Thursday, September 11, 2008

this is love and this is lust; now which one should i trust?

i feel a little conflicted. graham and i were talking about where he wanted to go to college earlier, and he listed off a bunch of places. one of them was eau claire. it made me happy to think that we could go to the same school, and maybe something more would happen between us, but then i remembered my mantra: change is good. so there's my conflict. if he does end up going here, should i be happy and ready to be...well, whatever, or should i keep my distance and just be as casual as possible with him? i hate boys. sometimes. i do have power over nerdy dungeons and dragons boys though. lol@awkward squirming. jenny, you get what i'm sayin' lol. i think some of those guys have honest to god never had a conversation with a girl that was longer than two sentences. i asked how often they play d&d, and all i got for the first two seconds was an open-mouthed stare. HAVE THEY NOT SEEN BOOBS BEFORE? OBVIOUSLY NOT. because i'm honestly not that pretty, so they must have been the distraction. haha. yeah, class at 8 today. i should get to bed. meh... i'll have to read between classes tomorrow. again. i stay on the lower campus all day today, and so when i had two hours between when i ate lunch and when i had to be in my classroom, i sat in hibbard hall and read one of the books for my latin american studies class. it was weird. really weird. and this guy kept making awkward conversation with me. i was so caught up in my book though, i probably came off as really bitchy. sorry dude, my bad. :/ oh, and one last thing... i got a plant today. i'm fairly certain it's a spider plant, and i named him beckett. i'm treating him a lot like a pet, more than a plant. he has his own water bottle and everything. i even have a note on my desk about him, reminding myself to set him in the window every morning so he can get some sunlight. i need a life, haha. ok, going to bed for reals now. later, bby. >3< krissy;

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