Saturday, December 8, 2007

listening to: seed [the academy is...]

9 and 21 days. separate events. don't confuse them. i'm equally excited for both, and one gets a party. i've mentioned both, but chances are you've forgotten. no big deal, i never expected anyone to remember either of them. what are they? my family got the christmas tree today...and i half-assedly dressed it... it's rather slim...sort of like...an emo tree? i had to work today...everyone's getting so short-tempered...it makes me tense and then i get cranky and then no one wants to be around me...and then i don't want to be around me... i really should be fixing my sep paper... i need to put together a christmas list...what does everyone want...? i want to be able to sleep for a whole day without having someone tell me that i have work to do. i hate ambiguous friendships. you know...where anything you say could lead to an awkward silence because it inadvertantly leads to mentioning a possible relationship between you and the other person. i sort of hate everything about my life right now, but somehow that doesn't upset me. to be honest, all i can think about as of late is last summer... which is not a good thing to be thinking about...i had fixed everything from that and now i'm thinking...it'll never, ever be fixed. there's always going to be something wrong with everything in every relationship i made and broke that summer... ugh. maybe i should call everything quits for awhile... `krissy

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