Sunday, September 4, 2005

   a fun little thing


that is one cool picture. a "whodunnit" sort of thing... whoever gives me the best answer on who killed the bunny and how gets a prize

ummm not much to say, again

but remember my obsession? not the NIN one, the other one. i'm obsessed again. oh well.

i want a tattoo of the NIN logo (you know, with the backwards N) on my chest. you know where.

or just anywhere will do. because NIN is the best.

Skinny Puppy is cool, too, though. who wants to send me NIN love?

oh, and earlier, i had lovely conversations with Dymond Heart. over the telephone. i was eating dinner and watching that movie Splash, when the phone rang. I answered it, and he asked if i was busy, i said no, even though i was. it was funny. sort of. that's a cool kid, there. ^__^

well, till the time changes, enjoy some pics







if i ever have a baby, i hope it's a kitten. OMG! i could be pregnant, then not let my husband (assuming i have one) in while i'm in labor. then, when he comes to see the baby, show him a handful of newborn kittens! ^__^thank you!
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Saturday, September 3, 2005

   NINE INCH NAILS!

there! another bunny pic...if only Mr. Reznor were a bunny...then I could legally keep him in a cage! **ahem cough ahem**

anyway, i'm Obsessed all over again with precious NIN. Whether you like it or not, it's up to you, but thou shalt not insult Trent Reznor in my presence. or Nine Inch Nails. pity the soul that does. **GRRR** well, here. links!

Trent Reznor.
NIN.
images.
1999 article from Rolling stone.
Official NIN myspace.
NIN official.

he's in Japan!
he's super smexy, especially for a guy old enough to be my father! :D

TRENT REZNOR AND NINE INCH NAILS! ga daisuki da yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thank you!
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   otousan wa Europe ni ikimasu yo!


yay! my dad is going to europe today! he should be there...sunday, lol. but he likes Ukraine, so goody for him.

meh. not too much to say. i'm just sorta bored, and i have to clean up cat and dog poop. zippy!

well, if NIGHT's not busy or anything, i might go over or drag her over. fun stuff, y'know?


wow, i really have nothing much to say.


what's your favorite story and why?thank you!
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Thursday, September 1, 2005

   down guilt trip path once more


that's cute. i wonder what the bunny is telling the baby? (korose! korose!)

today...i went with my friend to show support to her sister/friend (a boy) who is head of the JV football team. it was their game. our school lost by a lot. it was really gay. and I hate freshmen. some of them anyway. the ones who think they're all badass because they're finally in High school.

like, this fat little white girl whore. I'd gotten bored, so i bought chalk and was drawing on the sidewalk, when she and her bitchy friends got all prissy "omg, what's she doing with chalk? what is she, four?"

i was like, "excuse me? i'm not the one with 'go west! 2009! west west west' written all over my face, which thank God isn't as ugly as YOURS"

duck. ducking little ditches. if you put a d instead of the first letter in a swear word, it's amazing. dhit. drap. duck. ditch. dastard. it only doesn't work with vick. which you can guess what that is.

but i accidnetally wrote "Gina wuz herre" with the chalk, and now that i think about it, it could look wrong...oops

well, have a fabtastic day. yeah, rightthank you!
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

   i'm at school


yeah, read teh title. I hate this. must be aware of teacher.

so, i continue my study of the goths

remember this Goths.

that's one resource. stupid homeworrk.

hrm...

well, people can't drive. they block the intersection, or turn right in the left turn lane. i hate that those bastards

glad you guys like the new look. ^__^

stupid thing, looks so plain. daijoubou. hee hee

sooo ummm...what else to say?

these keyboards suck and i am paramanoid.

hey, do you ever wake up crying? (i do. what the hell kind of dreams bother me? because last night, it was raspberry cake)

well, anyway,this is hard, my head hurts, no it doesn't, and the teach caught me. laterthank you!
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Monday, August 29, 2005

   demon bunnies


yes. i was very bored, so i turned my site's theme. if you don't like the stupid emo song, turn down your speakers. I like it because he sounds like a chick, and androgenous people are wonderful. (seriously, I have a "boy who looks like girl" fetish. not FOR them, but of them. i want to play dress up. :p)

anyway, not much to saaaaay. go to Majosha's site. quite and interesting post about SPAM today.

i'm sorry, i have no life. but that was crazy...

also, Steptoussai makes a very good point about stupid fanfic-ers.

ummmmmmm yeah. i'm hungry again. have a great day!thank you!
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Sunday, August 28, 2005

   read the first 4 paragraphs, if nothing else


that's a neat looking bunny. i want to pet it.

so, whatcha beeen up to? me not much. reading Memoirs of a Geisha and it's a really sad, heartbreaking book. poor girl! in some ways, though, it's kinda bad, though I can't put my finger on why.

also, i've been watching Neon Genesis Evangelion. It's pretty good. Episode 5 is crazy. I can't believe Rei didn't get mad that he stomped into her apartment, oggled her, fondled her, and won't stop pestering her. plus, that Shinji won't stop crying. it's like, "STFU!"

anyway, I won a Saiyuki fanart contest for NIGHT's club. I was the only one who entered, but still! I WON BY DEFAULT! haha! oh, and the pic is up in my fanart. it's nataku, but not very good. hee hee

you should join NIGHT's club, for real. just send her a pm. she probably won't bite you if you say you wanna join. and if you don't know about Saiyuki, PM her anyway. just say you want to learn. there's only like 5 people in her club, so...>.> please Join!

Thursday, my mom didn't feel so good. she said it was because she ate the chicken pot pie, which made her sick on monday, too, but I think it was more because thursday was the 5 year anniversary since her little brother died in a motorcycle accident.

did I ever tell you about my uncle, Ted? He was kind of messed up. He'd experimented with bad..drugs, had been an alcoholic, drank too much, and did a lot of stupid shit. however, he was trying to become better. he was a nice guy, i guess. i was only like 11 when he died.

in case you didn't know, i don't really get along with anyone in my mom's family. My younger cousins like me, (Carrie, who's 14, Nick, who's...12? and Mare, who's...10?) a lot. they always hang out by me and love for me to play with them and tell them stories. they used to drive me nuts because Nick and Mare, who are sibs, tried to kill each other, and Carrie and me were just like "uhhh"

but yeah. My aunt, uncles, and their spouses are ok, most of em, i guess. they don't really like me or talk to me or anything. Aunt Gail Marie talks to me the most, but she's really condescending and ignores me after I talk to her.

My older cousins, with the exception of Brian, don't talk to me at all. And Brian doesn't really, only because he and I like anime. yeah, the rest of them kind of ignore me all together.

and don't get me started on my grandma. she called me a bastard, so what does that tell you? it's funny, that whenever she calls, and will talk to my mom, she won't STFU, but with me, it's "hi, how are you? that's good, I'm good, well, goodbye" My grandpa is just so out of it, it doesn't matter. he's never been mean to me, though. just likes to send me guns and ammo magazines

you know how I said my little cousins used to get on my nerves? well, i'd tell my grandma to make them leave me alone, and she goes, "well, they like you so much and they hardly ever get to see you! blah blah blah just deal with it. they never get to see you"

so I told her "well, you guys never get to see me, either. Not you, or grandpa, or my aunts or uncles or cousins, but none of them ever wants to spend time with me. nor do i have to talk to them, so is that saying you guys don't like me?"

she didn't say anything, so then I left, and was about to jump off the roof (it's a 3 story house) but my lil cousins grabbed me and locked me in the closet until I was calm.

anyway, Ted wasn't any different, really. nice enough, but quiet to me. he let me alone, but didn't ignore me if i was around. I remember the last time we visited him

we were visiting IN, and he was showing us around and showing us all this stuff he had planned about for after he died. then, like 2 days later, my uncle Lloyd called and said "have you heard?" then it was like "about what?" and blah blah blah, he's been in an accident.

we rushed to the hospital, and then i couldn't go see him. my mom took me to my cousin Carrie and Nolan's house, then we were hanging, then my uncle died.

it tore my mom apart, and my grandparents. and his son, i think it really fucked him up, because since then, he's had a lot of times where he's nearly gotten killed, like by alcohol poisoning.

and yeah, it bothers them a lot. is it wrong that i didn't cry? my grandma tried to guilt me into crying, but since i didn't, they wouldn't let me sit with the family. i don't blame them, but it was hard seeing them all crying so much.

anyway, it doesn't bother me now, but it bothers my mom a lot. sad, ne?

bah. i wasted a lot of time, sorrythank you!
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Thursday, August 25, 2005

   dammit all


this must be quick, gotta go to bed SOON

anyway, school is hard, and it feels like a fucking waste of time. Sorry, but it's true. damn...once this stops printing, I gotta go...

damn, i hate homework. i got a 2/5 on this one paper because i repeated myself, but hopefully my new edition is better

are you scared of people? I am. in real life, I have a hard time forcing myself to communicate properly

and wouldn't it be awesome to go on brat camp? they'd be like "so, jessie, bobby, timmy, and julie are going home by christmas"

everyone else: yay!
me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU CAN"T MAKE ME LEAVE **ties self to tree** ooo bear

if you just had to write a 15 page research paper, what would it be on?
thank you!
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

   still feeling crummy


cute...><

so, guys! just a few things!

please keep LordSesshomaru's brother in your thoughts/prayers because he's going into survival training soon...

and also, not much to say. Just sniffling, sneezing, coughing, gotta clean a bunny cage, and sleep. damn you corporate america!

school is tiring. I need NIN...yes, NIN is the smex...**strokes Trent Reznor's arm**

Trent Reznor: What the fuck are you doing, weirdo.
Sasaya: I love you.
Trent Reznor: No you don't.
Sasaya: you're beautiful.
Trent Reznor:...

hey, what do you say when someone coughs?

and how do you tell someone the fuck you don't want to go to a movie. especially not the devil movie "exorcism of emily rose"














hey, if you had 4 wishes, or desires, whatever.

they were:
1.) wish for a cure to all disease
2.) someone to love you forever
3.) acceptance in the world
4.) safety for those you love most

and you want them all SOOO FREAKIN MUCH. Equally. but it's too much to ask, so you ask for only one. and you know that three of them are going to come true anyway (you don't know which ones)

which would you ask for? which would you forsake the others for?thank you!
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Monday, August 22, 2005

   sniper bastards


now the bunny's next job is a birdie

well, guys, your beloved little Sasaya feels sorta dead...or bad, anyway. OH THE PAIN! THE PAIN!

clenching my teeth to brace against the pain in my throat has made my poor jaw sore, and then there's the throat hurting so bad all night that I only half slept, and kept dreaming that I was telling Matsumoto-sensei: "Nodo ga itain desu" over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over. frustration!

all day it was the inability to talk, then perhaps Antonio is angry with me...oh well.

and today, I dressed super smexy too! wore that corset...>.> oh yeah.

i slept in 1st period and 3rd period, and people were kind enough to wake me at the end of the period.

oh, and in Japanese...damn. People are crazy. we had to write 10 sentences using "h/wa and desu" (wa goes after the 1st subject. it's written ha, but pronounced wa, so I just say h/wa) (and desu is a state of being verb. mainly is, are, or am.)

really simple sentences. for example: watashi wa juu roku sai desu. watashi wa Julie desu. Maako-kun wa urusai desu. neko wa kawaii desu. Mai-san no hon wa ii desu. you get the idea. it barely took me any time at all.

I turned it in, (my best sentence was watashi wa byouki desu or I am sick) and then had to help my fellow Japanese 3-ers because they forgot a lot of stuff. even tho I was sick and grumpy. I hate that.

anywho, not much to say now. considering visiting Tamara, and doing homework. damn. homework.

toodles!thank you!
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