Thursday, August 26, 2004

i don't mind spending everyday, out on your corner in the pouring rain, look for the girl with the broken smile, ask her if she wants to stay awhile
k, even though this is my newest post, please read my other post for today, if u haven't already. k, thanks. this post is pretty much me ranting on about something that may or may not make sense to any of you.


have you ever trusted in something so badly, that you often thought the best for it. you thought that nothing could ever destroy or break or tear apart this one thing, this one thing that you held confidence in.
and then the cruelty of the world, the bad thoughts running through our minds, the insults, the sort of things that make you think the worst, and doubt the good just come crashing down on this one thing, and you lose all hope after that. all that you've worked for, all your hopes and dreams, all of your confidence in yourself, and all your companionship is just ripped right from you. like a rug being pulled out from under you, or an IV being pulled from your arm, you never see it coming, cause you don't think anyone would truly be that heartless. i mean, we all like to think sometimes that we're just so "badass", but when it comes to life or death situations, and real human emotions, we do whats right. we don't even give it a second thought, its instinct (or atleast to some of us).
i'm sure that some of you while reading this, are just shaking your heads saying "what the hell is she talking about? she doesn't know me! i would kill the fucker and never give it a second thought!" well, i don't need to know you really. its kind of a given. if someone, a complete stranger, was hanging on to the edge of a building for dear life, and in order to survive they needed your hand to pull them up, you would do it. this is also a given.
i mean, i might just be flattering the idea, saying all these good things, when really they're all false ideas, false hopes.
in my fantasy world, i like to think of myself as a badass, kick ass ninja type of girl who would kill people. but thats my imaginary world. where i like to think of things that i would never do in real life, like kill a person.

wow, i've gone off topic.
anywho, the moral of my story is, never trust in something with everything that you have, cause sooner or later, you'll lose it all to that one thing, and you'll never forgive yourself. whether it be a friendship, or a pet, don't give it too much feeling, because if you lose this thing, all your emotions go with it, and you're lost.
anywho, if i've gone a little too deep, please forgive me. i haven't eaten anything, and i didnt' get any sleep last night, so you'll have to excuse the fact that i'm a little........out of it.


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