Wednesday, December 17, 2008

i'm 19. this isn't weird at all. brandon called me a hoe already. so i'm the birthday hoe. betsy's shirt is epic. i want one like it. i've been in her room for over 12 hours. i wonder if she wants me out... haha. i watched fall out boy twice last night. once on fuse, and then on david letterman. i felt pretty goddamn awesome. oh darling, i know what you're going through.

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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i thought of another story, but this one is tenbillion times different than what i've been writing for the last two years. it reminds me of when i wrote my first fanfiction... god, i wonder if i still have that thing. it was the greatest work i had ever done...haha. it's actually really lame, but since i started playing the game that inspired it a little again, it just brings back memories of when i was a wee little tyke on the internets...nearly five, six years ago now. haha...wow...how time flies. oh shitson... i'm turning nineteen tomorrow. D: sort of forgot about that one... oh well. this character, saccharine...he just might be my new favorite. like, forever. he's so amazing and tragic and wonderful and amazing and super and GAH. yes. overzealous, much. oh, but here's somethng that made me upset: during the math final, there was a short period of time where i couldn't concentrate on the math that i was supposed to be doing. instead, i got really caught up thinking about patrik, for some reason. and then i felt like crying, but i didn't. oddly enough, when i got out of my test and turned my phone back on i had gotten a text from him. it wasn't a personal one, just a general one about...eh, something unimportant, but still. i found it sort of odd. i'm done rambling. goodnight.

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Monday, December 15, 2008

there are far too many songs in my library that are listed as explicit. i like mah songs dirty. woo for new music. let's have a party. finals week has begun! wish me luck.

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

everything i asked for

and so much more. going to the mall today! where's my cell phone? i hope g is okay...like, i hope she didn't pass out in the bathroom. she was really drunk... goodnight!

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Thursday, December 11, 2008

tears and seams all turn to one with every stitch and each spool spun

razia's shadow is still amazing. i still love it. and i have a newfound love for thomas dutton, no kidding. he's pretty amazing, and has a gorgeous voice too. i made a real youtube channel and asked brendon to be my friend. i wonder if he'll accept it? that'd be weird if he actually watched my videos... i'm going to see a play with joe today. lauren thinks it can be classified as a date, but i don't know. we're just going to see a play together. ...with no one else... ... >.> yeah. okay, maybe it is. i have a final in 6 hours. i need to sleep! goodnight.

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Tuesday, December 9, 2008

how are you, and i'm so sorry

i'm turning 19 in 8 days. i know what's being done in honor of that birthday. before, i would have disapproved. but i don't care now. i need to capitalize on my youth. this will be my last year as a teenager. i won't be able to use '18 going on extinct' as an about me filler anymore. life is creepin' on me. i don't think i like it. oh, and, haha, that would mark the 19th year i've spent alone. bitter, much? i'd say yes.

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Monday, December 8, 2008

your eyes are bleeding

more thrashing! more hardxcore! more screaming! go go go go go! how was your weekend?

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Sunday, December 7, 2008

i'll let you feel the wounds they put in me

i don't like thinking about how much work i have to do yet. good thing they can't kick me out after failing the first sememster.

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Friday, December 5, 2008

this will show them

today is, quite possibly, the worst day of my life. please, shoot me in the face now. thank you.

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Thursday, December 4, 2008

ohgod.

it hurts. so, so bad right now. they keep feeding me more of him and i'm trying to forget him and then i go and gah. fuck this. i can't get away from him as long as i'm friends with sarah and amanda. i'm gonna take that as a sign and not bother anymore. he is what he is and i am what i am. we'll be what we'll be to each other. i also killed my knee yesterday. it's alarmingly swollen, and i'm concerned that another surgery might be in the near future. shit, son.

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