur, a tan tail, and pink eyes. ^^ I prefer colors, a bit, but...she's still darling.

I was originally going to buy her a companion, Peaches, but since Petco threw a fit that neither of us were 18...and it was hard enough to convince her dad and grandma to let us get PANCAKES. The plan now is to use the carrier to sneak another rat in and tell them it's Pancakes. Like they'll know the difference. Bah.

But we might not, at least til the heat dies down, get another after all.

but damn. I KNEW I should've brought Antonio with us (he's 18 with ID)

But it was pretty fun

going to zoo tomorrow!!!

^^

Today

sepia toned


Unsuspecting


Bird (attempting) escape


Panny all a flutter


Pancakes eating <3


Dragon Boat Festival


bad aim! cut her head off (drinking bubble tea)


She didn't like milk tea or the bobbas/bubbles


But I do!!! (Balls in my mouth!)


durrrr... what dis button do?


make that frankenstein face!


Takato (stupid)


Toby and blurry moving stupid Takato

toodles! ^^thank you!
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Monday, July 30, 2007

   Recluse Dies After Bite of Brown Recluse
Wow...there are some weird similarities between Kurt Cobain and me...except that I'm not musically or artistically talented ^_~

I'm reading a biography about him...and damn. It's pretty fucking positive when it comes to Courtney Love.

Sorry, Kurt, but I don't like her. And this book doesn't have anything bad to say about her; always calling her smart, and saying she had more self control, and charm, and all that crap. It paints a portrait of a disturbed man and this WONDERFUL woman...bah.

Anyway. Haha damn. My dog freakin' stinks.



SWEET!!!!!!!! thank you LordSesshomaru...

sorry I forget how to make a link... ><

Today we went to the Dragon Boat Festival. Big, end of summer Asia fest!!! it was fun. Tamara (sis) and I meandered around, looking at booths, boat races, and my favorite...

the sexy sword play!!!! <3 this one hot guy without a shirt on was using a naginata, and...oooh...heh. Tamara yelled out, "PUT A FUCKING SHIRT ON!" but I punched her and yelled back, "NO, SHE DOESN'T MEAN IT!!! AND TAKE YOUR PANTS OFF!!!"

She also experienced her first Milk Tea with Bobbas...not impressed. I liked it tho.

I was really sad my dad took me home before I got to see the Taiko -the Japanese drums...I'm a huge fan of Taiko <3

expect a few stupid pics in the next week

OH FUCK!!!! there was a fucking spider on me...ew!!!! a big ugly black one I hope he didn't bite me, either. I wear shorts to bed, and look down and crawling up my leg is...GAG

I hate having spiders touch me. Fucking HATE IT. Once, I found a spider on me, and scrubbed the spot until my skin was raw and bleeding. Now, since I can't find the fucker, I want to set my bloody bed and possibly room on fire.

This reminds me of a chapter from Kurt Cobain's bio...he had a beloved pet rat. And when he saw a spider, he tried to sic the rat on it to eat it. But the rat didn't do it, so he went to get the spray deodorant and kill the fucker, but then he looked down and realized he stepped on his poor rat's head. It was still alive and suffering so he put it in a bag, and smashed it til it died. After that he couldn't even kill the spider.

**shudders** i can't even go shower cos my mom is bitchy with me again.

ewwwwwwwwww


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sure don'tthank you!
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Sunday, July 29, 2007

   In Freak Flan Accident, Girl Dies. Details on Page 23C
Why must people try to ruin stuff? Some guy I knew in middle school is trying to get me to go over and fuck him. I'm like, I've got a boyfriend, and you know it. I'm not a slut. And, mostly, I DON'T BETRAY PEOPLE.

**fumes**

Anyway. Friday, it was storming!!! I was SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THE RAIN. The streets were even flooding. And it was lightening-ing. Thunder!!! It was wonderful!!!

I didn't go to my dad's cos of the hazard of driving in that mess.

So I stayed home with Antonio, eating, playing counterstrike, and enjoying the rain. I wound up going to bed at 7 am. I got up again at like 12, and took a freezing cold shower cos my mom turned down the heater **cries**

Then my dad came and got me, and we went to the museum. We didn't look at the museum, though, cos we saw a movie at thet IMAX. (iMAX? Imax?) It was called "Hurricane on the Bayou," which was about the disappearing wetlands of America, and Hurricane Katrina.

Oh man, i tell you...I CRIED. I cried when Hurricane Katrina happened, too. All the loss associated with that whole mess...Apparantly, the wetlands also help damper the effects of a hurricane..."For every 3 square miles of wetland, the water level brought by a hurricane is reduced by a foot" something like that.

In my room, I have a picture of a woman and her adorable little baby who got saved from Hurricane Katrina. It's a touching picture; you can see the action behind them, but they're sharing a sweet moment.

I also have a picture of an Iraqi girl...I like it because of her eyes; she looks rebellious but reserved. There's another one of some children in a house doorway, and a soldier's gun around them...taken from near the soldier, of the children.

I like those pictures, I got them from the newspaper.

OH! and our zoo has a baby snow leopard...**loves** Monday, my sister and I are gonna go to the petstore and get her a rat and the set up. Yeah, a rat. She wants one (a female only, cos she hates the dragging balls of the males and I don't blame her cos my mouse was a girl), just to name Pancakes. And to love. I'm excited. We aren't telling anyone (except I told my mom...oops), and are taking the bus, and are just gonna show up with a lil rat and set up ^^ cuteness!!!

Then on Tuesday, we're going to the Zoo!! One of my favorite hangouts EVER. My mom's got a membership, but it only works if she's there, so I rarely get to go.




sorry it's so big ^^thank you!
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Saturday, July 28, 2007

   Teenager Dies of Bedroom Mess: Clothes, Trash, Books, Shoes Crush 17 Year Old
I think I'll start putting the subject as a false headline...>.> mostly about my/someone's death...

Oh!!! NaeNae! I was just thinking about it, and then I read your comment. It's true. (Racism, sexism, that sort of crap from Disney vids)...



UGH!!! I'm so irritated with my fucking family. They're jackasses!!!!!!!! My mom and I can DROP EVERYTHING and drive for 2 days straight to go take care of my very sick Grandma, and it wasn't FUN in the least while we were there.

We worked fucking hard taking care of ALL her stuff, and my grandpa, and my idiot family. I missed out on getting a JOB this summer because I had to leave the search and go. And I NEED that money. COLLEGE, you know, doesn't come cheap. My mom's on her OWN. No husband, no one else to be working and helping. Just her, so she missed money too.

These lazy fuckers -well, i'll forgive my aunt cos she's got health problems, too- can't drive 5 fucking miles to go visit her. not even to work...TO VISIT her and keep her company, and they don't.

Sure, when we were there, they made all sorts of promises. Yeah, we'll help. Oh, yeah, sure, no probs...FUCK THEM!

My ASSHOLE uncle? First, 2 weeks after she was out of the HOSPITAL, he and his kids picked raspberries, which he then had my grandma -my SICK OLD WOMAN GRANDMA- make into pies for him. He didn't pay her, or anything.

But even WORSE, was while he was on VACATION, he had my grandma out in her garden PICKING GREEN BEANS. Maybe you've never farmed...but it can be tough!!! Especially when it's hot, humid, buggy and you're allergic to bees, and you're a sick old woman.

Then, he had her snapping and washing the green beans. Then he had her canning them! AND THEN he brought beans from HIS garden over and had her do THEM!!!!

How does he get her to do this? Guilt trips. She talks about all he's done for her? What's he done for her compared to what she's done for him?

She's GIVEN BIRTH to him, raised him, loaned him money, watched his kids for free a billion times, cleaned for him...all sorts of stuff!!!!

And his kids...maybe wouldn't be such a big deal...but those are some fucked up kids. they, the ones who throw tantrums and left her bruised and bloody, beat on each other, don't listen, are racist, disgusting rednecks, whine all the time, and break shit all the time...

Man, I really don't like those kids. The oldest, I guess he's okay. He used to be really malicious, but now, he doesn't talk to me much like the rest of the family, but he does. So I don't mind him

The middle one, the boy, he's such a dick. I swear he's gay -not to be mean, it's just TRUE. and he's the worst one: violent, selfish, mean, gross...he's REALLY bad

the youngest, the girl...she's just destined to be a SLUT. she's your typical dumbass ditzy middle schooler, and can be very mean and violent and selfish herself.

But it was the middle one I beat the living SHIT out of because he called my sister, who he's never met, a "spic." (if you don't know, it's a derrogetory term for Hispanics...)

I love my sister. FAR more than I love him. I love my friends -mostly Mexican- FAR more than I love him.

So...I did the natural thing and beat his racist redneck ass til he cried. this was when he was, i believe, 14, and me 17. so this year.

Sorry but you insult my sister in front of me, and I'll beat your face in and then pull it out to beat it again

WOW!!! that sounded dirty.. **hearts**

sorry for that rant. I'm just pissed kinda

^^


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Friday, July 27, 2007

   I love the zoo!
I watched the Disney version of The Little Mermaid today; I haven't watched it in years. It's pretty cute, though. Sebastian and Max (the dog) are the best.

However, the "real" version of The Little Mermaid is, in my eyes, much more interesting. Basically, The Little Mermaid lives in the sea. She has 5 older sisters, and lives with her papa the Sea King, and grandma. When she turns 15, she'll be allowed to go to the surface and observe the humans and such.

Her sisters' tales of the surface enthrall her, so when she gets her chance, she sees a Prince and falls in love with him. She saves him after his ship is wrecked in a storm.

Though he never really wakes, he hears her enchanting voice singing as they wait on the beach near a temple. A girl from the temple finds the Prince and saves him.

The Little Mermaid returns to the sea, and is madly in love with the Prince. He, too, pines for the young girl who saved him. She asks her grandma if humans live forever if they don't drown, and her grandma replies, "No, they don't last as long as Merpeople. They die, though their immortal souls get to go to Heaven."

Merpeople live for 300 years, but when they die, they turn to sea foam and become nothing. The Little Mermaid deeply desires both the Prince and the Immortal Soul.

Finally, her desires drive her to visit the Sea Witch, who will fulfill her wishes. In exchange for legs, she takes The Little Mermaid's tounge. She needs a kiss from the Prince to gain an immortal soul -when the true love kiss happens, he gives part of his to her, and she has 3 days. If he won't kiss her, the dawn after he marries, The Little Mermaid will die.

Naturally, The Little Mermaid opts for the legs, which will cause her great pain to use. While the Prince loves her, he still loves the mysterious girl. Finally, he decides to marry The Little Mermaid, but before they wed, he is engaged to the neighboring kingdom's princess. Though he rejects it at first, when he finds out that the princess is really the girl from the temple, he does marry her.

Broken hearted, The Little Mermaid thinks she is going to die, miserable. However, her sisters exchanged their hair for a knife from the Sea Witch, and give it to their baby sister before dawn. With the knife The Little Mermaid must kill the Prince and will be able to live her life out naturally as a mermaid.

She loves the Prince too much, though, and cannot kill him, so she becomes sea foam. Instead of becoming nothing, though, she becomes an ethereal spirit. Other spirits tell her that because she desired so much an immortal soul, she will be able to earn one as a spirit. She has 300 years to earn her soul and go to Heaven.

heh. That's the story. I like it better.

call me what you will, but I like this song. In the original. Screw Ashley Tisdale. =P

I do like the English version kinda better, though...in some ways

Prince Eric is pretty gay, though, if you ask me.

I understand a lot of this. Regardless of the English bit. Cos I don't know what those words are @.@
Umi no soto ha subarashiithank you!
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Thursday, July 26, 2007

   it's not that, it's the other thing after that.
Hrm.

Just a clarification...First, 3 AM is not late for me; I generally go to sleep between 5:30 and 8 AM. Then wake up at 3 PM.

I have no clue what the dizziness was last night. My room was dark and the laptop light was drawing me in. Oh! Like Digimon... >.>

Anyway. Today was a draaaaaag...I slept all day, except for the part where I was rolling around in PAIN due to massive cramps. I wanted to gut myself. Generally doesn't happen to me, either.

Since I've not got anything to say...I'll give you pictures!

the nephew KEANU's 1st birthday




Senior Prank Day









Friends

Antonio and Alan


Alan's fat ass





My sister looking SCARY

Various!

my sweetie Lain...Miss INNOCENT. see the toilet paper on the floor? her. alll her.




my old dog Harry... <3


a pic I drew in 10th grade...of the boy from the tv series The Shining


my sleeping face >:O


wearing Antonio's hat trying to go to sleep


GREEN HAIR!!!!


MORE SEXY GREEN HAIR!!!!

okay then I'm off...take care!thank you!
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

   **blinks** the makeup remover outta my eyes
hahaha!!! I'm not even drunk and the whole room is spinning!!! Think it has something to do with the fact that it's 3 AM?

Ah. So what've I been up to?

Not freakin much!

But I've not felt like being online.

So today Antonio and I went to hang out downtown with Alan, Matt, and Matt's girlfriend. (i don't know her name; she's cool though)

there was almost a horrible accident. I can imagine the headlines already: "5 teens killed on 16th street mall today! struck by bus while blending into the dark filthy city streets."

We were some strange scene kids though. 4 punks smoking and 1 goth girl chewing gum. for 3 freakin HOURS on a bridge.

We had fun fighting and picking on each other, but it was stupid. The funniest part was...uhm...well nothing. it was pretty lame!!!

On Saturday, I picked up the last Harry Potter book. Not that I waited in line or anything stupid like that.

What happened was, I dreamed I got it and was reading the author's notes or whatever. I woke up thinking those notes really existed, and as they were quite interesting, I wanted the book

So I bought it. Of course, I had to manhandle EVERY book in Tattered Cover. They were in these piles, and I picked all of them up and flipped through them. Then, I decided to buy the first book I touched.

It took me almost EXACTLY 12 hours to read it, with breaks and eating and such time in that 12 hours. Not a hard read, to be honest. I had much of it figured out throughout.

I wish I had the balls to tell you more about it, but I don't want to ruin stuff for you if you haven't read it and want to. All I can say is, I was highly disappointed after all. It wasn't that it was BAD. it was just not the miserable outcome I wanted. damn.

even better, though...I FINALLY splurged and got a L'ame Immortelle CD!!!!!!!!! It's called....Lieder Die Wie Wunden Bluten **hearts**

crap, though! I want the greatest hits CD most of all. I'd cry of so much joy if I had that in my hands. Just imagine how happy I'll be to hear it!!!!!!

crap crap. Uhm. I should say something anime related...uh...**doesn't watch Anime much anymore**

oh okay!!! got it!!! The Samurai Deeper Kyo volumes are coming out really fast this year...there's been one in July, and there will be again in September. I dunno if it's because there are 38 volumes total, and they want to finish the series up or what, but I'm okay with that. Even though I've already read them several times.

In similar news, I want to know why the HELL it takes them so long to get Fruits Basket out???? is it cos it's so popular, they're on volume 17 (next) out of 23, or WHAT!!!! I got one volume in...March or April or something (all I remember is that it depressed me severely at the time), and the next one is out in August.

damn. Again, though, I've read all the volumes...heh.

I like spoilers too much.

sorry if i don't get to your site or something!


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
ain't that the truth!

there's another funny one but it's too offensive. I don't like making fun of people who are born mentally or physically handicapped...

so in that case


LMAO!! BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!! she's got no excuse!!!!!!!!!!!!! NONE!!!

except that her head's so far up her reproductive organs that it's coming out her neck. but still...she's the one who doesn't know how to close her legs or turn down the bottle.thank you!
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Thursday, July 19, 2007

   damn you job!
not Job, job. jobs. job hunting! DAMMIT!!!

I take over an hour to go to Target, in the HOT FREAKIN' SUN! then I sit in their stupid employee lounge for 20 minutes. I finally get interviewed -late. It's looking like I'll get the job. I get a second interview, wait around another 40 minutes. Get into there, and she tells me BAM! no job. Why? because I'll be leaving.

My mom wants me to get a job, but she first takes me to Indiana, when i should have been working. Then, the one opportunity i might have had for a decent job, even if it was far, she shoots down because Antonio might be working there too.

This is a total pain in the ass. I'm lying on my next application. And if I STILL don't get a job, fuck it. I quit. not like it'll do me good to work for a week.

oooh but my mom just brought me a rice crispi treat...yummy.

I'm such a fat ass.

blah.

HA! my mom was saying she had to walk 4 blocks to get the bus stop today. **rolls eyes** we LIVE 4 blocks from either bus stop. So I walked that twice today. Plus about an hour in the BAKING HOT FREAKING SUN trying to find the correct bus to get back home.

Oh. Let's talk about hair! My current...uhm...dolly (it looks like that to me), Miyavi-esque hairdo is great. A little too BLONDE for me, so I'll dye it dark brown when I get ready to leave for OR.

But what has my hair been in the past? In 8th grade, it was purple-red, no bangs, and shoulder length.

9th grade, it was first mid-back length, no bangs, blondish, and permed. But my hair's so straight, it was barely wavy. Then, near the end of the year, I got bangs and dyed it dark brown.

10th grade I dyed it black. then purple. Then bright red. then hot pink. after which it turned orange. By the way, I had bangs and it was getting pretty long

11th grade. Hair had bangs and was waist-length or longer. It was dyed blue, i believe, at one point or another. Also black. Then, i got stupid and chopped it all off into my barely shoulder length hairdo. plain-jane!

12th grade: beginning of year, shoulder length...BRIGHT GREEN HAIR. Not just...a little green. Green as a tree. or a snake. it wasn't lime at first, more of an emerald green. Then it paled and turned silver-green. Then i dyed it dark brown. later i tried to dye it blue again, but failed and it turned blonde. Dark brown, and now it's blonde again.

What's next for my hair? Only time will tell. I wish I could do the green again, but I'm trying to get my hair back to its normal color and healthier.

But I REALLY miss the green, and I REALLY miss the being super long.

oh man that was cool. It was all...not fluffy, but it hung in tendrils and would be kind of wavy because I wore it in braids all the time.

I'll scan a green hair pic for you one of these days


for now, be satisfied with my flaming pink roots, which fade into a deep pink-black. this was 10th grade, where I was wearing my robe while playing marbles with my sister.

Don't I look intelligent??? (i miss that hair **glomps it**)


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

questions
1.) Is home cooking or eating out better?

2.) What fad is your favorite?

3.) What channel can you not STAND to watch?
thank you!
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

   IT'S UDON!!!!!!! MY LOVE!!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY!!!!!
I got some instant Udon -the kind I have to boil and that doesn't come in a bowl itself- today!! I'm so glad, I was totally OUT!!! That's the only food I can eat when I don't feel like eating.

See, every now and then, I will just NOT feel like eating, even if I'm really hungry. It makes me mad, cos I LOVE to eat, and then I'm hungry. But I want to puke if I do eat! grah!

But I was almost in tears I was so happy. Even though I have the kind I make myself. I just hate making the broth. Anyway. Enough about the Udon!

Today went to the mall! I got 2 pairs of LOVELY shoes!!! They're skater shoes, but I have big feet, so they look good (they're more blunt than pointy)

Also got a backpack. And..um...well, a ton of junk for college, a new stereo since my old one's busted and my mom wants me to make a tape.

I bought this CD from a band called Paramore. Severly disappointed. I thought they would be more...faster? livelier? angrier? they're angry, I guess. but WAY too emo!!!!! @.@ I like Smashing Pumpkins, even though they're emo. I guess they aren't always BITCHY though.

I still like the song "Misery Business."

Tomorrow I have an appointment at 1 for a job interview at Target. Heh. It's FAR. I hope I get the job. But i'd prefer the one at the theatre. Not that I care.

argh. I hope Antonio doesn't want to sneak out @.@ I'm TIRED!!!

oh. AND this is the greatest victory for me yet:
I HAVE UNLIMITED TEXTING NOW!!!!!!!!
The all-time text geek is BACK! even though I write words out, usually. and use punctuation.

I'm so happy. I love texting cos I can tell people stuff without CALLING them. and waking them up.

Oh. He says he'll sneak IN.

I'M bloody tired.

But I'm really excited for college. Even though I'm going to miss my sister and Antonio and my mom and my nephews and friends a BUTT LOAD I still need to get out on my own.

Seriously. I make good choices when left to my own devices. Well, except for the cutting thing. That's dumb. But when I'll only have to please myself (ew! not like THAT), I won't wind up so pissed.

It's more a pissed thing than a sad thing. I don't do it "to feel." I feel plenty. Usually, it happens when the angry bloody boils and i can't calm the fuck down, no matter what I do.

Anyway. When I can do my own thing, it usually involves absolutely nothing. The tv, the computer, reading. I'm so lame! But i do LOVE to go for walks.

That's gonna be nice, especially if it's rainy **hearts** I'm so excited for school!!!!!!!!

^^ see???? I can be positive too!!!

are you shocked???

**hearts** text me!!! bwahahahahaha! if you want...I'm just in love with having texts back!


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


questions
What is...
1.) the genre of music you find yourself listening to currently?

2.) the last thing you wasted $10 on?

3.) that?!?!?!?!?thank you!
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Monday, July 16, 2007

   ohp there goes gravity, ohp there goes M&M he sucks but who cares
ah! Everything is fine again!

hee hee! "In Heaven...everything is fiiiine!"

I love that movie <3

anyway. Antonio called like "yeah come over come over!" to Alan's, which is really close.

So. We had a barbeque at 4 in the morning. ^^ those guys are so funny! And I guess Jason doesn't hate me after all. He even gave me a ride home.

Sunday sucked because we had to walk a long ways, but oh well. it can't be helped when you're licenseless, moneyless, and the buses aren't running.

In a few, we're going to go to Twist and Shout, a music store. yay!

and I'm not feeling too sick!! haha!

questions
1.) What's your favorite store?

2.) When's the last time you snuck out of your house?

3.) Are you on the neat side, or messy side?


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.netthank you!
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