Tuesday, May 30, 2006

The day is almost here till.....the end of school!!!!!!

Well hi again guys, well i guess I am feeling better now that I know that I am no burden to him, but i just know that I am somehow a bother to others I guess. Oh wow would you look at that it's almost the end of school. Yey but men I would really miss my friends and all and even though it may suck going to school but one reason I want to go school is that men I would be sooooooooo BORED here at my own house. Oh o well I guess I got to live this life. PS. If you are confused about me changing my feelings again and again well it is because I have to complete selves one is the light(happy,joyful,cheerful,crazy all things goody goody..beware hyper sometimes.) and the other is the dark side(lonely,painful,hurtful,unwanted,lost,some anger,and yeah full darkness within the heart) so you see I feel like I have two sides of me. well I guess i am repeating this again, Iknow i know I told you this before. Here a pic: Light and Dark Mena Hikari

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

My Wasted Life

I can take it anymore of my lovelife I just wanna be alone, I mean I feel like I am just a burden to him and to all his friends and what use am I, if I don't even express my emotions and talk. Damn it, I guess I can see why I am always queit, lonely, lost and in Pain, it's because I am abnormal and unwanted, all I can do is talk a little to other people. I just can't be as out going as others, so I guess all I would ever be to him is a burden.... I HATE MY LIFE, WHY WAS I EVEN BORN THIS WAY, ALWAYS LONELY AND SO........ I GUESS A BROKEN HEART IS WHAT I RATHER PREFER THAN A HEART FULL OF LOVE AND LAUGHTHER. LONELY IS ALL I EVER BE...............

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Friday, May 26, 2006

Hi again Guys

Well before I start any other story I would like to say HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIAOMIAO... Okay so today was just an ordinary day, like always but yeah I still feel left out. But well today during Lunch well you see my friend Shane kept teasing me and Paul so I guess Paul hated whenever he teases me and him, so Paul bitched slapped Shane and then later Shane's nose started to bleed I mean that was like a soft hit. Well I kinda have a bad day because me i sat on gum and boy I tried my best just to hide it, lucky thing nobody noticed it. Well thats all the interestings that happened today... Then about my LOVELIFE well it's still going great but I am really worried about Paul he seemed to have change a little ever since I came to his life, he always seemed to always protect me and yea sometimes he does things he had never done before. I am just so worried that what if he gets in trouble beacuse he wanted to protect me or so, I just feel so in the way of his life, I mean I rarely talked but still he doesn't have to do all those things to protect me I am okay as long as I have control over my anger(rarely get mad in school but alot here at home. So right now I feel so guilty for being in the way of life. Oh well thats all for now.... ~Mena Hikari

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Hey Guys it's been a while.

Hey guys I am really sorry I guess I missed out on all the fun and all but yeah still busy with school, friends, family and of coarse my love life. Huh, well ever since Tuesday I feel so different now it's like i am changing but I am feel like I am still the old me. Huh, confusing isn't it....well what I mean to say is that now and then I always felt that one day or so I would soon loose him and I really don't want him to go( meaning me alone ) It's like I have to choose to either be myself or change my life for him, I mean he has done lot's of things for me and I really do want to return the same favor back to him. Huh, well right now I am feeling bored so I guess I'll try to fix up my site and maybe go to everybodies sites. Question: Does anybody know an anime called Suzuka? cause I am dying to know what kind of anime it is. PS: Well since I am rarely here if you wanted to ask other questions or other things just email me on.. anime_angel221@yahoo.com Laters, Mena Hikari

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Well today is mother's day and I wish all your mother's have a great Mother's day. Huh I am so tired, because well this weekend there were too much parties to attend. I mean party Saturday and party today, and Boy I am so tired and dirty. Well about my lovelife I guess you can say it is going along okay, but I have this felling that things will change. Mena Hikari

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Sunday, May 7, 2006

Back.....

Hey guys sorry for all those long days not being online, it is just that I'm dealing with this SAT10 test so I really have to study. Well it's been long so I'll tell you one thing thats happening to me: Well I am still going through my lovelife and right now I am feeling really confused about it. I feel lost with this feeling. Well I g2g to make it up to you guys I just hope you enjoyed the video....

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Hey guys

well I am really sorry I haven't been updating it's just that we have this test called Sat 10 and it's gonna take about 2 weeks to be finished. Huh well sorry for all those long waits but sooner or later if i have time I may change my site. g2g Mena

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Friday, April 21, 2006

PTC

Well sorry if I didn't get to visit everybodies sites and comment and even add a post..it was just that since i had no school today I just kinda got lazy and my eyes were stuck to the tv. Well okay today is PTC and when I went to the school today I was kinda scared about my grades,but then suddenly I saw my report card and then I was relief I had all A's: math-92% health-100% Cultural Arts-95% Language Arts-98% Science-98% Reading-94% Social Studies-97% and then after I got my report card...me,my mom and my cousin went to the base to by some stuff then later, I got home then here I am.. -Well i am dearly sorry if I haven't been commenting you guys sites cause now and then when my mom works me, my sis and bro have to spend the night at my neighbor's house.So I'll try to comment you guys sites now before I go. bye ~Tanya

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Some weird Day

Okay hi again guys...well tanx for commenting and srry i won't be able to visit anyones site today cause well I have to sleep at my nieghbors house which is so hot. Okay about my day. Before School: Well felt the same again and this time kinda felt like I am in a weird world were I am suppose to be left out..but thinking of that, I feel I wanna go back to the past were my bests friends would always be there for me. Homebase: Nothin much, fell asleep again. 1stperiod: nothin much only reviewed about 4 lessons before the quiz...well I am guessing I have to study real hard. 2ndperiod: nothin much just another studying before a test or quiz. 3rdperiod: Darn I I have a test 2morrow and it's pretty hard translating words into chamoru. 4thperiod: well it's lunch and I don't even eat so I always have to stay out...but this lunch period was different I just felt so so lonely like it was really that everybody was casting me aside...huh but lucky thing it change cause Paul and Jacob were with me to cheer me up but again I am just to quiet. 5thperiod: nothin much just need to study for a test again ..mehn too many tests. 6thperiod: did project then freetime.. 7thperiod: did a lesson then freetime. 8thperiod: did our assignment and them I guess freetime again...well that was like a thrilling ride to freetime...then after school this Chelsea almost took of with my jacket lucky thing I remember it. LOVELIFE: Well it seems like it is goin well but still how could a guy understand me when I am just to quiet that all he falls for is my smile...I feel that with or without a man I am always heart broken. * But thanks to some advices I feel kinda better. Thanks everbody. Ps: Srry I don't have much time to put my drawing. Oh yea my actaully real name is Tanya Mena Hikari was an anime name I made.

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Back In School

Huh, today was such a boring day...cuz I had to go to the bus stop alone...well this morning again I felt my heart broke out it was like I was just sittin there being pushed a side and forgotten. Well that really hurts feelin that way, mehn why can't I talk, I am just to quiet, I have these rules in my head that says that if I ever talk like crazy I would surely be so bad like low grades and all...but I realize some kids are talkitive but they still get higher grades than me...huh I guess I have a world of my own. okay I'll tell how my day was... Homebase: did lesson, fell asleep doin it. 8th period: nothin much just did some easy work and I borrowed Bleach part 2 from a friend. 7th period: Nothin much just did a lesson. 3rd period: nothin much as well but I do have a project and darn I even have a test thurs. 4th period: nothin much just finished science project and sat on the sidewalk talkin to myself. 5th period: nothin much well I do have homework soooo yea still gotta do it. 6th period: nothin much copied notes and did my continueing Dnangel story. 2nd period: read a 3 sections than freetime then I talked to my friend about video games and he really loves car video games. 1st period: nothin much but my teacher is so dumb cause he said that we do some math work but lucky thing our classmates kept him occupied to thier talkin that we didn't do work yey... LOVELIFE: Well still confused but yea... but some how after the break I feel like I was thrown out of the relationship. Huh well thats okay cause I do feel lost. *Well I talked to much blah blah blah..... g2g o maybe tomorrow I am gonna put up another drawing..... k bye ~Mena Hikari

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