Sunday, November 16, 2008

ouch

what contrasts. i saw jenny-bean on friday, and was pretty happy. i hadn't seen her in a long time. the next morning, i wake up to learn that my grandpa had died a few hours earlier. surprisingly enough, i'm still not overly sad. then i go with the family to madison to see my friend matthew, and the rest of the weekend is spent with him, being happy and remembering how lame and amazing we were in high school. the wake and funeral are on wednesday and thursday, so i have to miss classes, but i'm going back tomorrow and tuesday. i'm coming back on thursday to catch the midnight showing of twilight, and then heading out to wausau on friday afternoon. obladi oblada.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Thursday, November 13, 2008

a temporary stand-in for your face

i can't help but think i'll die alone. lalalaaa, 8 days left! and this weekend, i'm going to madison to see my friend matthew, which is really exciting, believe me. and i should be studying for a test right now, but instead the internet sucked me in, and i can't pull myself away. my interpersonal communication class was horrible for me today. we talked about friendship and love, and i really felt like crying the entire time. i'm getting so impatient...

Comments (0) | Permalink

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

sexual tension exudes from my inbox

oh, if you could read some of my messages... 'i'm not scared of you' 'you will be when i'm on top of you' and that's just the beginning, haha. i really haven't been feeling the greatest as of late, and last weekend i went home and i ended up hanging out with two of my friends who were sick... i'll be so mad if i get sick. >:[ my heart aches. i want to be in wausau tomorrow. :[

Comments (0) | Permalink

Sunday, November 9, 2008

and this is why i wanted to come home this weekend

this weekend was really rather relaxing. despite having to wake up really early on saturday, i got to spend a lot of time with my family, visit my grandpa, and go shopping for some clothes, which i needed, since it's getting so motherchucking cold out these days. i also found out that patrik is going to stay in eau claire between the weekend i go to visit and thanksgiving break... my life's pretty happy right now, kthnx. :]

Comments (0) | Permalink

Thursday, November 6, 2008

and please don't mind me

my grandpa's in the hospital again. things aren't looking good.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

and that is how i spent my night.

huddled around a tv, watching the speeches of both mccain and obama. i'm not gonna lie: i really liked mccain's speech. he's such a well-spoken man. but yes, i am pleased with the results of the elcetion and now that it's over... if i hear one more thing about it i'm gonna shoot someone in the face. what's done is done, it's time to worry about other things. so, in keeping with my own rule... 16 dayyys... :3 i'm so excited to see him that it's getting hard to concentrate in class... stupid boy. XP i had a weird dream last night. it sort of scared me, but i don't remember why...

Comments (0) | Permalink

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

i voted for change

i would hope that all who were able went out and voted today. if you were able and didn't...well...i don't want to hear you complaining about whatever administration comes in. if you don't vote, you don't get to complain about it. [that's actually my dad's philosophy, not mine...but i like it a whole bunch] 17 days until i get to see patrik. X3

Comments (0) | Permalink

Sunday, November 2, 2008

i don't know if i have the patience for this

it's going to be a challenge... two weeks has turned into three, hopefully, since i have to go to madison the first weekend i was going to wausau. i just worry i have more plans that i forgot about, but i don't think i do... please god, let this work. i can't remember the last time i've been this happy.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, October 31, 2008

november starts in an hour.

it's true, from where i'm standing. so he couldn't show this weekend. evidentially, he got very ill, and it was highly unpleasant. i told him that he broke my heart and he apologized profusely, and promised to see me as soon as possible. i appears that 'as soon as possible' is two weeks from now. i'm going to wausau, and since that's where he is, i'll get to see him. 8] however, amanda's other friend, sarah, did show. she and amanda got high, and i sat with them after they were back in amanda's room, mostly to just observe their behavior [seriously. it was the most amusing thing i've ever seen]. it was then that sarah said that she would be okay with me dating patrick. she might have been high when she said that, but i'll take it. i have approval. i'm sorry that's all that i'm talking about. it just makes me so happy, knowing all that i do. :3 i'm just...happy right now. so happy.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

"no, i want to see your face when i tell you"

okay, so maybe the plan shifted. to: let's see if he asks me out like he's hinting at through talks with amanda by the end of the weekend. =] i'm so stoked for friday.

Comments (0) | Permalink