Wednesday, January 31, 2007

   stupid crappy computer
AFI LYRICS

"The Mother In Me"

Caught in a world that's plagued by something they call love.
A paradigm of illness
is the beast I have become.
The sights that I have seen could nearly bring me to my knees.
I've seen exactlty what it is I never want to be,
But I keep it deep inside myself.
It's within me.
Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me.
Last night I had the misfortune to see it all first hand.
"Evacuate the premises" was the innate first command.
What drives the need for all of this?
And will I ever understand?
Has someone failed to tell me of this master plan?
But I keep it deep inside myself.
It's within me.
Keep it deep within yourself and sink with me.

I had a nice post written, and it all went to hell cos my stupid computer froze. Add that to my patchy blue-blonde-brown hair, and you gotta...well, ok i'm always kinda mad, but RAWR!!!

Oh well. No place to start but from the beginning.

So, last week, this PIG of a girl, Lupe, comes in, Bitch about Mayte and I eating Chinese food without her. She's already eaten her lunch, but she still waddles over to eat OUR Lo Mein without asking.

Today, John ate a burrito. Then he ate some of her Chinese food. She came in BITCHING about it!!!! I was laughing my ASS off!!! Her comeuppance!!! Payback's a BITCH! She even said, "stupid john, he had his chipotle, and then he has to come over and steal my food! how RUDE" which is very nearly the same thing Mayte and I'd said last week.

haaa...that was the highlight of my day.

Oh, and BIG NEWS!!! The word "Retarded" is being replaced with "Sophomoric" when used to describe people who are acting stupid. Because "Retard" is such a hurtful word, It's TIME to spread the replacement around...

SOPHOMORIC!!! and instead of retard, Sophomore!!!

again, payback's a bitch.

My mom and I were talking about College today...I am sad about it, in some ways, but I'm probably going to Portland State...We'll see... =\

My friend, Marichan, is very "sick" right now...She's been depressed, and she's cutting again. She's even a little suicidal, i think. I know she WANTS to live, but I want her to get over this. No one should kill themselves, and she's no exception. I can't say she's too important, because that implies that a person of less or no importance to me is worthless, which isn't true. I just see her as having too much potential to change the world for the better.

Have you ever heard of Doctors Without Borders? I think it's a great program!!! Spoiled people, like most Americans, get to thinking that life is the same everywhere, or that American lives are the most important. I disagree; it doesn't matter WHAT nationality you are; everyone's human and deserves decent medical care. No nation is more important than another.

I feel that I am very lucky to be an American, and be so blessed with freedom and opportunity, but I still feel that many Americans are not doing their part to improve the lives of others, be they American or otherwise. It's the Honest-to-God-Truth that most Americans only care about themselves and getting richer and more powerful. Look at these companies, like WalMart or HomeDepot, where the CEO's make MILLIONS and MILLIONS of dollars, while the basic worker doesn't make enough to make ends meet. And the foreign workers get paid even LESS. They're just taking advantage of people to make themselves "happier."

I read something recently that said MOST American teenagers' #1 dream is to be rich. The most common definition of "Success" is riches. And they're all being spoiled.

With me, I think "Success" is being happy with your life, and treating others right. You have to try your best at whatever you do, but it doesn't mean "rich" to me. For example, you could be dirt poor, but you could be a success because you raised your kids into caring, respectful people. And being a good parent is a more important success than being rich, I think.

Anyway, I'm too opinionated :) And Doctors Without Borders is a wonderful program. Were I a medical person, I'd join it in a heartbeat!thank you!
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