Wednesday, March 14, 2007

   school ewwww
hey peoples. im in school right now.. grossss. i probably wont be able to get on the rest of the day cuz after school i have track adn then im headin over to my friend's house. omg right now am like so exhausted. about to fall asleep.. mnbu754sxfujfgxt OH OH sorry just fell asleep. yeah haha very funny i know... whatever. well im really bored im gonna go now. ttyl love ya guys byes
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Monday, March 12, 2007

   workin on it
yeah im gettin better little by little. my new bf is definitely helpin me get through this. ^_^ yay. omg i cant wait for the dance we have at our school this weekend. im like SOO EXCITED. im gonna freak out if it doesnt come soon... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... see i told you i would I TOLD YOU! lol you can already tell im better. oh and heres a new song to go with the awesome mood! its called find a new way by young love

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

   still not good
iv been feeling kinda depressed lately. im just so confused with life. idk what to do. heres a poem i wrote really quick just to get it all out. only took a fwe minutes. nothing special at all not like i really worked on it so if you think it sucks its probly cuz it does.

I just wanna get by
Just wanna forget
So I keep moving on
Gotta keep moving on
I did my best yeah I know I did
Just trying to forget you
To move on with life
Just trying to keep on this journey

But I’ve fallen
Yeah
I’ve fallen
And I’ve tried getting up
Yet every time
I just fall harder, harder, harder
Can’t somebody show me, help me, guide me
Help me please... help me

But now I’m back to the beginning
The rain it never stops
I thought I had it all under control
I was the forecast but now my power’s gone
And I’m sitting here alone in my thoughts

I just want it to get better
So I did what I thought right
But all I did was fail
Fail horribly
Now I’m stuck in the ditch
Right there, you see it?
Of course you don’t
Because you don’t know…
You just don’t know

I’ll just let the rain continue
There’s nothing I can do
I tried my best
But it wasn’t enough
And now I’m worse than before
Alone in my head
All alone
alone…


drown by three days grace

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Monday, March 5, 2007

   depressed
i have been so confused lately... i broke up after a 7 month relationship with a guy. this happened a few weeks ago. i just feel hurt when i see that he has something about his gf on aim or something. he got a gf like 2 days after we broke up. it just made me feel like i was chucked in the trash. all the things me and him had gone through together everything we shared with eachother... and he just threw me away. yeah i still wanted to be really good friends and he acted like he did too. he doesnt even know how much this hurts me... he has no idea... and i thought i was over all of it. all this just hit me last night. why cant it all go away

iv been getting headaches and migranes every day lately. im so sick of it. not getting enough sleep, and all this confusion with my ex. oh and i didnt mention yet... i just got a bf today. thats a mess too

i really like him. i really do. im happy im with him. but things have happened in the past with my other friend and its effecting the way some of my friends see him. im definitely gonna keep an eye on him and i wouldnt let him do anything i wasnt comfertable with. keepin him in line yeah. its just got me all tied up, though.

my parents are saying i shouldnt be going steady at this age because im supposed to go on dates with lots of guys. so thats annoying.

oh and last thing... wednesdays. i always hang with my one group of friends on wednesdays. now i probably wont be able to do that cuz track started. AHHHH!!! yea il be freaking sore tomorrow...

dammit... issues... i hate it all... fuck it. All this confusion. (excuse my language)


broken wings by bleed the dream
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Thursday, February 22, 2007

   winter retreat
why hello everybody. me and my bf are officially over. and i think its all for the best anyway. things are working out well. im off for the weekend. il have a blast. and while im gone listen to this awesome song by hellogoodbye called here in your arms

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Friday, February 16, 2007

   the end
wow.. im a complete wreck. i think me and my bf are over. im not sure though. this is killing me. so heres the story. well my bf hasnt been doing the best in school and his parents are blaming it on us being together. they told him that if he did bad on the next test, we wouldnt be alloud to be together any more. so he ended up getting an 80% on this test. his parents werent to happy. he still has to talk to his dad to see if we can be together but i think this is it. now we're just friends. we went through so much and now its over because of this. sorry no song today. im just a complete mess.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

   WEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
SNOW DAY!!! its so pretty outside. i better go play soon! lol

oh o o o and HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!


today is amazing. i slept in till like 11:30. its almost 12 right now and im still in my pijamas.

oh and the song.. hmmm... OH ok heres System of a Down. i used to not like this band.but now i think they're amazing. sorry if you dont like them. but this is a song for all you who hate valentines day...

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

   SNOW!!!
yess i just uploaded like a hundred songs on my new mp3!!! OH YEAH WHAT NOW!?! well that song in my last post is now officially 'our' song. as in me and my bf's song. ^_^ im here right now cuz we got an early dismisal cuz of snow!!! that would be so awesome if we had off school tomorrow for valentines day. we already have like 3 inches of snow and its supposed to snow through late tomorrow. well heres an awesome ddr song that im obsessed with... Castles in the sky

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Friday, February 9, 2007

   jfkdlasjkfdas
well lately life has been ok. school is same as usual. it isnt as hard anymore but still boring and blah. track starts soon. i might be going to a hockey game tonight not sure. i just wrote this a little bit ago. only took me like ten minutes.

a voice from far away
the silent whisper heard perfectly
feeling it closer as it calls
i reach out to touch
and become bathed in its waves
gentle sound strokes my face
the soft embrace overflows me with its warmth
and im lost in you
lost in you

blast of cold, screaming wind
come to attack
shreadding each piece of light found
and the warmth is lost...
darkness rushes in
flooding through every pore
and im found lying in the emptyness
cold and alone...
slowly washing away into the current of black...

well i absolutely love this song LISTEN TO IT!!! its called such great hights by the postal service




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Monday, January 29, 2007

   Skillet!!!
why hello peoples. life is going pretty good lately. my bf and me are closer than ever ^_^. school is going ok. they're totally redoing our highschool so the halways are all cramped and it takes like 5 min just to get from one class to another. oh well life goes on. the new semester seems pretty easy compared to last one. im still debating on wether i want to go to winter formal... well... i found yet ANOTHER new band that i fell in love with. its called 'skillet'. i love finding all these they're so awesome. i have a lot of there songs here. i put them in asending order by favorites. you dont have to listen to em all cuz they're mostly for me so that i can just come here and listen to music while im doin other things. heres the list of the songs and they're names
1) Whispers in the dark
2) Rebirthing
3) The Last Night
4) Comatose
5) The older i get







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