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Friday, November 5, 2004

   MEH.....guys....
Okay, this is going to sound amazingly dorky and pathetic, but there are two guys I can't get my mind off of for two entirely different reasons. One is Josh, the idiot who thinks I like him. I can't stand him-he's creepy, he's pompous, he's a jerk...and I can't stop thinking about him! I always let him get to me, even when he doesn't say a word to me(not that he does often-he's "too cool" for me). I DON'T GET IT. I hate him, so why can't I stop thinking about him?! ARRRGHH! The other one is...my friend, Karl. I kind of think I like him. I mean, obviously I LIKE him, he's one of my best friends, I mean...well, you all know what I mean. But it's pointless because we've both talked about it and decided it'd be better to stay friends. And, I mean, that should be good enough. But I still can't stop thinking about him. He's just....I don't know how to describe him. He's sweet and funny and easy to talk to, but there's something more about him that I love. I've had other crushes where I feel awkward and nervous and scared and self conscious, but I never feel that way with Karl. I feel like I can be myself more, I don't have to worry. I can talk to him about everything. I'm always happy when I'm with him, but it's different than the happiness I feel with other friends. But it's pointless because we're JUST FRIENDS! Why does this always have to happen? I've never liked a guy who's liked me back. I mean, I don't blame them-I'm not exactly Miss America. It just sucks. Especially now. It's frusterating to feel this way about someone and know that it's...I don't know.....USELESS. Meh....
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