Friday, October 8, 2004

   DAMMIT TO HELL AND BACK!!!!!!!!
shit. today was actually a good day, despite the fact that i am at my dad;s house and monkeys ate my cat.

Last night my mom had to work, and I didn't wanna go to my dad's or NIGHT's(no offense) so she let me stay home alone...a shock. and it was fun. I cut the mother fucker outta my arm. I'd forgotten the taste of blood, and when I cut myself, I'd forgotten the rush of unrelenting blood. I did slit my wrist, but not deep enough to cause any more damage than a scar. I cut "Anathema" onto my leg. mew. i think i was in a good mood because of the cutting.

anyway, today, i was so hyper, me and my friends had so much fun. lol. and that guy I like...**blush** he was staring at me... lol...from all the way across the room!!!!!!!! i wanna ask my 'friend' if he still likes me, and stuff...kyu. can you tell i've been freaking out about this? lol

can somebody tell me what their reaction would be to this scenerio? please? : you like a guy or girl a lot. you ask them out, and they tell you no because you guys don't know each other. then, 5 months later, you find out they like YOU now, even though you still don't know each other.

would you hate them for declining your offer? would you be mad for them being a hypocrite? or would you be happy? if you didn't have a bf or gf, would you settle for that person because you find them attractive?

PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

**pounds head on table** why did I say no? why???????????????????????????????????????????????

thank you!
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Wednesday, October 6, 2004

   mewlings are kawaii
anyway, please help with the previous post, now I'ma talk. just chatting with friends. good friends! lol

i'm worried about one who is abused by his rents and another who is having chest pains, and another who sounds depressed. I'm really worried! please pray for Isaiah, Francesca, and Tamara.

nyah. i love music. Some good lyrics are "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day(I was listening to the radio outside at night the other night, feeling really lonely, and this song started to play. it was so true to my mood, and my shadow was the only thing beside me) I'll put up lyrics soon.

also, what's that song that goes something like "your eyes will make me sad" or the guy is just remembering something sad and it's sad and good? i'll find it and put it up.

Killing an Arab is good too. I don't like the idea of killing an Arab. but the disclaimer says that it isn't about killing an Arab, it's that people do it, and justify it somehow, even if the Arab person was innocent. that hate exists. and Boys Don't Cry is really good too. I love The Cure.

you know that new song by A Perfect Circle? it kicks ASS. so does the NIN remake by AFI. i'll get lyrics up soon.

anyway, The Cure and APC beats pop punk ASS!!!!! WOOOOOthank you!
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   GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
I AM SO MAD AT MYSELF!!!!!!!!!! GEEZ, I'M STUPID!!!!!!! STUPID STUPID STUPID STUUUUUUPID!!!!!!!!!! DAMMIMT!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, maybe not MAD, well, yeah, but really EXHAPERATED. shit, i can't fucking....UGH!

that guy, Luis, or whatever. if it WAS him, who liked me in may and asked me out and i said no because i didn't know him. now i like him. i have no idea how he feels about me, but i'm leaning towards hate, detest, disgust, hurt, all them negative feelings. yeah. i still don't know him real well, and it would sound bad for me to ask him out...pluss, I'm too shy...

help me!!!!!!!!! *cries*thank you!
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Sunday, October 3, 2004

   mmm, rice crackers...
rice crackers taste good. mmm...but my teethe hurt...where's em si hsoJ? i feel lonely...

anyway. my friend and I, we're pretending that she's knocked up...and i get an im from my friend, A.) he says he's with her, and I was kind of surprised...but then B.) he says, "we had sex last night"
I know this is impossible because he lives in another state, but he's YOUNG! a whole YEAR behind us!!! well, it could have been cyber sex, but I doubt it. maybe he was lying anyway? well, I was like "HOLY SHIT" only not to his box, i said, "ooo, so YOU"RE the father! you best pay up!" anyway, creepy is as creepy does

glad to know that friend can be imperfect in the stupid mistake of a teenager that usually isn't life-threatening way! now, when she comes to her senses, she will know...>.> and I will be able to tell her "for shame" as she tells me...that guy used to "love me" btw, and I was like, "Nope, not happening! sorry! you're just a freind." perhaps I sound jealous but I'm not ok.

I'm not jealous, just shocked...>.> and ok, I want a bf now too... *cries** i'm as alone as moe the bartender!
thank you!
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Saturday, October 2, 2004

   ksdj

You would go on a date with KAMUI SHIROU. (X)


What Bishie would you date?
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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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You are Eiri Yuki, a romance novelist, and a bit of
an asshole! Your traumatic childhood has forced
you to reject other people.


Which Gravitation character are you? (Best if you've never seen the show! ^_^ )
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You are like the snow fairy, she is very beautiful,
she has the power to make things beautiful, but
She is sometimes quite selfish, and spends most
of the time she should be using her magic
staring at her self in the mirror. Other than
the fact that she is vain and selfish. She is
a nice person, when she IS actually using her
magic, her powers are great, and she is very
helpful. Well that's most of the tings about
the snow fairy, can you relate to some of them?
You probably can, because that is what this
quiz is for!


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Your mind is your weapon, you can do nearly
anything you think. you don't talk much, and
stay avay from people. I have this weapon, like
you, it is useful, but never think that you
can't do something, because then you won't be
able to!


What is your weapon? with anime pics !
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Fighting soul


~~**What is your soul**~~
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Brave, strong willed, loyal and passionate
You are a sprite of Fire. Full of passion, bravery
and spice you are the living embodiment of
fire. You are quite arrogant and think yourself
above most but that is made up for by; your
passionate ability to pursue your dreams, your
strong will and your powerful well skilled
ability for fighting. You are a natural leader,
people are somewhat drawn to you and see you as
someone to look up to but you only pay
attention to them if they are useful, your
equal or your superior. You are a very exciting
person to be near for you have a vast love of
adventure and battle. Fire is a symbol of
Passion if and when you choose to love you are
capable of beautiful, long lasting, devoted
love. You are quite wondrous!


.::=What type of mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Friday, October 1, 2004

   more quizes

How evil are you?

What would you look like as a Wolf by smimmary
Name:
Age:
Star Sign:
What you
Personality:	Depressed. And tired.
Mate?:	Blue
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Loner- you are a loner, you don't really enjoy
being around others, you would rather just sit
down and read a book instead of socializing
with others


What Kind Of Person Are You? (Great Anime Pics) (Girls Only)
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   nyao.
i'ma kitty. nyaaaaaaaaaao. aint i kawaii. anyway, this is just a shit-post. i wanna go outside. anyway, my friend miv is pretending to be knocked up. lol! so we spread the rumor. I WAS knocked up, but had a miscarriage. not something to joke about, but it's kinda funny because we aren't sluts, but pretend to have it. nyaaaaaaaao.

amidamaru! one piece! Halloweenies party!!! and I wanna see The Grudge! yay!!!!!!!!

Peace, Love, and Crabs. ~Joe's Crab Shackthank you!
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

   meh.
i feel sick. but today i made an ass of myself while we played improv. it was still fun.

urm. not much to say, so let me leave you with some depressing poetry:

Goth Girl Got Grin

A small smile, shrinking, sad
I impovise and invest in my own intuition.
There's three thoughts:
Death, deliverance, and direction
None of which i can pursue
All in black, i blend in
Unnoticed, uncertain, unshaken
By the reality of life
Nothing is real
All's a dream, and I'm not hurting

I seek for better days
When the girl in the mirror is someone I can stand
But for now she sickens me
I gag, though no bile will fall
A small black spot in the snow of the world
All I see is sad, even though I pretend
My pretending, my acting, like it's all ok
It's not. I'm so imperfect, so insecure, I fall into my evil

My faultful fantasy of fitting in,
I can forget it
I never will.
Always the outsider, always the trying
Can't kill the crowded thoughts of killing myself
How long must I drag myself down before
Before I can break free and die or be happy or both?
Wonder, will my act bring me joy...
I smile in the light, around you all
I laugh, i be who I used to be
But by myself, i'm too sad to breathe
My shiny blade falls into my unflinching flesh
The blood bubbles back, brooding and brazen
In the mirror, just for a moment, I'm someone i can stand.
And just for a moment,
Goth girl got grinthank you!
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Saturday, September 25, 2004

   thing

Ki-lin

A mythical being of Chinese mythology, comparable
with the western unicorn. Ki-lin personifies
all that is good, pure, and peaceful. It lives
in paradise and only visits the world at the
birth of a wise philosopher. The Ki-Lin is
said to walk on earth and on water. It never
drinks or eats dirty food or water. The Chinese
unicorn never treads on smaller animals below
its feet nor does it ever harm another living
creature. The Ki-Lin is the emblem for
exquisite goodness, longevity, grandeur,
endless compassion and great wisdom. According
to Chinese mythology, at the birth of Confucius
a Ki-Lin appeared and Confucius died soon after
a Ki-Lin was killed, he believed that his
writings would not proceed from the omen of the
death of the Unicorn.
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Which Chinese Mythological Being Are You?
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You..are definitely not a smile.In fact,if i asked
you to smile you'd probably punch me in the
face.You're angry and bitter about
something,but no one knows what because you get
violent when people ask questions.Sheesh.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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You are Vitakinesis. You are helpful and kind, you
are looking towards a bright future, you may
have been wronged in the past which brings out
a sadness that no one can understand. To right
that wrong that was done to you, you want to
help others so as they wont have to relive the
pain you once went through.


What magical power do you possess? (Chobits girl pictures) Still in progress
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~GREEN~
Your the crazy one. You like to have fun and do
outragous things. It's pretty outragous to die
your hair green,not like I have a proble.
You're funny,wild,silly and a joker. It seems
you make the wildest ideas.Hey,keep it
up.Rate^-^


What's your anime hair color? COOL PICS^-^UPDATED!!!
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   oh yeah!!!!
hey, hey, I just got a quizilla account! my UN is Sasaya, and here's my first quiz!!!! please please take it!!!


you are late because you forgot. oops. Better
write a note next time.


Why are you late? with anime pix
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