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Monday, June 6, 2005

   fuckin smilies! what are they so emotional about, anyway?!
bunny pic!


yeah, enjoy


even though I been spiraling down into the depths of where I used to be (ie the bottom of a really deep dark lake called "LAKE DEPRESS") i found something...funny

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/flash/schfiftyfive.html

and

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/flash/bangbangbang.html


soooo yeah. I have not been up to snuff. unless you count fishing and not getting a bite. or going to the mall and feeling like a weirdo because my idiot bf kept calling me on my cell phone and then not talking to me. -.- seriously. then I'll just mumble, "i wish I was dead, no one loves me anyway."

and he says "I love you!" -.-

y'know, words are cheap. you can say anything, but it doesn't mean you mean it. you can just say "i love you" but it doesn't mean you do. you can be manipulating, using, trying to get pity. fuck words, they're cheap.

ok, it looks like a rant. but this has fucked me up today. well, more than usual.

ok, so after the mall, my dad tells me, "so, Julie, you wanna spend three nights a week at my house again? i mean, you been doing it practically your whole life..."

honestly, I can hardly stand 2 nights.

anyway, I say I'll think about it, since it's not "me" to be blunt and honest and selfish and just say it how it is.

on the way to my mom's, my dad's driving was fucked and I could tell he was distracted. upset. then as I got out, at my mom's, my dad uses this voice. it's sorta...wistful and sad, but also sorta menacing in a secret way. hard to describe, I know

anyway, he says, "I hope you think about staying at my house on weeknights again. I could drive you to your friend's house if you wanted. and, besides, you can't go to Japan if I don't sign the paper. it'll look...better if we've spent more time together."


what the fuck kind of threat is that?! I don't know what the fuck I want. well, I do! i want to disown the man. I want to be a true bastard. it'd be better. God, please my Lord and Savior, please just save my soul. i mean, seriously, I can't give in to his stupid threat, does he think I'm a moron? but I really would like to go there before I'm 18. still. it's confusing, all I know is, I...never mind. thanks for listening.

please, tell me! what's your favorite music video?

sorry dudes, the links don't wanna work, but trust me, those are the funniest flashes I have ever seenthank you!
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