Wednesday, July 4, 2007

   and chingo de dinero cos you know i'm a star
hee hee. I don't have chingo de anything. really. Well, maybe messes. Blah.

Happy Independence Day, Americans!!! to be honest, this isn't my favorite holiday, because people just use it as an excuse to do stupid fireworks and get drunk. that isn't patriotic, it's just dumb. not that i don't ADORE fire (and fireworks)

But, anyway, Happy Independence Day!!!!

picture time!!!


Mr. Raccoon, a youngster I found in the backyard


Keikoku Fish, my new pet Beta (yes, i am scared of fish)


My bunny, Spookie ^__^ cuteness (he's grumpy though)


My Grandma's kitty Callie!!! very cute, she cries a lot. if you talk to her, she tries to have a conversation.


My Grandpa's bratty 20 pound wimp-kitty, Socks. very cute pose, on my mom's bed.


oh no! It's Alan, on the phone with Leila, with a brown nipple hanging out =X Matt and I tried to send it to him, but his phone doesn't get pics. his ripped shirt xD


"Empowerment Through Exotic Dance, LTD." Stripper classes, basically!!! i found this one in Illinois in a family restaraunt.


and...me! haha, a pic I took when we were in Indiana. I was seeing how my new glasses look. Not bad, but EMO. I like the other pair better, but i'm saving them for college. My grandparents' house is more cluttered than mine. Look at that fake-ass smile, too.

anyway, take carethank you!
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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

   ohhh my vagina!!!
I've just realized much of mine, my sister's, and my friends' vocabulary entails horrible curse words, and body parts.

Today, Tamara (sister) and I went to Elitch's, the amusement park formerly a 6 flags. Forgive me, but I DO NOT like amusement parks, at least not ones i've been to a thousand million trillion times, that costs $45 a ticket, and you can't get ANYTHING else cheap, either. fuckin' $8.65 for a 6 inch sub from subway and a medium drink.

we had fun, I suppose. We met up with her friend Aleece (Ah-leeze) whose name I can't spell. She was very small, very pretty (she looked like Cassie from The Vincent Black Shadow), and nice. She brought her friend who was also very nice, but one of those people who cares about stuff **rolls eyes** I'm just kidding. It's good to care about things, as long as you're going to do something for it. if you just bitch about it, then you're a hippie.

and I dislike hippies.

Right now I'm soooo tired. and sore. at least i didn't get burned. yes.

It sucked, tho, that Tamara couldn't go swimming. We would have had soooo much more fun. Our very favorite thing is the Lazy River in the water park. What do we do? Get inner tubes (you have to) and chase each other the whole way down, trying to beat each other up be it from scratching, clawing, biting, squeezing, or anything.

we've always fought rough. we're just tomboyish like that. i took some pictures, but they have to get developed, so... :P

anyway. nothing else to say. ki wo tsukete!!!!!!thank you!
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Sunday, July 1, 2007

   does it never end?
man. Today, I went to see Ratatouille or however you spell it. It wasn't bad; first time I've been to a kid's movie since either Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, or The Corpse Bride. I forget which. Unless you count 'The Invisible," or "Disturbia," both crappy movies that I saw this year.

(But in a small way, I liked "The Invisible." that chick was bad ass. And skinny. I laughed often at that emo movie.)

also, I hung out at the mall, by myself of course. I like to be by myself, honestly. Bikkurishita!!!!!!!!!! A few weeks ago, I bought Samurai Deeper Kyo vol. 22 (eigo de...) and then today! BAM!!!! Right there, lots of editions of Samurai Deeper Kyo vol. 23!!! I was like WTF because I thought 22 had just come out. Nonetheless, I snatched it up and bought it, with my mom's credit card.

I think I owe her $200 or so. :(

I snatched it like there was no tomorrow.

After that, I met my dad in Target and we went to eat at this fancy seafood place. The funniest thing... xD!!!!!! A guy was picking out which lobster he wanted...and one of them was getting PISSED!!!!!!! its antenae were waving, and it was shaking its pinchers at him, attacking the glass. I laughed.

Antonio called, too. I love him, but it makes me sad when he's with his friends, drinking. I know they invite me, but first of all, i really don't like his friend's girlfriend (she's a bitch whore) and second, I really don't like to drink like they do.

It hurts that he calls me, then doesn't talk to me. He talks to his friends. He laughs with them like he doesn't laugh with me, and jokes with them like he doesn't with me. Also, I asked him "What are you doing?" He said "reading," and that slutty whore, in the background, says, "you liar!!!"

It really pisses me off. I've felt like shit all fucking weekend, I've felt all depressed for 4 fucking years and I WAS better and now i'm getting there again and it pisses me off.

this turns even more into some pissed off, emo rant, so i'm ending it herethank you!
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Saturday, June 30, 2007

   damn i'm stubborn
since I'm lonely bored and up late, I feel like explaining the story i WANT to write. I will, I promise.

I've had this idea for years! But I've finally found something that actually works.

The setting: A totalitarian future, along the lines of 1984. The nations of the world have melded into 2 super-nations that are at war with each other. Each side calls the other "the enemy" and themselves "us." Overpopulation, famine, poverty, crime, and environmental disregard are rampant.

The story: It revolves around a pair of twins, Maren and Marlo. They're girls (i can't help it, i love strong women cos there are so few), about 18. They aren't particularly special, except for their bond with each other. While Marlo is the meeker of the two, she feels closer to Maren than Maren does to her.

As the war accelerates, humanity begins to destroy itself. There are nightwatchers, governmental cops who enforce curfews and kill dissenters. Maren and Marlo do survive, and protect their nephews Porter and Eden. (i like weird names)

Government fails, and anarchy reigns. In the lawlessness, humanity's true darkness takes over, and, to survive "bad things" have to be done.

Marlo steps up as the stronger of the two, despite her more feminine and shy personality. She does ANYTHING to protect herself, her nephews, and most of all, Maren. She will do ANYTHING for her sister.

However, Marlo begins to fall into the violence, and though she never truly emnbraces it, when she begins to forget to feel guilty, Maren begins to feel uncomfortable. Marlo remains ever devoted to Maren, but Maren begins to pull away.

Nonetheless, the sisters raise their nephews. Maren gets married, and leads a fairly civilized, normal life, similar to that before the End. Marlo, so warped by her alienation and violence, only knows love for her sister, and has only lovers, no children.

The end of the story, i know but i don't want to say yet ;)

I'll put pictures and such up later. now i have to go to bed.thank you!
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Friday, June 29, 2007

   I see skies are blue, and clouds are white, and elitches charges up the butt-y
I might as well write a bit...my dad's computer is slow as shit and this page is actually up.

so what has Sasaya been up to of late?

since returning...not much. last friday I went out with Antonio and his friends, to their apartment near my dad's. It was fun, I suppose. Didn't do much. Those guys are total alcoholics.

hrm. last weekend went fishing. caught nada but had a nice hike.

Tuesday went downtown with my best friend Mayte and met up with Marichan, and then we went to see Dulce-chan, my wife, who got run over and a broken foot poor thing

and...oh, I bought Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge 12 the day it came out. ALSO! i FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! saw Eraserhead!!!

it was sooo good!!!! I love the confusing kind of films or books, non linear.

"In heaven~ everything is fiiiine~" that radiator girl was cool.

I liked it!!!!!!!!


go see it. it's a cult film. but it's cool.

nothing much to say. I'm my own woman.

My dad ALWAYS says "You gotta stop watching cartoons. What are people gonna say when you're a college student and still watch cartoons?"

and I always reply, "Well, I don't CARE what they think or say, because they don't matter to me. It's none of their business, and i don't CARE if people like me or not."

it's true. I'm happier being me than trying to please someone else. and...I'm really, REALLY independent Those girls in my class last year, they think they're independent. But they can't walk 1/2 a mile to Jamba Juice alone, and they can't go to the college they want because they won't know anyone there. Pssh.

Or else i'm a loner? it really could be true. I like to be alone.

stupid tv. I ABHOR those fucking stupid ass people who think that germs are the end of the world. they buy all these damn disinfectants and shit, it's like!!!!!! graaaaaaah!!!!!!! don't worry so much. if you get a cut, wash it out with hot water and soap. it's simple, and it WORKS. if you need to clean or seriously kill bacteria, use vinegar.

secret to cleaning with vinegar: wipe a little on the spot, let it dry. the acid will kill the bacteria. it works great on wounds too.

and all these people so damn concerned with looks. bah. i don't care if i'm pretty or ugly, really. and i don't care too much if you are. i like who i like because of who they are. and that's why i hate them

oooh on tuesday, Mayte and I were talking about tattoos. we both want one, and for similar reasons. Both of us are stubborn, and we both really like instant gratification. If we regret our tattoos...well, that'll be something to worry about when the time comes. for both of us, getting a tattoo isn't about being badass or rebelious, but expressing ourselves. plus, i really can enjoy pain.

i want my lip pierced, too. like Antonio's friend Matt has.

why is everyone or their brother named Matt???

damn.

i'm too spazzy right now. toodlesthank you!
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Sunday, June 24, 2007

   ffish


bwahahathank you!
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

   it liiiiiiives!!!!
I'm baaaaaaaaaaack~!!!!!!!!!! and oh so happy to be home...home!!!!

because i have some cousins that are SO damn racist, and I can't STAND racism

and because my grandpa talks too much.

and because it's HOME!!!! with my kitties and puppies and bunny!!!!!!! and internet.

I seriously thought i was gonna be in indiana ALL summer ><

ok, if you didn't know, we went to take care of my grandma, who'd been in the hospital due to heart problems, an infection, blood problems, and other illness.

well, she had her heart catherization the day after we left, to see what was going on in there.

found out that she did indeed have a problem with her blood vessel, BUT her body had responded and made 2 new ones to take its place. best news possible, since she was too week for heart bypass surgery anyway.

yeah. so she came home on monday...not of this week, last week. we stayed to help take care of her and get her settled with her new diet and medicine and all...

I don't think I helped a whole lot...mostly, I did a LOT!!!!! of laundry (i think it was like 4 loads a day), and also helping my mom cook (I don't know how to cook "country kitchen" style food very well), and doing a buttload of dishes, cleaning a little bit, and taking care of their pets...

Last thursday, my cousins and uncle and I went to the lake...i almost got bit by a blue gill fish, and if i did, i'd've died! scared of fish. i also got roasted because i fell asleep on the sand while the rest of them went fishing...and i watched some gay guy hit on my cousin (who i think is gay, but i won't say anything about it anymore), got called fat by my cousins, and got kicked in the ribs by my cousin

but it wasn't too bad ><

i'm soooo freakin' tired. i had caffine in coffee and soda and tea and such monday on the ride back, and...well, i am NOT used to that much caffine, and it made me sick :(

my sunburn is peeling now. i hate the stupid bathing suit because it goes real LOW on my, and I had boobs everywhere on the beach. i should've thought to wear a t-shirt ><

right now my cat is falling asleep purring next to me...awwwwwwwww!!!!!!! **squeezes**

my brain is so dead, i can't write any more right now...dunno how many sites i make it to, i'll try...take care y'all!!!!!thank you!
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Thursday, June 7, 2007

   i feel like i work in a damn kinko's
i just spent 25 minutes scanning pictures to put up here. so i expect LOTS! of comments!! ;) just kidding, almost no one ever comes here...I'm a total loser!!!

but the people who do come...I LOVE YOU! **blows kisses** (even though I do that at everyone)

sheesh. even on the internet i'm unpopular...

I am fine with being super uncool. and unpopular, come to think of it, what with mass suicides, brainwashing, cults...emo!!!!! i should take pictures with my glasses...but not now.

alright. now the slideshow. well. not SLIDESHOW. just pictures

the awards dinner of DOOM


Antonio took this. He said "look sexy" and then he puts his finger in front of it T.T


Grandma's face, me leaning over to Antonio, Antonio covering his face. lmao!!! i licked a piece of 2007 confetti and stuck it to my face, even if you can't tell


Zak, Maribel, John! signing the flags...Marichan looks SOOOO small


Dulce's mommy, and Dulce(she's my wife). don't they look alike?


Deisy, looking really pretty!


Mayte is stupid!!! but so am i!!! i look like a piggy xD


Mayte, lookin' smokin' hot


why the fack are you following me???

graduation!!!


Uncle Jeff, me, Aunt GailMarie


a hobo!!!


there's antonio, looking like John Wayne Gacy's dream boy (jk)


I can't believe someone took a picture of us doing this xD (my sis and i)


me and my mommy...she's 5' and i am 5'5" plus i have high heels on...and a crazed look in my eye


nerdy shot of my sis and i


Dulce and our lovechild!!! just kidding!!! it's her rockin' 6 year old cousin, Sebastian!!!

there!!! enjoy it? lol!!!

uhm...nothing much else to say. we're leaving here probably about 10, instead of 5 (in the morning BTW) and it is 2:10 am. I REALLY hope my mom goes to sleep soon, cos i can't drive and she must be tired...**scared**

toodles and take care!!!!thank you!
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

   why am i still here?
not a question on life or anything.

Are you curious? i bet you are!!!

well. it's because my grandma started getting a bit better, so my mom decided to take an additional day to get stuff at home around.

It's good because it gave me and Antonio the chance to watch DISC 1 of RENO 911 season 3, Hannibal Rising, Gacy, and Ed Gein...

Reno was, of course, hilarious, and Hannibal was pretty funny, too...for example, when he's threatening one of the guys who killed and ate his sister, by saying "I'll give you your children safe for the return of Lady Murasaki" and the guy tells him where the main baddie is, then Hannibal lets him call his wife, and tells her to check on the kids...she does it and comes back, "Yeah...they're fine, sleeping in their beds... o.O" also, when Hannibal mentions he WENT into the kids' rooms, gives him his sister's bracelet, and then pulls out a pillowcase with a hunk of bloody meat, he says, "Here, something for your oven."

the guy freaked out, and Hannibal just looks at him and says, "It's a beef roast."

xD!!!!!!! that's sooo funny!!!! if i were a serial killer (no chance) i'd fuck with people like that too. it's like, "Here's your husband, you SLUT!!!" then she freaks out and I start laughing and she gets all pissed. I just tell her, "Ahahahaha! just playing! Your husband is fine...I sent him to get me some burritos. what kind do you want?" she'll stare at me like WHAT THE FUCK. then i'll give her a VEGGIE burrito, and she shall die because a burrito without meat is like a radio with just commercials.

anyway. NEVER WATCH GACY!!!!!!!!! it's so freaking boring...how can anyone make the story of a man who kills 30+ people and burries them in his basement, and sodomizes men, and yells at his wife cos she finds out he's gay, BORING??? Ed Gein wasn't too BORING, just really REALLY stupid. Imagine a horror flick crossed with a super cheezy soap opera >< **death**

anyway. We leave around 5 am tomorrow...

yeah. I have some really funny stories dealing with virginity, but i'll post them later.
thank you!
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007

   BLAH!!!! read it, 'tis important
this sucks. My grandma is up and down, so my mom and i are driving out there tomorrow, and coming back i-don't-know-when. if you don't know, we're LEAVING Wednesday, coming back...sometime

**sighs**

I HATE DRIVING which is why I will not be participating in it, just riding.

my mom bought a new lawnmower because our old one was fucked...antonio took it tho, maybe his dad can fix it.

-.- and i have to go pack, go pull weeds, pick up my new glasses (YAY!!!!!!!!!!)...

one pair of my new glasses is kinda abstract shaped with black and bright green plastic rims
the other pair is your typical black emo glasses.

there was this pair of round red ones that looked good on me, but they cost waaaaaaaay too much.

also, if you're wondering about my old glasses...well...the eye doc this time told me...THE PRESCRIPTION WASN'T HIGH ENOUGH for them in the first place, so "no wonder I wouldn't wear them."

I barely got glasses like 2 years ago, when I complained to my mom that my eyes suck and she finally gave in...

...but I really should've gotten glasses in 8th grade, so about...4.5 years ago. I TOLD the eye doc I couldn't see the board at school, and she said, "well, maybe it's the colors they use. have you tried sitting closer?" X( idiot!!!!! yes!!!!

my poor eyes...they have cool colors in them, too. i hate glasses, but i like seeing. a fair compromise?

anyway. I must be off...things to do, ya know??? I should only be away like a week and a half (my grandparents won't get internet), so...worry about my grandma, but me too!!! i keep thinking something like the Texas Chainsaw Massacre is going to happen (i watch too many gorey movies)...although. my cousins and I made the Indidana Chainsaw Massacre, cos my grandparents' house is full of wicked cool weapons and tools... xD kid friendly place, after all.

toodles!!!!!


shmetard pose

typical julie (that'd be moi)thank you!
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