Friday, May 27, 2005

   So...talking to Andrew right now. He's talking about this girl he met at school who's apparently just like him...it hurts enough to like someone and not be able to do anything about it, but when the guy starts talking about another girl he likes it hurts even worse. BAH. I hate this. I'm just gonna become a nun.
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Monday, May 23, 2005

Hey. Auditions were HORRIBLE. Well, I mean, I've done worse, but it still sucked. I wasn't able to do the song I've been practicing for a month and had down PERFECTLY because they had a handwritten version(...WTF!?) and it was three keys higher than I was used to singing so I had to do one I didn't know as well and was sooo off. It was in front of a lot of really good people too, so that made it even more embarrassing. Oh, well. At least now I won't have to miss my family vacation. And who knows? Maybe the director will go crazy just long enough to put my name on the chorus list. Haha. Well, nothing new, really....see ya.
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Friday, May 20, 2005

   Hey! Pretty good week. Holly and I did our dramatic duo for speech class today. It was really fun. We wanted to practice during lunch but the library was closed so we practiced in the bathroom because there were mirrors there so we could practice our expressions and there weren't many people in there. It didn't work too well though, because we kept getting interrupted when people came in. It was kind of funny though. Anyway, we were going to go to club 3 degrees tonight but changed our minds, so now I'm just sitting on my fat lazy butt in front of the computer. Whootness! Grease auditions are tomorrow. I'm kind of nervous but hey, I have nothing to lose. Hm...what else...nothing new on Andrew. Big surprise there. Well, that's about it. Adios.
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Sunday, May 15, 2005

Hm, so yeah...what to say...18 days of school left! YAY. Auditions for Grease are next week. Wish me luck, I haven't had one voice lesson since I found out about the stupid audition and I seriously need help. I mean, I've been practicing, but It's getting to that point where I'm dreading the audition, and by the time I actually get there I'll have myself so worked up I'll be too nervous to perform my best. It's just the way it happens with me. I dunno. I'll just have to try not to be a spaz. Well, we''l see how it goes. Hmm...what else...there might be a guy that I'm maybe possibly interested in. Yes, I know, you're all just DYING to know the details. I don't know why I want to write about this. It's so weird. Whenever you like someone you never want them to find out but you still want to tell everyone else how you feel. At least that's how it is with me. Maybe I'm just weird that way. Anyway. Yes. The guy. Okay, his name is Andrew, he's a little over a year older than me but he's a senior. He's a volunteer for NET like me, and I met him in October. I thought I might have liked him then, but I just pushed that thought out of my mind partly because I am sick of having a crush on someone and didn't want to deal with the whole over dramatized unrequited love crap, and partly because he had a girlfriend. But the more I thought about it the more I've realized I can't just push that thought away. He broke up with his girlfriend, so that's at least something. Also, he said something that MIGHT have implied he feels the same. One of our friends was in a variety show kind of like Encore and I went to see it on Thursday. After the show I talked to my friend and she said Andrew had come the night before because she had told him I'd be there. I talked to him online a couple days ago and he was like "why weren't you at Jennifer's show? I went hoping to see you there." So...I don't know. I'm probably looking into things way too much. He might've just meant he was hoping to see someone he actually knew. Still, I can't help hoping....*shrugs.* I'm being stupid anyway. I mean, for one thing, why would anyone be remotely interested in me? I'm not trying to be sorry for myself or anything, I just can't imagine why anyone would feel that way about me. Besides, he's graduating in a few weeks and is going into the army. Damn, I really know how to pick 'em. This is so frusterating. I should just become a nun and live in a convent for the rest of my life. Out of sight, out of mind...right? *shakes head* Yeah right. I know from experience that that's not true.
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Friday, May 13, 2005

Hm...what to say...pretty good week. My grades have been going up, so that's great. I'm going to go see the spring play tonight 'cause Holly and I are ushering(yet again...). I saw a preview of it on Wednesday and it was pretty funny so I'm excited to see the whole thing. I gave an info speech on Tuesday about the salem witch trials and I wore a witch costume as one of my visual aids(well...just for fifth hour) and I got good reactions from that. The rest of the speech kind of sucked but oh, well. Um...I guess that's about it.
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Sunday, May 8, 2005

   Hello! So, today was pretty good. I had to get up at seven this morning to go to church which sucked because I was up so late last night but oh well. My grandma, aunt Jane, Uncle Tom and my cousin Joey came over for mothers day, so that was cool. Grandma wanted to hear me sing, because she knows how into it I am and she's even been helping to pay for voice lessons, so I sang Caro Mio Ben from masterclass and I don't like to toot my own horn but...ah, hell, TOOT TOOT! I sounded awesome. Mom got all teary eyed and everyone was all impressed. I felt so special. ^_^

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Friday, May 6, 2005

OKAY. My friend, the one I mentioned a while ago...I just don't know what to do. I thought she was getting better- she seemed better when I saw her at the confirmation retreat a couple months ago, but then again I haven't talked to her since then. She had the link to her livejournal in her profile so I clcked it, because she's just been so hard to talk to that the only way I know what's going on is what she writes in ther. Every post talks about how much she's been cutting and purging and she always says not to tell her parents. We've told her parents four or five times, they've sent her to therapy, but nothing seems to work. The thing that upsets me the most is how much she says no one cares, and it's tearing me apart because I do care, we all do, and we tell her constantly but she just doesn't seem to realize or believe it. One of these days I'm so scared that she's going to kill herself and there is nothing I can do to stop it. We've been friends since fourth grade. I don't know what I'd do if she died. I'm sorry this is so...yeah...I just really needed to rant.
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Saturday, April 30, 2005

Hola. Festival Quijote was...okay. My recitation was HORRIBLE. I was not ready at all. I had my poem memorized, but when I actually had to recite it I got sooo nervous and kind of forgot some parts and the judge had to prompt me. It sucked. The others were so good- one girl even did an excerpt from Lord of the Rings in Spanish, it was amazing. I met some people from another school and they were really cool. I showed them around the school because their school is tiny(about 208 kids) so they were really impressed and curious about what a school like mine is like. A few of them won awards, which was cool. When my mom picked me up and I told her I hadn't won she started going off on how if I love Spanish so much I should be talking to Spanish people and watching the Spanish channel so I can get better and win at the festival next year and she just kept going on like that so finally I was like "OKAY, I have an A in Spanish, I'm great in the class, and you're saying I need to do more so I'll be f**king perfect!" and started crying(well, I started crying at the f**king perfect part so at least she didn't hear me say that...) and I felt awful because A) I hate crying and B) my mom had seriously made me feel horrible about something that I'm normally very proud at excelling at. My mom felt really bad about that and apologized, and I apprecciate that, but she does that so much, and I hate it. So, yep...that's it.
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Friday, April 29, 2005

Hey, pretty decent week. Monday I was SUPPOSED to have a lesson but my voice teacher got her Thursday schedule confused with Monday so she wasn't there and rescheduled my lesson for Thursday and again, didn't show up. I need to work on my audition song! I've only gone over it with her once, and that was just when we were choosing a song. Grr. Tuesday I had church choir rehearsal, nothing too exciting. Wednesday...I don't think there was anything interesting then. Yesterday was confrences, yippee. Mom and Dad went and it was pretty good. I'm only having trouble in a couple classes. Holly's in Canada so speech has been kind of boring. Tomorrow's the festival Quijote, and since Holly and I can't do our solo I'm doing a poem from a book of poems I wrote for my project, and it SUCKS, but then again being creative with a limited Spanish vocabulary isn't very easy, so hopefully the judges will forgive me. I'm not sure if I have to have it memorized, but I really hope not. Well...that's about it.
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

So...what to say...waiting for Inuyasha to come on...had church choir earlier. Saw The Interpreter with Holly and Caitlin. It was pretty good. I think I have a NET meeting next week-the last one of the season, and the hometeam's not going to be there, because this month was their last. I'm gonna miss them! They were so cool! And Andy...*sigh*. Yeah...except he's too old for me and forgot my name three or four times...still...I'm going to miss all of them. At the moment I'm trying to ignore my sister and her insane friend who is spending the night. Such fun. Well...I need to upload a chapter onto my Fatal Frame fanfiction...if any of you wanna read it go to fanfiction.net and do a title search under Fatal Frame for "Their Side of the Story." It's awesome. Really. Read it. NOW. Haha.
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