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Friday, February 16, 2007
where's the smilie with the x over his mouth, like =X
anyway, today was a bad day. I could not catch a break. My friends weren't really bitchy, but Antonio and my mom were. My mom, of course, is a complete hypocrite, and I will not bitch about her now because i am deciding to keep stuff to myself, no matter how pissed I am.
I swear...and swore. bleh. Now i can't wait for college. My head is pounding, and I'm hungry, but i refuse to eat cos i'll just throw up. besides, who wants to hang around a woman who screams at you everytime you open your mouth to say ANYTHING.
Right now, i kind of don't give a SHIT what happens, as long as I get out of here ASAP. I really want to go to Portland State. Of course, Antonio was bad-mouthing Oregon, but I don't like Colorado, so it doesn't matter what he says. My mom doesn't care where i go, except that she's paying for it. My dad wants me to stay close.
I guess my friends understand. I'll be sad to leave them. My friends are quite literally my life. I would have killed myself if not for my friends to shake me and say "if you do it, i will too." and I won't let them. nope.
Plus, the lovely Nine Inch Nails and Trent Reznor calmed me. I listened to their music, watched Trent Reznor interviews (I found myself feeling the same way he was saying), and calmed down a lot.
this is the lyrics to their new song, My Violent Heart. I can't wait XD
MY VIOLENT HEART
you and I, we may look the same,
but we are very far apart
there's bullet holes where my compassion used to be
and there is violence in my heart
into fire you can send us,
from the fire we return.
you can label us a consequence
of how much you have to learn.
you can try, but you'll never understand
this is something you will never understand
can you hear it now
hear it coming now
can you hear it now
on hands and knees, we crawl
you cannot stop us all
our bones, our skin
we will not let you win
you have set something in motion
much greater than you've ever known
standing there in all your grand naiveté
about to reap what you have sown
time will feed upon your weaknesses
soon you'll lose the will to care
when you return to the place that you call home
we will be there, we will be there
I love this place.
stupid scars, my arm looks like a fishthank you!
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