Sunday, November 25, 2007

   12 pages and a midterm weds.
Death to college. **shakes fist at it**

Anyway.

let's see! I talked to Antonio and his friends on the phone. Then Antonio (drunk) complained to me for a while, and made me feel TERRIBLE. I started shaking and freaking out...Luckily Christian, poor tired thing, talked to me while Antonio was being a jerk...

Becky was comforting me in the usual way that girlfriends do, saying "you're too good for him" or whatever. Nice thought, doens't help. And the next morning, he profusely apologized. It was so sweet ^o^

So Friday Jason came over, watched Shawshank Redemption. The funniest part was when I was laying down super depressed. He came over and layed on top of me, made me slightly uncomfortable/irritated. Then Becky runs over and lays on top of him xD then she tickles him and rolls off laughing.

He gets up, trips over my bass case and laundry, falls, and Bex and I are laughing so hard we cry xD!!!!!!!

The next day, Saturday, we laze around. I can't remember if Derek came over...yes, yes he did, I was just in a depression so I took a 2 hour shower. bad, yes, i know, but i take really long showers when i'm depressed.

Anyway. he made fun of me and made me more depressed. but I was still happy. Later that evening, Becky, Derek, Jason and I went to this AWESOME!!!!!!!! great place called "Roxies" (i think...?)

It's a cute little 24 hour place, that has TONS of transvestites all over the place. And cuss words everywhere. It was great. I would have popped a boner if I could have...because THEY PLAYED NINE INCH NAILS!!!!! **happiness**

We were getting our food, and all a sudden, I get REALLY quiet, with big eyes, and go "I know this...Sunspots, NINE INCH NAILS, With_teeth"

then I sang along and they stared.

After that we went to Voodoo Donuts and had tasty donuts. From there we went to Safeway, and from there we came back to our FILTHY dorm room. Well, not filthy, but extremely disorganized.

Anyway. They like to tease me for being dumb, and Jason was being pretty mean. I actually DID get upset, and ducked under my covers. It made me laugh to hit my head hard on the wall, but I still cried a little. It was pathetic. Like 2 tears. I hate crying. so I do my best not to. All I did was ruin my mascara.

Jason felt SO bad, and Derek said "Be nicer to her." LOL

After that I felt better, we watched The Host, great movie. Then Jason left and Derek and I watched stupid movies on the internet.

He's such a dork, I swear. Sometimes, I get the feeling he doesn't like me that much...He hangs out most when Becky's around. In which case I feel sorry for him because she's kinda taken.

Though, today after breakfast, he taught me to play Go. I am spectaculary terrible. As he so...meanly pointed out, "your powers of observation never fail to amaze me. Or lack thereof."

-_- so mean. He's mean in a really offhand, you might miss it kind of way. so serious, too.

in some ways it's true. But in others, it makes me feel bad, because nobody here really knows me. I think i can be smart, sometimes. or smart in different ways.

It does NOT help that I'm really...I dunno, I can't talk. I say "r" instead of "l" sometimes. I stumble over words, I mispronounce and jumble them, and I say weird fucked up things, or I let my mind get ahead of me.

Example:
We were walking, I was saying something about making somebody grow balls.
Derek says, "how can you make someone grow balls"
and I MEANT to say, "I can't make them grow balls, but I can at least make them shut their legs"...but I really said, "I can'make them grow legs"

=_=

another example, not of jarring words, but of confusion:
Derek: You sure like penises, don't you
Julie: sometimes
Derek: do they think of you as an asshole?
Julie: you are what you eat...wait.

I can't even begin to explain how poorly I often speak. it's dreadful **depressed**

I'm also terribly uncoordinated. **trips**

oh wellz.

OH! and Mayte might get me a '95 NIN shirt ^_^thank you!
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