Saturday, April 16, 2005

   my freaky dream: scorpion sting
MONKEYS IN THE MIRROR! NOOOOO!!!!!! IT CHASES ME WITH A STICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ha ha, I said that once, I was serious. there was a monkey in the mirror.

oh yeah, last night, I dreamt that I was in my dad's kitchen, and on the floor, there were two scorpions, about 3 inches long. They were little, but they were mating (like cats n dogs o.O)

so yeah, I was like, "ew, kill it" so me and my dad got up. he pulled off the female and it didn't pinch or sting him, and he just ripped it in half, and threw it in the garbage. I picked the male up (don't ask how I knew which was which. i don't know, except that I did)

it wiggled, but I was holding it by its pinchers. the female didn't put up much of a fight, but the male was going psycho and wound up stinging me like crazy. it hurt a little, but, i just started ripping it to pieces. I tore it limb from limb then tore those bits up and dumped them in the trash.

ok, so then, I was like "whatever" and went to my room to read a fruits basket book. or something. but I stared feeling dizzy and tired, so I asked my dad if I could call the poison control center. he said I could try, but every number I got was like, out of service or something.

we wound up driving to this poison control "facility" there was a HUGE wait in line (around an area the size of a large mall) but it went by really fast because I got moved up. I was like, are scorpion stings poisonous?

the guy at the counter said, "depends."

I described it to him and he gave me a printout packet on the type of scorpions, which were like, desert sand scorpions, or something (don't ask about the name, I dunno.)

but then as I was reading, I started feeling really bad and seeing red. I kinda wandered around in a daze, and then vaguely remembered reading that "a person stung by this highly venomous scorpion should be fine, but the sting by a male could be fatal. symtoms include: dizzines, nausea, fatigue, and change in skin color. If you've been stung, get help, or you'll die in 24 hours"

it was then that I really realized that I was stung by the male. so they put me on the ambulence, and all of a sudden, i was another person, and I asked different ambulence drivers where Miss *insert my last name here* was. I saw myself, really really pale and not breathing. I was like...ew...then I was in my dying body again, riding to the hospital.

it was really foggy but there were people from school around my bed and heartrate monitor when I woke up. It was like, what? then they told me again what was happening, and I said, "oh." then asked the nurse if I could have a computer to write to MyOtaku.com members one last time.

I was freaking out over being Julie and Sasaya, but I was trying to write my goodbyes, when I realized that it wouldn't let me log in. I asked Tamara to say goodbye for me, and she was sad.

then my mom came and we got into a green car. it was nighttime, or late-dusk. we drove to an overlook of some town that wasn't denver. it was like camp.

I was crying, and I said, "mommy, I'm so sorry for all the things I've done. I wish I could make them up to you, but you're my mom and I love you."

I just kept apologizing for dying, and then she took me back to the hospital, put me on the bed, and then I started freaking out. It was like, I was inside me, and I wasn't. I watched my body convulse and my skin boil and bubble and turn ugly green. it was weird.

at the same time I was seeing this happen to me, I was seeing everybody watch over me and it felt weird to have my skin morph like that. it didn't hurt. but there were worried faces. It had been more than 24 hours, but then, I died, and my conciousness drifted and I wasn't myself but I was thinking like me.

I knew I was dead, even though I didn't feel like it. I just...it was weird. the scorpions are what I wonder most about.

I mean, I often have dreams of dying. anyway, what's your take on this?







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