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Friday, January 14, 2005
hurt
http://www.angelfire.com/music6/rejectedsoul/nin.html that's a link to Hurt by Nine Inch Nails. that's one of my favorite songs in the world. It's SOOO sad. it tears me up to listen to it. I hope you can listen to it; it doesn't require downloads. anyway. the lyrics are:NINE INCH NAILS LYRICS
"Hurt"
"I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feeling disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way"
that songs reminds me of me. the self mutilation thing, the line: "everyone I know/goes away in the end" is like how life is.
see, I had friends, but one is leaving schools, one won't talk to me, one would rather hang with other friends, one is never around, one left, and the others just ditch me all the time. when I went to the counselor, she said she would help, and she didn't. my mom said she would take me to get better, but now she's acting like nothing happened. it's not fair for me to be so selfish and whiny, but I can't keep my thoughts all bottled up; i tried that and almost died. it's just...i want to help everyone. but i can't even help myself. why can't I just die? it would be easy; it would save us all some trouble. it would free me. I feel like I'm losing my mind...thank you!
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