Thursday, January 15, 2009

i've seen across the universe three times in two days. gaaaah. asdlkfjasdlfj. he called because he wanted to hear my voice, even though i told him it was all weird due to my being sick. haha, and then he was talking about how he had been talking to his friend about how he'd found another kraken [long story?], and i had to laugh, because i'm nervous that he meant me. i wish i had been brave enough to say 'i would be sad if you died because i love you.' ._.

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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

ok, so, i'm sorry for lacking details the past few days. it's just been...ehh, i don't even know. i'll answer whatever questions you want answered about it, but i'm not gonna sit here and recount it all to you. that would take a lot of time and i'd have to think sort of hard, and what with my brain swelled up to this size, i don't think it's healthy. yeah, i got sick about two days ago, and had a fever the night he slipped up and then ended up telling me something. that probably contributed to the fact that i didn't want to talk to him for awhile then, but i broke the silence and texted him today. he seemed happy enough to talk, though. which, in turn, makes me happy. god. i'm a sap. x]

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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

god, if he exists, is a cruel bastard. i can't even type what he said to me last night without crying. did he honestly mean that, did he really tell me that? jesus. i need to move to texas.

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Monday, January 12, 2009

me: now you have to tell me one. /pout. him: Haha him: I've only one secret in mind. me: then sayyy it him: But him: It's kindof bittersweet? me: i'll take what i can get. him: I like you, a lot. i'll let you guess what made it bittersweet.

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

there's nothing for me in this town, the only thing left is my exoskeleton the shell of what i had grown into, the sick remainder, reminder of me. i'll burn this place down, make everyone forget who i was, make everyone forget who i am. i am rapidly losing hope.

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Friday, January 9, 2009

so i'm sure benzedrine thought i was high last night, telling him that i went to target with lindsey to get condoms and bodywash. xD that's okay. he can assume what he wants. he assumed that i was serious when i said that i was going to have hot sex with her, and asked for pictures. lolololol what a boy. i should text him, yeah?

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Thursday, January 8, 2009

i'll start with what i want to do, and finish with what i need to do, yeah? 50 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked! Are you ready?: neverrr First thing you wash in the shower?: my shoulders What color is your favorite hoodie?: greeeeeen Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?: i haven't kissed anyone before. so...no? Do you plan outfits?: sometimes. How are you feeling RIGHT now?: anxious. where's my benzedrine? What's the closest red thing to you?: the stapler Do you say Aim or A-I-M?: aim. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?: my benzedrine told me that he loved me. i was excited. Did you meet anybody new today?: not todaaayyy. What are you craving right now?: conversation Do you floss?: no. i'm just as gross as you. What comes to mind when i say cabbage?: saurkraut. When was the last time you talked on aim?: last night Are you emotional?(Not emo): yes, very very very much so Would you dance to the taco song?: i do every tuesday Have you ever counted to 1,000?: not yet Do you bite your ice cream or just lick it?: it depends on my mood Do you like your hair?: i'm starting to like more, now that i'm older Do you like yourself?: some days. Have you ever met a celebrity?: nope Do you like cottage cheese?: yesss What are you listening to right now?: 20 dollar nose bleed How many countries have you visited?: one other besides americaaa Are your parents strict?: not that much anymore Would you go skydiving?: no. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?: sure, but i wouldn't expect intelligent conversation. :/ Would you throw potatoes at him?: no, because that would produce very bad karma Is there anything sparkly in the room your in?: no, but the snow outside is very sparkly Have you ever voted for an American Idol?: nope Have you ever been in a castle?: yes! Do you rent movies often?: nope Who sits behind you in your math class?: i'm not in math anymore Have you made a prank phone call?: nope Do you own a gun?: not yet Can you count backwards from 74?: haha, probably not Who are you going to be with tonight?: my family. maybe talking to mr. benzedrine Brown or white eggs?: i couldn't care less Do you own something from hot topic?: about one fourth of my wardrobe is from hot topic. xD Ever been on a train?: nope Ever been in love?: hmm...no. Do you have a cell phone?: yes. Are you too forgiving?: i don't think so. i'm a reasonable girl Do you use Chop Sticks?: when i can What is your best friend doing tomorrow?: probably chilling at her house Do you use ChapStick?: yes. cherry chapstick. seriously Ever have cream puffs?: yessss, omg omnomnom Have you seen the Butterfly Effect?: nope What was the last question you asked?: "where do you want me to put this?" What was the first CD you ever bought?: good news for people who like bad news, modest mouse. <3 <3 <3 Boys or Girls?: am love boys, girls can be annoying fucks. am love girls, boys can be fucking simpletons What is your bus # for school?: stein blvd. #9 beeotch. his name is matt.

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

i considered picking up a habit today, since i had nothing better to do. i won't lie and say he wasn't the only thought that danced across my brain today. it isn't safe to say things where i used to, since he can read that too, and he told me that he does. you have to admire his honesty, yeah? but if he has to know, i want him to hear it straight from me, yeah. thing is, he doesn't have to know.

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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

this is for real. is this for real? i would kill to know.

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Monday, January 5, 2009

uh oh, who's becoming too attached to someone who scared her within the first five hours of knowing each other? that's right, me! but, but, oh everyone, he's perfect. he's a gentleman, my mighty fishlord, he's so gorgeous i can't keep my eyes away from him. he can be my mad hatter, i will be his alice. haha, hopelesshopelesshopelesshopelesshopelesshopeless. maybe he'll wake me up tomorrow with another text. that would make my day so happy...

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