Thursday, February 12, 2009

i'm trying to learn the lyrics to that lullaby so i can sing it to everyone. it's so cute. i've come up with another idea for a video. i think it'll be a really interesting one, since it'll be sort of like a tour of my campus/eau claire, so everyone would get to see what it's like where i live for 9 months out of the year. the wind picked up again. :x i'm writing a [very short] piece. i won't promise that i'll finish it, but here's to hoping. my stomach hurts. i'm hungry, and i don't want to go to that stupid library tour. fuuuuuuuck english class. baby, i'm not alright when you go, i'm not fine. i am all yours, so please be all mine.

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Wednesday, February 11, 2009

i skipped my 8am to sleep in today. it felt really good, to be honest. i don't regret it, at all. so lindsey made my mood ten times better last night by promising to send up garden party [favorite movie of all tiiiime], finding my copy of requiem for a dream and pi, and burning me a copy of hey monday's cd. i love love love her. so my mood has indeed improved somewhat. now if matt would just talk to me things would be just fucking peachy. i don't know what's going on with that. i'm just not going to think about it, because if i do, i can only think of worst case. :[ time to finish some homework.

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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

the pipes make weird noises at night, as does the heater. we're leaving the window open, because i want to be cold when i wake up in the morning. i don't know how much longer i can do this. i don't have that kind of strength, yeah? i miss him. and him. karma is the only thing i believe in these days. i need my sleep more than anything else.

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Sunday, February 8, 2009

i'm not sold on this one yet, but we'll see how much i like it in a week. godawful mood is godawful. i think it's mostly just that i'm stressed out by school and so everyone's little quirks that never really bothered me before are beginning to really piss me off. it's sort of shallow of me, but i can't help that i'm human and that overly-clingy people bother me in the worst possible way. i figure if i just keep to myself for a little while and just get through the first month of school i should be okay. i cannot wait until valentine's day. it's gonna be ridiculously drunken and full of no romance. then again, that sort of makes me sad. i almost wish i could go to texas for a day. :[ bleeh. now i'm sad again. time to go read something else.

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Friday, February 6, 2009

i should get ready to go out to the bus, since that'll afford me time to read this thing on total war. i need a nap. or five. tomorrow is saturday, which is good. but, there's still a lot to do today. ._. --- dear gravity, you held me down in this starless city.

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Thursday, February 5, 2009

my campus is slowly becoming obsessed with post-secret. i have a secret that i'll eventually write down on one of the boards. 'i'm in love with a boy who lives over 1000 miles away.' no one will see it coming. i missed my first alarm this morning. yay for back-ups. i'm not kidding when i say i'm leaving for texas after i graduate. i've been promised a place to stay already. haha.

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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

heart attack/break adverted. things are okay. i need to stop jumping to the worst-case scenario, and assuming the worst has happened, or will happened. to quote him; 'you worry...a lot.' and i do. so much. i wears me out, and i want to stop, but i can't. i can't help that i've been screwed over enough to be wary of, well, everything. it's a shame. ._.

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Monday, February 2, 2009

i can't think of the proper sound one would make when they feel like i do right now. :/ i don't really want to go to class. i don't really want to leave the dorm today. i don't really want to be social. i just want to sleep and do nothing. i hate feeling like this, but it doesn't just go away. i talked to amanda yesterday, about patrik, haha, because she mentioned that she doesn't talk to him anymore. evidentially, he drove everyone away, and now all he has is his girlfriend, and seriously, literally, nothing else. i laughed. he deserves it. that's what doing the shit you did, and using people, and being an overall dick gets you in this life, fucker. i swear i'm not bitter.

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Friday, January 30, 2009

hurry hurry, you put my head in such a flurry, flurry. asdkfjsd. i don't know how i feel today. last night was lackluster, and when i woke up this morning, i had forgotten where i was. i'm a fucking danger to myself, sometimes.

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Thursday, January 29, 2009

my day was made at 7:43am today. haha, my dad sent me the most adorable text message. it made me 'aww' on the bus, and people stared at me. i didn't care. i love my dad. sososo much. it's not even 10 yet and i'm eating lunch. raaaaamen. i was really hungry, since i really didn't eat supper last night. i've only been here for 4 days and i'm already not eating very much. good. i want the snow to melt. i want spring, naow plox. i'm gonna go and try to work on cassie's story. i have a lot of free time today, so we'll see what happens. >3< later.

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