Monday, May 14, 2007

   my momma's watching Survivor
...bleh.

Anyway, first of all, I must thank you all for your support this weekend with my "problem." I know I'm always complainin' and never happy, but you guys were really kind and told me what I wanted to hear more than my friends or boyfriend or mother.

I'm not "all better" because nothing is as easy as that. I'll seem OK, and then just tear up, or get sad easily, but your support and comfort has been really helpful. Thank you/Arigato gozaimasu yo~

Especial thanks to GreyCat for the e-card ^^ it was really cute (i should put up a link) even if it was a tad cheezy.

Well, moving on, because I'm sure you're sick of my emo moping...

Saturday, I got my mom a nice purse for Mother's Day (i was broke so it was a cheap one). Then, even though I was feeling like and most certainly looking like crap, I went to the movies with Antonio.

Of course, he was at his friends' Matt'n'Allen (sorta Lord of the Flies reference there, sorry) house, DRINKING the fucking drunk. I don't mind Matt'n'Allen. I'm sure Allen, possibly Matt, hates me. and Allen's (or is it Matt's?) older brother FUCKING hates me with a passion.
This girl i HATE~! was there drinking my vodka. once she touched it, it was dead to me. that's alright; i don't need it.

I was fuming fucking PISSED, sitting in the apartment, and then i cried a few tears while antonio was off being a woman and fixing his mohawk. then i just put my head down and tried to sleep, but i ran out of air, started sniffling, and everyone told antonio i was crying.

He promptly took me out "for a smoke" (smooth, since i don't smoke and all). I cussed a bit. Matt followed us because he hates Leila too. "she's after my nuts!" in his words. and he has a girlfriend, so he doesn't want to cheat.

I fucking love TRUE punks <3<3

But we finally made it to the movies. We saw "28 Weeks Later" and while I can't speak highly of the plot, it was entertaining. And fucking hilarious. I laughed my ass off the whole time.

I guess I am "funny" because Antonio kept laughing. My snide comments got to him. The funniest part was when the girl fell down the escalator...bwahahahahaha or when the other one threw up all over the guy...

it was a riot...as Antonio said, "everyone was watching the movie all serious and serial killer jane over here was cracking up. People were dying and being gutted and she's just laughing."

Jason wanted to go over to me and say "shut the FUCK up."

:3 I can't say what I'd have done. Probably laughed at him O.o

Antonio said he'd have beat his ass, but I knew they were all pissed at me. I do care, because they're Antonio's friends, but fuck it. I yam what I yam, and if he choses them over me, fuck it. I don't need someone that choses a bunch of sluts and drunks over ME ...**stupid face** like i'm anything.

:3 I'm such a bitch

Lesse. Then today I just went shopping with my mom. we were gonna go to the zoo but she got up too late, so we postponed it.

I made out like a bandit at Hot Topic. I got a corset (Corsets look really good on me, they thin me and "enhance" my bust which is small), a pair of black and red chain pants, a clearance pair of fatigue pants with straps, a new NIN shirt (my collection **hearts hearts**), 4 smexy tank-tops, a Pink Floyd THE WALL pin (I LOOOOOVE Pink Floyd), a ninja pin, a cute chinese style shirt and matching pedal pants, and a bra with skulls on it. oh and a pair of socks.

I also got some pajamas at Target, for pajama day tomorrow. it's lame but hey. whatever.

I think "that's it." I know it's a lot. Now i'm broker than broke (i owe dinero), but i've got all my school clothes...I have a lot. i'm gonna be a sexier, meaner looking goth, i bet i'll scare everyone away....

oh well.

OH and the whole point of talking about sunday...While driving to the mall, we saw Antonio catching the bus...we almost picked him up, but it's a busy street so we couldn't get over, and the bus was coming. oh well. he might come over later...

I'm not slutty though.

It took me like...**counts on fingers** 4 months for me to let him kiss me...(did I mention our 2 year anniversary was May 4-ish?)

FUNNY LYRICS
"Knock 'Em Out"

Alright so this is a song about anyone, it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing and some one comes out the blue,
They're like,
"Alright"
What ya saying,
"Yeah can I take your digits?"
And you're like, "no not in a million years, you're nasty
please leave me alone."

Cut to the pub on a lads night out,
Man at the bar cos it was his shout,
Clocks this bird and she looks OK,
Caught him looking and she walks his way,
"Alright darling, you gonna buy us a drink then?"
"Err no, but I was thinking of buying one for your friend..."

She's got no taste hand on his waist, tries to pull away but her lips on his face,
"If you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer"
"Sorry love, but you ain't a pretty picture."

[Chorus]
Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you can't have my number,
"Why?"
Because I've lost my phone.

Oh yeah, actually yeah I'm pregnant, having a baby in like 6 months so no, yeah, yeah...

"I recognise this guy's way of thinking..."
As he comes over her face starts sinking,
She's like,
"Oh here we go.."
It's a routine check that she already knows, she's thinking they're all the same.

"Yeah you alright baby? You look alright still, yeah what's your name?"
She looks in her bag, takes out a fag, tries to get away from the guy on a blag, can't find a light,
"Here use mine"
"You see the thing is I just don't have the time."

[Chorus]

Go away now, let me go,
Are you stupid? Or just a little slow?
Go away now I've made myself clear,
Nah it's not gonna happen,
Not in a a million years,

[Chorus x2]

Nah I've gotta go cos my house is on fire,
I've got herpes, err no I've got syphilis...
AIDS, AIDS, I've got AIDS!
thank you!
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